It was hard. Much harder than I thought.
Although I knew that it was going to be hard, I never imagined that it would be this hard or this painful. I had no idea how I managed to convince myself that I was going to be fine. It was such a thin line between acting courageous and acting like a fool, and in that moment, I had no idea which side of the line I fell on.
I could have escaped this situation or partially evaded it, but instead, I chose to face it in the name of maintaining my professionalism. The stinging pain in my chest made me doubt the correctness of my decision; however, there was nothing that I could do about it anymore at that point. There was no way that I could turn back time to undo my decision, and even if I could, I was sure that I didn’t want to do that. It was just unfortunate for me that it would hurt and bother me this much.
