Julia just looked up at him as he entered the doorway, obliviously.
He said he didn't like it and had to struggle to let it go, but strangely, there was no strength in his body.
As I went up the stairs and passed the hallway, Melissa, who was just standing in front of the bedroom, bowed her head in surprise.
Without looking at Melissa like that for a second, Fernando entered the bedroom.
At that moment, Yulia, who suddenly came to her senses, struggled in his arms.
Despite the helplessly pushing the body away, Fernando persevered across the room and made his way to the bed.
As she sat down on the bed, Yulia opened her mouth unsteadily again.
"Are you going to lock me up like this again? Again, take me to this hell... ."
Fernan's dark eyes fell deeply at the word hell.
For Julia, he was hell. It's just a prison where you can't live comfortably.
"… Even if it's hell."
Fernan, who had muttered dangerously, then bowed his head.
"Anyway, stay here."
He took a step back and turned around slowly. Julia looked at her overbearing back as she walked away and touched her forehead.
Tak, as the door closed, my head began to throb.
Feeling her heart beating precariously, she lowered her gaze. My vision was gradually blurring.
* * *
A day passed like that.
In the morning after not being able to sleep all night, the attending physician, Rockman, came to visit Julia.
It was then that Julia realized that I had been unconscious for ten days after I was brought to Fernando.
It was the first time I had been unconscious for so long since I fell off a cliff a year ago.
Rockman grabbed her wrist and paused for a while. Rockman, who had been judging something with his gaze lowered, immediately raised his head.
"Fortunately, I can feel my blood vessels beating a little now. But... ."
Rockman spoke to Fernando, who was standing next to him.
He urged Rockman as he looked at him as if hesitating.
"Are there any other problems?"
"… That is, the blood flow is still not smooth. The blood flow to your heart is blocked."
Rockman glanced at Yulia, who was sitting there with an expressionless face.
"Sir, do you not feel any pain?"
Yulia had a pale face, as if she couldn't feel any pain.
She looked down, not answering Rockman's question.
In fact, it wasn't that she wasn't currently in pain as he saw it.
However, he is mentally concentrated and is just trying to forget the pain.
At this moment, Yulia was noticing that my powers had faded more than before.
Previously, it felt like a mist in my heart, but now I can barely even feel it.
So, that meant that my vitality was greatly reduced.
Looking at Julia with an empty expression somewhere, Fernando wrapped her chin in an anxious expression.
He already knew that she had heart disease.
A member of the legislature sent to Shinseongguk the other day had heard reports that her condition was gradually improving.
But contrary to reports, she recently lost consciousness for a long time.
In the end, it was self-evident that her current condition must have been worse than it had been.
"First of all, it is better to take a pain reliever along with a drug that helps blood circulation."
Rockman replied with a bowed head.
Her condition was somewhat subtle for a common heart disease, but for now it was for the best.
"After taking the manufactured medicine, we will monitor the progress. Then, I'll just leave."
Fernando nodded, and Rockman bowed deeply, then turned around.
Tak, the door closed and only the two of them were left in the bedroom. Fernando opened his mouth with an unsuitable, cautious voice.
"Yulia, if you feel any pain, tell me immediately."
"… … ."
"Are there any other uncomfortable places? The heat… ."
When he reached out and tried to touch his forehead, Julia quickly turned her head to avoid her.
Her cold, dry eyes completely turned away from him.
Fernan took her outstretched hand and looked at her quietly.
"rest. I'll bring her maid."
Fernando stared at her, who didn't even look at me for a moment, then turned away.
Perhaps he thought that keeping Melissa by his side would make her more stable.
However, Julia has not yet finished understanding the situation. It was the same with Melissa.
Then, a cold voice descended from her.
"If you keep me with you, you won't get anything from your Majesty."
Fernan, who stood tall, turned his head again.
Julia looked at him for the first time with a calm face.
"Whatever you want, I have nothing more to offer."
Fernan put her in her eyes. She looked like she didn't want to stay with him even for a moment. She looked like she was embarrassed to even face him.
Julia, who looked at him like that, approached him like a dagger, but Fernanh just quietly muttered.
"I know, something like that."
His eyes dimmed like darkness for an instant. He knew that no word could change her mind.
In Julia, he would be an object of disgust just to meet him.
Yulia looked straight at the man standing in front of me with her eyes narrowed.
All kinds of desperate emotions were on his face, which was always handsome.
Just when he suddenly felt puzzled by that appearance, a quiet voice that killed all his emotions came out of him.
"As much as I hurt you, you can give it all back."
"… … ."
"Even if it hurts worse than that, I will gladly accept it."
While Julia looked at him with an expression that was difficult to understand, the low and low voice continued.
"… So stay by my side Do not leave."
As always, a one-sided coercion. But the voice sounds like it's begging.
Julia shook her head while clutching the bed linen tightly.
Begging or coercion, in the end this man was going to lock me up again.
It means that he will lock him in his cage and let him enjoy everything only in him. As before.
"You haven't changed in the slightest."
"… … ."
"Really, not even a little… ."
There was hate towards him in his scornful voice. Julia lowered her gaze.
Even if he had no choice but to be locked up like this, he would never behave the way he wanted.
Not a single glance, not a single heart, not a single word.
Yulia swallowed a heavy breath and bit her lip.
Fernando was willing to take even that look of her into his eyes. She seemed to accept all her hate, resentment, and even anger.
* * *
A full month has passed like that.
Meanwhile, Yulia didn't even have the energy to run away, so she had to stay in her bedroom all day.
I wasn't feeling well. As the day went on, the power ran out.
What's more, it was later discovered that this place was lying on the side of a mountain.
It meant that trying to run away from the frozen mountains in winter was tantamount to suicide.
I was in my thoughts for a while, and after a while I heard a knock on the door.
Julia didn't even look back and didn't open the door. Because I knew who it was without checking.
Suddenly, the door opened and someone stepped inside.
"Yulia."
A familiar voice was heard, but Yulia did not turn her head.
Then I heard the sound of a tray being put down on the table.
"Eat. You can't take medicine on an empty stomach."
When she didn't answer, the sound of footsteps behind her soon drew closer.
"Yulia."
Yulia reflexively pushed him away as a hand gently stroking his shoulder.
As she turned her head, Fernan, who was standing nearby, was quietly looking down at her.
"I'm not going to eat it."
"eat."
It was a firm, but not coercive voice. Julia glared at him while biting her lower lip.
Whatever it was, I didn't want to do what he told me to do.
Fernando looked over her skinny body without saying a word. A leaner body than a week ago. In his eyes, Julia could only be seen standing.
Fernan, who had a hardened expression for an instant, opened his mouth.
"Release your anger only on me. Do not abuse yourself in this way."
Julia trembled with both hands. He was right. This was an act of gnawing at myself.
However, this weak self-esteem could not be broken. If he did even the smallest thing as he would, it would make him feel like he would conform to this situation.
Looking at her clenching her hands, Fernan whispered softly.
"I'll bring the maid, so let's eat."
"… … ."
"If you want, I won't show up for a while."
Then he stared at her for a moment as if carved into it, then turned his back.
Julia turned back without even looking at him as he was moving away.
Through the window, I could see the clear sky with the sun rising. But her heart was dim without a single ray of light.