Pov 3 person
Although this recurring nightmare , should be mainly about the traumatic attempt to kidnap her and Lappland . And the possibility of losing Lappland , her friend , her sister , who wanted to protect her and indeed did so with all her strength .
It was Lappland's actions that always had the most detail in this nightmare . The smell of blood , the expression on Lappland's face , what Lappland did in the smallest sczegulations . The sight of the bodies , her own heartbeat and the emotions she felt . From wanting to vomit to being horrified . From terror to a sudden shot of determination .From determination back to fear . And from fear to despair .
Her all out helplessness in this situation . All completely as if she was back there . As if she were that innocent child again . Blake however never paid much attention to this nightmare . For Blake it was just a simple nightmare related to the trauma of that day . Rather anyone would have nightmares if they had experienced something like that as a childe .
However, there was something special about this " normal " nightmare . It was in this nightmare that the hidden fear of the monster in Lappland showed itself . The fear of what Lappland is really capable of doing . Fear of what is hidden in that look of hers . Fear of what Lappland can be . Fear of her madness .
It was reflected right there . In that inconspicuous nightmare . A nightmare like the one Blake just had and from which she just awoke . Sweaty and out of breath , Blake squinted her amber eyes , feeling the morning sun fall directly on them hurting and blinding her .
However, being just recently awake and still sleepy .Blake was still unaware of what was going on around her . So she just moved her head so that the sun no longer shone in her eyes , and she simply lay in the same position, staring blankly at the ceiling, completely ignoring the feelings of the rest of her body.
With Blake's calm breathing , the only thing that gave a sign that she was alive was the slow blinking of her eyes and the occasional twitching of her cat ears . Blake's blank stare may have given the feeling that nothing is going on in that head of hers and yet .
At this time, the events of last night played out once again in her head, causing her to look at her bandaged hand , stretched out to the side beside her. By bending her fingers and closing her hand into a fist Blake confirmed that the pain was no longer there and the hand itself was worked as if nothing happened .
And yet she felt that pain it in her memories . Like a phantom pain , it was there and made her realize that what happened yesterday was not a dream . Well it's not like the existence of a bandage covering her hands didn't confirm it .
But , only after seeing and checking the condition of her hand and feeling the non-existent pain in it , Blake's mind fully awoke . Still, Blake's expression was apathetic and her eyes were blank , with purple shadows underneath . However, she was fully awake and thinking . Although Blake was clearly sleep deprived .
However , through the night , aside from giveing her nightmare , Blake's mind had managed to process and organize everything again , making her realize what a mess had happened a few hours ago . Now Blake again felt that strange relief . Although it didn't happen in a very beautiful way , it was ultimately like ripping a Band-Aid off that unhealed wound .
It hurt a lot , emotionally and physically . But now , that thorn in her side was gone . Blake has crossed that damaged bridge that she was afraid to cross .
Now she can go on and be better . Although Blake still has regrets about it all . This will not go away and that is certain . Just like the other problems that follow Blake along with her past . Still , she will deal with it as she pushes forward . The worst is behind her , she told her mother , she talked to Lappland . She just needs to forgive herself yet .
For the time being , however, forgiving herself seems to be something impossible for Blake. However, this day will also have to come one day . At least now , she has her Lappdumb . Her friend , sister , partner for life on her side. No , Lappy was always on her side , it was she who didn't want to be on hers .
The feeling she was afraid to accept now gave her ... Such a sense of security and relief . From now on no matter what happens , Blake will tell Lappland what she feels . She loves her .... Everything about her .... Even what she herself is afraid of ..... It is still her Lappland . Or just that part of her that was hurt too much .
Lappland can't be fixed . It is impossible to fix Lappland, whether this is good or bad is hard to say . However, it does not matter to Blake , not now . There is no perfection in this world . Lappland is not perfect as a being , and she does not pretend to be so . Lappy has her flaws and problems with which she struggles , but that is what makes her real .
Not like everyone else around her . Always pretending to be heroes , those do-gooders fighting for freedom ..... Fucking hypocrites . However, she herself was like them . Perhaps she even still is . As even now Lappland is not afraid to walk openly with her animal traits and Blake herself hides them behind a ribbon on her head .
Where is her pride in being faunus ? Where is her courage and self-confidence ? She doesn't have it , she never had it . Even now she was running away from who she was and is . But again this problem , like a bunch of others , Blake will deal with later . So far, Blake has only just begun to resolve the Lappland issue. And she wants to do it properly because it is the most important thing for her .
Before Blake's thoughts wandered further , a heel kick to the chin awoke her to reality . It was nothing strong , rather an accidental kick . So Blake's aura cushioned the entire blow . Or at least it was with the kick itself and not what it caused . For when Blake's head snapped back because of that kick , her teeth from the lower and upper rows collided with each other hard enough to honestly hurt her .
The only luck in this was that her tongue was not in the way . However, feeling this pain in her teeth , Blake caught her mouth with her bandaged hand . And only then , she finally turned her attention to the weight that was lying on her body all the time . And it was then that she saw Lappland's snow-white foot slide to the side .
For obvious reasons, it was obvious that it was this foot that had kicked her and that it belonged to Lappland, who was now lying on top of Blake, on her stomach with her head by Blake's legs. It is for this reason that Lappland's feet are practically on Blake face , threatening another attack on her .
