'My name is Lloyd Stevenson . I came from a very normal family , I had a strict dad who did not show his love in front of us but me and my brother loved him. A beautiful ma , who made us delicious food every day, now I very deeply miss it.
I am a successful man, A CEO in a respected company , but that's what the public knows of me. And my life can be called anything but not successful. I am reaching 53 next month. I have a good wife she gave me her hand on the day I was very broken, I love her deeply ,And we got married after a lot of ups and down in my relationship but it ended well. After we got married she gave a cute daughter whom I love the most, she is the most dearest to me.
Alas! she is married now, but she gave me granddaughter , and I love her deeply too. I also have a son, he is working as a head of a branch in a respected company, he is settled right now, but he took some bad turns in his life, because i was not a great parent he had to go through many difficult times. I am deeply regeretfull..'
Today was 13th of march in the year of 2285, Me , my wife , my daughter, and my son were sat on the dining table today together after a long time . We had great matter to discuss, it was about my health , day before yesterday my reports came and in that it was written in 'bold letters' that I only got 18 months to live, this shocked me to the core, and after my family got to know about this we planned a talk, a family talk, I was very happy that after a long time our family is sitting together and will be enjoying our dinner, but the topic we were about to talk about was sad, very sad.
On the dining table we all were sitting but it was silent, very silent . I did not like it and said breaking the silence and serious mood of everyone, " I am fine , I have lived a good life to this day , I got you *******(A/N : wife name , cant tell you that this soon) and I love you, . I love my family and nothing changes it, not even this report.
"We know dear you love us , but see this seriously you only got 18 months to live , only 18 moths to be with me, ho can I not be sad" my wife says to me and starts sobbing at the last part . After seeing her like this , I cant help but feel pride on my decision that day to marry her, but also felt regret how can I make her cry.
"yes father , you have to look at this seriously, you should now retire and do what you always wanted, God told you when you will die to make you fulfill your dreams . See this like this you can't be always worrying about us . Me and sis are adults now we can handle our family like we do to ours." says my son . 'how proud he made me feel only I can know that in this speech. He is much mature than his sister because of some rash decisions he took in his youth. but this moment made me feel proud.' After listening to his son speaking his daughter who was giving her shoulder to support her mother, also started sobbing. She was a emotional child and after knowing her father will die in 18 months she can't control her emotions.
Looking at my wife and daughter sobbing and my son trying to suppress his emotions , it made me sad but I cant reason with them. I had done lot of things in life from skydiving to to scuba diving. But what can I even tell them.
suddenly an idea hit me , about writing about my life.
I straighten my back on the chair I was sitting , raises my head up and tells my family, "I have decided what I will do. I will retire from the company give the ceo position to somebody else and write down my life . " strangely I started to express more I don't know why or how but probably having to know your time to die makes you like this .
After listening to my dream my family fully supported this. probably because they wanted me to rest now.
The next day.......
I was in my room . My room is pretty big , its in rectangle shape. In this room there are many pictures hanging . one with me alone, one with my wife, one with our family when my children were small, teenage, adult. i have some with old friends, some paintings I drew in high school .It also have piano in it , my daughter got me into this as she wanted to play it but her interest died soon but my interest towards it didn't. its more for decoration now. my room is white but one wall is painted light green, the wall in which pictures ,paintings are hanged , and window frames are dark red. there is not a lot of furniture but enough for me- a big bed, some chairs, working table which have my books documents ,laptop etc on it.
I sat on the chair in front of the working table , a pen and a new empty book were laid there . I take up the pen , this year was 2285 . I recollects my memories from when I took the first step in the grounds of my high school which was named after its founder the Baskeville high. I made a lot of memories there , I broke my heart there for first time, I even lost my virginity there but its for me nothing but the books name indicating where my life started .
'THE BEGINNING OF THE END'
This was the name I thought of , it indicates the start of my life which is going to end in some less than 20 months, I now started thinking about the life I went through. I don't know how but the memories , I can remember them as if yester day.
So let me brace myself for this long journey, I don't know if I will be able to finish this but one things for sure , my family is supporting me in this so I will give it my all, no I have to give it my all,.
I turn the first page of the empty book holds my pen in the left hand and slowly starts writing, when I held the pen I felt excited something I thought had died in me I started 'expecting' something from this, but this was diffrent cause I always 'expected' low from any thing. .,
I don't know how it will turnout but lt's now starting...