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Chapter 12 - Episode 11

Julia looked up at him with droopy eyes.

Even though he was still hurt by the cold kick, when I looked at his face like this, I was relieved without speed.

Julia opened her mouth in a quiet voice.

"… Your Majesty, why don't you come back to the castle?"

At those words, Fernan narrowed her eyes. Julia shrugged her shoulders and spoke her firmly.

"I know it's off topic, but... I'm worried."

Fernan, who looked down at her without answering, finally let out a small laugh.

It wasn't enough to talk about her worries, she had sad eyes in the midst of this.

Fernan, with his forehead sharply wrinkled, was about to say something more, but then he quietly shut his mouth.

Then he looked at her for a moment as she fell, and then turned around coldly.

After he went back to where the knights were, Lloyd, who was quietly watching the situation, suddenly reached out to Julia.

"Are you okay, Rain?"

"ah… thanks."

With Lloyd's support, Julia barely stood up and limped.

No matter how you fall, what do you mean to just leave it behind? Lloyd stuck his tongue out at the master's terribly cold attitude.

Looking at Lloyd like that, Yulia, who had hesitated, asked carefully.

"Hey, where do you live?"

"Ah, that… ."

Lloyd, who pondered for a moment at her question, answered her roundly.

"Don't worry, I'm doing well. You're busy with work and you're late for your return."

"okay… ."

Seeing her pale, I felt somehow guilty. Lloyd scratched his cheek and politely bowed.

"Well then, let's go."

With those words, Lloyd hastily followed after Fernando.

After the commotion was settled, the streets became quiet again.

"Rain, your Majesty Rain, are you okay? Look where."

Melissa, who had been watching from afar, came rushing to her. She hurriedly rolled up Julia's sleeve, revealing her bare, swollen wrist.

"Ah, what should I do? This would definitely bruise... Are your ankles okay? Can you walk?"

"Sorry. I don't think I can walk alone."

Julia, supported by Melissa, suddenly looked back.

All the things I had bought with excitement a while ago were lying on the floor.

Melissa hurriedly picked up the fallen objects. Julia also limped and tried to pick up the bouquet on one side, but at that moment, the passing crowd mercilessly stepped on the flower and passed by.

As she gazed at the crushed petals, she pulled up her outstretched hand.

And he looked away without hiding his sad face.

* * *

Julia sighed as she looked at the bandages wrapped around her ankles. He had bruises on his wrists as well as his ankles.

After a few days of going to the downtown area, the wound deepened even more.

It was difficult to move because there were no places where the limbs were intact.

Julia sat in the armchair and looked out the window blankly. It felt like her heart was empty.

How long have you been sitting like that?

Someone opened the door and hurried inside. It was Melissa.

"My Majesty, Your Majesty, Your Majesty has returned!"

With her eyes wide open, Yulia jumped up from her seat.

A little relieved at his return, she was supported by Melissa and out into the hallway.

As I stood on the railing and looked down at the hall, I saw Fernan entering the doorway.

He passed the hall at a quick pace and climbed the stairs at once. Julia stood at the end of the stairs to greet him.

"majesty."

Fernan's gaze reached her for a brief moment, then quickly fell away.

He passed by Julia carelessly. It's like you're trying to treat her like a stranger.

Julia bit her lip and limped and followed him.

However, with his injured leg, he couldn't keep up with his long stride.

Meanwhile, he went into my room.

After a while, Yulia, who arrived in front of his room late, hesitated and knocked on the door.

"Sir, I have something to tell you."

I knocked on the door several times, but after a while, there was no answer from inside.

In the end, Julia slowly backed away and sighed a little.

"ha… ."

The pain came all at once, probably because I used my ankle because I was overworked.

She squatted against the wall and gently caressed my ankle.

I had no strength to get up. Julia sat like that for a long time, leaning her head against her wall.

After some time passed, the sound of the door opening was finally heard.

Yulia raised her head and met Fernan's eyes, looking down at me.

"I, my lord."

Julia hurriedly got up. Unknowingly, I was holding his large hand tightly, lest he would go in again.