Their bed cover has disappeared , most likely lying on the ground somewhere now . And that's probably due to Lappland , who must have thrown it off while wriggling in the night . Nevertheless Blake did not get cold , Lappland was warm as always . Besides , her own nightmare warmed her enough to make her sweat .
However, without a cover , in their sleeping position . Lifting up a little and looking down her body , Blake had a perfect view of Lappland's crotch . Her both bandage-wrapped legs were now pulled apart to the left and right of Blake's head , so the view of this sacred place was perfect . The image was reflected in her eyes . So vulnerable and exposed ..... All hers and only hers . Her nose could already smell that scent , that specific smell of her partner coming out of there .
However, despite the fact that , Lappland seemed to be unconsciously doing everything to tempt Blake . Blake literally did not feel like she had the desire for " it " right now . She was not a hypersexual person always willing and ready like Lappland . Although if Lappland initiated something or the situation between them became all too spicy , Blake would probably go with the flow .
But today especially , Blake did not feel like " playing " with Lappland . She was tired , dirty and just after a nightmare . Besides, Blake felt that attacking Lappland in this way while she was sleeping could end badly for her . Who knows what Lappland will do when, in her sleep, she is suddenly touched " under the tail " ?
And as if responding to her lack of interest , Lappland's tail obstructed the view , hitting Blake in the face in the process . Pushing Lappland's tail away with her bandaged hand , Blake sighed , then picked up the scroll which fortunately was still lying on the bed near her head . And looking at the time , Blake confirmed that she had only three hours of sleep .
Only three hours of sleep, however, is not a problem for Blake . After all , being on missions in the white fang , there were times when she worked on limited amounts of sleep . So she will be fine today too , just now she will be absent-minded and sleepy for a while and then it will return to normal .
Nevertheless , she could not try to sleep again . Not for the fact that she was not tired because she was . Lappland , which rested on top of her was not a problem either . The reason she couldn't slack off or sleep anymore was that in two hours she had to go to Tukson's bookstore where she works for the time being . And she still had to pay a visit to Dr. Linzi at her clinic .
But , looking at the time it was obvious that she would already be late wherever she went first . She had so much to do and yet ..... She didn't want to get up . First of all , she really doesn't want to and , if she got up now it would wake up Lappland.
And Blake really didn't want that . Now Blake felt she had a moment to think. A moment in which she can think and at the same time look at her Lappdumb , whose tail began to work like a windshield wiper on her face, which made her sigh . But still a faint smile appeared on her face . It was nice and peaceful . Just as Blake would have wanted everything between them to be .
However, all good things come to an end quickly. Lappland suddenly rose and sat with her bare buttocks on Blake's thighs . Her white hair fell over her shoulder revealing a view of her white and scarred back covered only by a few bandages . Her tail slid to the side showing a full view of the point where it joins her spine .
And at this sight , Blake froze , she did not know what to say or how to react . She was captivated by the view before her . Lappland is really beautiful . Blake never doubted it . With her eyes , Blake watched as Lappland lifted her arms up and stretched so hard that the sound of her bones cracking could be clearly heard . This also made the nightmare Blake had just experienced , manifest in her mind again .
But still , the way Lappland's body gave her shade in front of the sun , which illuminated and highlighted the contours of her body . That bend , visible in her bandaged side , when she tried to turn around to see Blake , making the profile of her breasts and ribs visible and highlighted by the sun .
Lappland's slender neck and shoulder . Both being such a tender point for Lappland were now also exposed , mesmerizing Blake for a moment . At that moment she so longed to grab Lappland's neck and ..... But before Blake's fantasies went somewhere far , Lappland turned her face towards her . It took away the view of the neck but , Blake did not regret it , because she received the most beautiful smile illuminated by the rays of the morning sun .
No fake smile , a real one . In those eyes which could hardly ever be read now Blake could clearly see enjoyment , pleasure , satisfaction and amusement . Gamma of emotions , which Blake has never seen so clearly . Lappland looking at Blake squinted her eyes slightly , then turned her whole body to be facing Blake . Now Blake could see Lappland's belly and breasts . But once again seeing the number of bandages on Lappland's body , Blake's initial satisfaction disappeared replaced by worry .
At that time , Blake embraced the rest of her thoughts , knowing that there was an end to self-pity because it was time to keep all her promises and make sure she didn't fuck anything up again . Blake could no longer let anything go wrong with Lappland. They had already lost too much time with each other because of her stupidity .
Lappland herself , not caring that she was being examined by Blake , who was changing facial expressions , lay down again sinking her face into Blake's breasts . Blake's exposed breasts , naked since yesterday , were now making a perfect pillow for Lappland , who was apparently even more satisfied with the sweat collected in them .
Inhaling the scent , Lappland did not return attention to the fact that her tail began to wiggle like a wild . Instead, Lappland became more and more excited to the point where she began to lick the salty sweat from the skin of Blake, who, despite her initial surprise, embraced her Lappy's head. In the past, she would have reacted differently , probably resisting or pushing away the overly intrusive Lappland. But like yesterday , from now on she will be more approachable .
So what if it is unsanitary and weird . Lappland seems happy and nothing bad will happen to her because of it . So Blake let Lappland have her moment for pleasure . But again Blake could not let Lappland fully unravel , so when Lappland went from licking the space between her breasts , to licking her neck and collarbone , Blake stopped Lappland , whose fingers had already begun to touch her own , naked crotch .