Only If I didn't Existed

It was a windy day, Playgrounds empty, the main market was closed it seemed like no one had been to this place in a while but at the same time everything was so maintained that it looked like if anyone comes and lives they would be very comfortable. Suddenly a small noice from the west came , the voice wasent just any normal human's voice but it felt like it was a angle's voice, it was a song soo beautiful anyone would have loved it the second they hear it "Only if I didn't insisted 🎵 Only if I existed" these two lines are from heaven, Suddenly everything changed after this song, The sun came out , the playgrounds had childrens playing, running here and there and having fun, the market's were opened, People buying stuff some people bargaining some people pushing each other, Everything was just looking normal, It felt like I was in another world for a second but still in the same world, the feeling could not be expressed in words it's just a feeling. Everytime I lay in the garden looking at the sky and closing my eyes I feel like I see another world same as ours but completely different. It's a regular thing now, I am used to it, honestly I like that feeling, I feel like I have a connection with that world but the other second I feel like I am a idiot. "Amy, come here I need your help" Mom said in a worried voice "Coming mom" I said, I went to mom inside the house, The house was a mess, things were scattered here and there and my mother said in a hurried voice "Amy fast, catch this cat, it drank all the milk" I didn't had time to reply so I just did as she said, I ran after the cat and suddenly a voice from somewhere came and it said "Stop don't hurt me please" I didn't knew what happened and I suddenly stopped I felt like it was talking to me, my mother suddenly came to me and said in a scolding and deep voice " WHY DID YOU STOP, CATCH HER OR NO DINNER FOR YOU" food was one of the most important thing to me so I didn't acted anything and ran after it, I am quite fast so I catched it, again the same voice came to me "please don't hurt me" I thought I was listening things but it felt real, it felt so real that I dident knew what to do so I just freezed and in a second my mother came and catched it, I dident had a idea what should I do if I let mom keep her she is gonna kill it but if I keep It I am gonna get killed, I decided in a second what to do, before I say anything a tall, huge women approached us and said in a very deep voice "These cats are getting so annoying, give it to me I'll teach it a lesson it also drank my milk, they are so annoying" before I say anything my mother said "yeah you are right Mrs. James these cats are really annoying I'll leave this cat to you, do whatever you want with it" my mother said bit I couldn't just let it be like that, I am not a heartless person so I said "Wait, it Isint cat's fault it was just hungry" I said but they both dident seemed to be interested in Listening to that " you don't want food today do you" now my mother was blackmailing me, for some reason I wanted to give that cat too but somewhere inside my heart I dident wanted to and I also wanted to know that what I heard was really nothing or something, I had to stand up but food it something I can do anything for, so should I just give up on the cat and the instinct or should I give up on the food for the cat and the instinct?