Peace is a blessing from God and it can never be bought or sold so protect your own peace at all costs .
I know it's hard to do good to people who hurt you especially if they do it on purpose and from time to time but rather ignore than to return the favour because nothing will ever get resolved,it will only turn you to a monster. Trust me I know .
What would happen if God returned the same energy that we give ? If he abandoned us the same way we abandoned him? Would the world be a better place to be then? I believe that it's not up to us to decide the fate of our oppressors but that's God's job and Karma too .
Don't get me wrong I am not putting myself to be the greatest or the most humble person on earth but I'm just enlightening the world because I've also passed stages where I've reacted badly but I never gained anything from it ,only depression . Trying to keep up on ways to revenge yourself is really a messed up thing especially for your mentality .
You know what the challenge is ? You know where the danger is? Even in relationships the people we love the most hurt us the most but we still still give them love ,support and care . You wanna know why? Because if we sin just to crucify sinners then what is the difference between us and the sinners ? Aren't we just sinners too trying to be justified? Mmmh it gets deeper . When you do not return evil with evil it does not make you a loser it simple means you're intelligent enough to know what measures to take to protect your well being and your soul .
Just like the trees ,being blown away by every wind on any direction in life damages you because you're just like somebody that does not have a back bone ,reacting exactly how other people want you to . Society standards ! If you don't get it forget about it ! Not having a back bone is like selling your soul to the devil you constantly have to be treating your heart and body like a puppet . Free yourself .
Hey I am Bella ,call me the unfortunate. I've learnt to differentiate between the good and the bad and the pros and cons of following the bad because I had to do a few wrong "no so right" things in my life because of the anger I had . I grew up know as the "NERD" mainly because all I did was read ,write ,do well at school and get back at home and be a good girl . My life wasn't exciting like from a really young age . It was really hard being me . Why? Mainly because other than being the nerd of the school I didn't have the looks either .I never met the society standards ,I am talking about beauty and brains because I had the brains but just not the beauty .
Growing up being a lonely person is something I'd never wish for anyone . Nobody wanted to be my friend,I mean obviously who'd want to befriend a "NOBODY". I mean apart from being ugly and boring I didn't have the luxurious life either . My mother was a farmer and my dad ? Oh well he was an absent father ,I mean he still is an absent father .Worst part is I was the only child and obviously I would never tell my mother about my problems especially the ones that included boys . I grew up being my own brother ,my own friend,my own sister and my own mentor . I must say ,I grew up being the most angry person on earth .
"Hey boy what's your name?" Or "Hey boy why aren't you playing soccer with other boys in the soccer field" that's how ugly I was . Everybody mistaking me to be a boy . Hahaha it's funny now but back then it wasn't but as the elders say , what doesn't end is a taboo .
Anxiety felt like a drug to me ,if I wasn't taunted then it felt like I had lost my kick . I got used to being that one girl from Jupiter ,the alien on earth , somebody everybody never wanted around . No I'm joking I never got used to it ,I just found someone to share the pain or burden rather with . A weird guy named Jack . At first I also didn't want to be friends with him ,I mean I was weird too but to me he seemed more weird . He never combed his hair ,his uniform never was complete and his teeth were funnily shaped but he was cute though . One thing I liked about him was that he was such a...oh no I am giving way too much information now let me save some for later.
Back to the inspirational part . In life if you get lemons turn them to ...(lemonades ) what? Who said that? (We already know what you are going to say ,we just want to hear more about Jack ) . Oh Lord but because it's you my readers I'll do as you wish . So back to Jack ,the guy from Pluto . Hahaha ! Another alien !Just like me .
Jack is really weird ,he dips his bread inside tea ! Ewwww! He is really weird but he is all I got right now . My very own chance to experiencing friendship and you know talking to a boy . All boys have always kept their distance from me . You'd swear I was COVID 19 ,more like COVID 100 . I got a chance to speak to a boy now even though he is weird .
"Hey Jack " ,I said with a low scared voice . He didn't respond . Here I was regretting why I spoke to him in the first place because he did what the rest of the boys do ,ignore me . As I was walking away he slowly grabbed my hand and replied , "Hey Bella" . With a wide smile on my face I screamed "Yes Lord ! " And jumped with excitement. Finally a boy had spoke to me ,it was a dream come true ! God does take care of his own ! I didn't know what to say after because the only conversation I've had was with my mother and my teachers not my peers but something had to be said . "Would you like to be my friend ? I can show you around the school . " I said. "Oh well we can start by being acquaintances for now " Jack replied . "Can I show you around the school? Yes ? No? Maybe? " I asked . " Maybe tomorrow , I have to leave now bye " Jack said as he left . Now I was confused was I too weird for a weirdo? Back to square one ! Bella the lonely .
In life we all have moments where we are super confident about something then we get disappointed and our self esteem goes from 100 to 0 . More like from Hero to zero . (Does this somehow talk about Jack? ) Ohh come on this is an inspirational novel remember? I can't talk about boys all the time and my mom says ,boys bring babies . (Not Jack) oh Lord ,you don't even know Jack! (So tell me about him) Psshhhh wait . One more thing. Like I said in life you'll meet people who are not patient enough to be with you on your downs just like my dear readers here ,wanting to hear all about Jack and not my story . ( Really now?) Yes ! If you were to die everytime you were killed by people then by now you'd be buried and forgotten so what I'm trying to say is that if we were to lose something everytime people disappointed us then we wouldn't achieve anything. Do not be shaken by any human and do not ! I repeat do not act before you think or you'll lose yourself everytime .
Want to hear about Bella ? (and Jack) oh yes and Jack? Get ready to read the next chapter. Welcome to my world . Call me Bella the Angry bird . No wait , call me Bella the Angry lion ,sounds a bit intimidating .Hahaha ! Why am I laughing? I'm supposed to be scary !Argggh . Call me Bella the Funny brat .