"… Do not go. If it's okay for a moment, talk to me."

Fernan's eyes looking at her were too deep and dark to fathom.

The momentum was a little frightening, but Julia could hardly let go of this hand.

Then, without a word, Fernando grabbed her wrist and pulled it off.

At that moment, at the pain piercing through her wrist, Yulia screamed out involuntarily.

"ah!"

Fernan, who made an impression, looked down reflexively. Then she stared at the blue bruises on her wrists.

His eyes flickered subtly for a moment, but they didn't stay for long.

Soon he turned again and walked down the hallway relentlessly.

"Come on, wait… ."

Julia was hurriedly following him as he moved away, but fell over without a short time.

Maybe it was because he had broken his ankle because he had walked too hard, and a sobbing sound came out.

"… flaw."

I was in pain and couldn't move any more. I had to follow him, but it was sad that things didn't go my way.

For some reason, tears seemed to be pouring out, so Yulia gave strength to her forehead and held back her tears.

At that moment, the sound of footsteps moving away began to come closer again.

"… They do things differently."

A soft whisper was heard. When he raised his head, Fernando, who had already returned, was standing there with his lips biting.

He leaned towards her as she lay face down. Her strong arms supported behind her knees and her waist, holding her lightly.

His face got closer because of the hugging posture. Julia raised her eyes wide and looked at him.

Fernando started moving silently without looking at her.

"Go, thank you… ."

Yulia, who muttered a little, looked up at him with a bewildered mind.

Of course, he knew only that he would go away mercilessly, so he couldn't help but wonder when he came back.

Still, his expression was cold without any warmth.

However, the embrace that touched her was warmer than expected, and the hand holding her was cautious.

Although the gap was unfamiliar, he was willing without speed.

"Sir, I… ."

Yulia opened her mouth again, clearing her breathing as her heart was filled with tears.

"… I've never even thought of harming your majesty. There will never be."

"… … ."

"At that time, the weakness… It's my fault. His Majesty was enough to be misunderstood... ."

"You seem to be misunderstanding something."

A calming voice intercepted her words.

"I am not misunderstanding you."

"… … ."

"If you want to know the reason for my attitude, I will tell you."

Fernando looked down at her with expressionless eyes.

"From the beginning, I didn't want you to be my wife. That's my reason."

Fernan's words pierced her heart. Yulia, who had been staring at him endlessly, finally dropped her gaze.

His words were painful, but compared to what she had been through, it didn't even fit in the wounds.

It must have been so, but more painful than when she was beaten and swearing, the pain hit her and pressed down on her.

Yulia rolled her red eyes and said with a trembling voice.

"Still, I, Your Majesty… ."

"… … ."

"… You were good from the start."

Fernan stopped walking and looked down at her with a narrowed eyebrow.

Julia raised her gaze again and made eye contact with him. The crying voices continued.

"I like it, I don't want to go away. I don't want to get hurt... ."

Tears streamed down from his blue eyes.

Julia raised her trembling hand and brought it to his face. However, the hand that could not reach him was vaguely hovering in the air.

I always wanted to touch him like this. I wanted to make eye contact and have a friendly conversation with you at such a close distance.

Actually, I liked this guy from the beginning.

Long ago, in a dark room, a friendly man who reached out his hand like a light. A gentle voice telling me not to cry because I will be with you.

For Julia, this man remained such a warm memory.

From the moment I met him again, everything in him got better.

I liked this strong man who seemed to have nothing to fear. I liked that he seemed like a very different person from me.

So, even if he was a man who only hurt me so much, Julia couldn't possibly hate him.

Even if I was stupid and foolish, I couldn't get my mind right.

Fernan looked at her for a long time with an unknown expression. Then, she quickly took her gaze away and moved on with her stride.

Fernando entered her room through the hallway, dropped her on the bed and turned right back.

A hoarse voice came from him.

"Your heart is of no use to me."

he went away again Back to back as always.

His heart throbbed in pain again as he looked at his back, which he had seen so much that he was tired.