All starts with a desire of a poor couple with five children to get them educated so they can live a more comfortable life so, they worked hard and got their children admitted to school now comes the problem how to pay their fees coming form a poor family they didn't have anything more than the land they practised farming on and some jewellery the lady had .Eldest son grew up before time and took the responsibility of his brothers education along with his father and grandfather, 2 of them got good jobs after their education and 2 quitted their education in middle cause they were distracted and were not interested in studying all the counselling and advising was of no use so at last the parents gave up on them leaving them to do whatever they can to earn their living but the story is not about these 2 its about one of the 2 who made their parents expectation true. The middle brother studied hard got a good job and was married to a lady chosen by his parents for him both of them where capable enough to make good earning still the lady had to quit her job to look after the family, no doubt the family had made a lot of sacrifice for the son but they were harsh on her . A joint family it was with 2 elder brother-in-laws and their wives along with her father and mother-in-law , things were hard for her to be according to everyone while her husband was out working . A number of mishappenings took place , the fortune she got from her father was stolen , she fell terribly ill and others refused to help her , her sister in laws left her to manage everything alone and to the worst miscommunication between husband and wife left her tormented . She dealt with all those things become a little normal but she developed hard feelings for the family members and even for her own husband .It was the time she was pregnant with her first child and here comes the social obligation of giving birth to a son, being unfortunate she gave birth to a girl . Things got more dramatic, of all that a lady would hear for having a girl child can't relate, you think we have moved to 21st century where in world things like this happen but that's the sad truth that things like this still exist .after sometime the husband took her and his child with him to where he was posted life was more peaceful there . Though the mother got alot of criticism but the child was loved and cared by her grandparents that's what she believed .growing up was fun with no realisation of worldly things it's just pure emotions and no tension, enjoying to one's fullest . But things can't be like that forever you grow up and now starts the struggle it's not your headache until you don't recognize it .my parents say i was good till 5th standard but after that i was more into extracurricular activities giving no heed to my studies . Just got passing marks in few subjects but was good in others and even for my parents it was not that important as they thought i was still a child would do better when i would grow older . But that was a time when i got most dreaded experience of my life . A below average student that's what i became at the end of 5th grade and the friends i had were no less than a nightmare .
When they realised i didn't had any goal and knew nothing of the world and was neither good at studies, i was marginalized like literally yes it did happen all the toppers at one side and i, at the edge . Since they were the monitors i had my name written in every single list of falsifiers got scolded by the teachers moreover teased by everyone else in the class since they were the popular once , the toppers . I frequently got into fight with them but i don't blame them for all that happened i was responsible for it too, as being a hot headed person i always gave them opportunity to defame me . But things got on my nerve when my things started being stolen , notebooks torn to pieces , water spilled in my bag and complains my parents had to hear at parents teachers meeting . I was depressed as i knew my father worked hard to give me all things i had but they were getting destroyed and stolen i had to face this for all most 2 and a half year even getting beaten up by them .
I used to cry at school but not a single soul knew nor did anyone had any sympathy cause that's what we are taught the ones good at academics are the ones right . Even though i didn't do anything wrong i was the one wrong , at a point i even thought why would my parents even listen to me who knew nothing of studies, even the basics . I couldn't even express myself, my only escape from all this was my play time , being so indulged in playing so that i would return home exhausted, do my homework , have dinner and sleep . my mother got me out of this miserable situation by sending me to tuition . Still remember my first day there , teacher asked questions like what are real numbers , multiplication , division , hcf , lcm and I knew not even a single thing not even tables aghh.... i sat there crying all in tears she gave me my work to learn tables till 20 . I sat there beside others crying ,she asked me to wash my face i went to the restroom washed my face cried for like 2 minutes and came out , when it was time to go home my mother came to get me , i was all red and sat there waiting for her ,the teacher told my mother about me and she did nothing, just looked my way .we went home i begged her not to send me to that horrible place i will do all i can to get good marks but my mother refused to all my pleas ...just imagine yourself when you're the master and cool person to do very well while playing on field , everyone assumes you to be good at every single game and the same you being stripped of that image in front of the kids you play with ,heart breaking it was but since my mother was determined and my father couldn't speak a word against her i had to go there next day . Thankfully she was a good teacher who worked hard on me and taught me everything i worked well and improved . Towards the end of 8th standard i was well off in my studies and teachers at school appreciated me ,life was getting back on track . At ptm i made my parents happy with my result, they were proud . In 9th grade i had good teachers at school who gave some importance to a below average student who tried hard to improve herself . I had a good image in teachers now but was still bullied by these kids ,after a while i stopped reacting so they had to stop their stupid acts . Life was better now i wanted it to stay that way but nothing lasts forever this good student life ended soon where i just had to study and get good marks .
Now I was a teenager and it's time to set a goal so I decided to be a doctor took the enterence exam but failed terribly as the things we studied at school were completely different from what was asked but i made it to another prestigious institute for an educational course degree i even secured a good rank .determined to be a doctor i dropped out and took coaching to clear it. 2nd attempt ,scored better but still couldn't make to the merit list . That was the 1st time in my life when i was shaken to my soul and questioned my efforts ,i never had friends ,didn't do anything else than studying but lacked some where thus, couldn't make it, may be i was careless but right here look at the way the thought i turned down a good university to become a doctor because that's what i have heard either be a doctor , engineer or an officer less than that is nothing not just from others but form my own father .... self doubt , despair , anxiety that i failed my parents . I could do nothing in my life was the next thought that haunted me day and night .my parents expected me to be very good at studies but the result made it all clear according to me .