"Yara..when are tryouts?" I said. "Soon,what's the rush? Miss your 'baby' ?" Yara replied, sarcastically. She thinks she's so funny. Yeah, seb is my baby. The cutest, funniest, kindest one to ever exist. "I don't think I can tryout. I'm not athletic" Bella said. I just stared at her for a second, im just so curious of who asked her to join to begin with. I pouted "oh no..it won't be the same without you, love." I said. Of course, it won't be. If she was there how could I get seb's attention. Don't even dream about trying out bella grey. Or this time I'll actually murder you. I smiled at Bella then, grabbed her hand. "Cmon, let's get lunch. I'm starving" I grabbed yara's hand with my other hand. We all walked to lunch together and met up with Sebastian and Hudson.
"Hey, Riley" Hudson said as he put his arm around me. "tsk.. hey playboy" I said with a smirk. "Ouch.. Riley that's harsh even from you. Thought you'd at least call me favorite or something-" he replied. "Favorite playboy… really Hudson" I said, sarcastically. I began to pull myself away from Hudson to talk to seb, "that's fine. Because I know someone who's favorite, I am. Right yara, baby." Hudson said as he grabbed yaras hand. Yara pulled her arm away "in-your-dreams Hudson" yara replied. I turned away from the scene that was happening to talk to seb but, when I turned he was kissing Bella. It was like everything just stopped around me for a second. So, I just stormed out the cafeteria and sat in the bathroom floor.
Violet came and found me. "What's wrong, riles?" She said. She looked concerned. I replied with tears in my eyes. "Everything hurts, it feels like my world is crumbling down." Violet sat down next to me and hugged me. "Is it seb..?" She asked in a harsh tone. I sniffled "no…no… I'm gonna befriend seb. Once I join the cheer team. He'll have to see me then, we can always talk and he'll choose me." Violet hugged me tighter and said "tell me more about the cheer team?"
After lunch me and Violet began walking towards the stairs to get back upstairs to class. There was seb with Bella at his locker. "Why does he get to be happy with her but, I only get to cry…" I whispered. Violet smirked "sucks to suck" she said. I rolled my eyes and turned towards the stairs. Violet snatched my arm and started pulling me down the hall. "VIOLET" I yelled. Getting everyone's attention. Bella walked over to us, followed by seb. Oh great tweetledee and tweetledum, I thought. "Riles, didn't see you at lunch. Where'd you go? With your secret boyfriend?" Bella said playfully. "Imagine me having a secret boyfriend." I smirked. "Well my boyfriend isn't a secret" she grabbed seb closer when saying this. Tell me Bella we're you born a bitch or is this a special skill, i thought.
"Of course not. You're known by everyone. An idol couple. Seriously" I smiled. Violet pitched in "Bella, are you trying out for the cheer team?" I looked at Violet in a way of telling her to shut up. "I can't. I'm not flexible" Bella replied. "You're pretty flexible with me, babe" seb said. Bella smiled and kissed seb. I almost snatched her off. "Well, your boyfriend is student body president. You'll be closer to him and look amazing in the outfit." Violet said . "Yeah, babe just think about it" seb said. "Get a room you, two" Violet said. I smiled and snatched violets arm. "Okay, lovey think about it. we'll see you later" I said calmly.
We went to the bathroom. "What?" Violet said. "What…WHAT? that's all you have to say.. is.. what?" I said aggressively. She smiled "sucks to suck, riles." I punched the wall so hard my fist had started bleeding. "I- will actually murder you.. if she joins that damn team. I'll slice your throat myself" I said calmly. "Okay..okay.." Violet said as she backed away. "You and seb.. my god- what's so great about him. He got you having this damn crazy look in your eyes. Are you that crazy about that little boy?" She said. I smiled then slapped her. She ran into the stall. "Riles… he's not that special" she whispered. I paced back and forth in the bathroom. "If you ever.. insult him- hurt him- or even make him the slightest bit of upset. I'll strangle you. Understand?" I said. "Understood…" she replied.
One week later it was finally time for tryouts and who was there- none other than Bella grey. In a long sleeve v-neck and leggings. Is she trying out for cheer or to be a model. "Hey,riles" ugh, don't call me riles. "Hey, love" I replied with a fake smile. "I'm so nervous girl." She said. I smiled, well great be nervous- choke and die, I thought. "No..you look beautiful, love. No reason to be nervous" I said, with a soft smile. "Are you kidding, look at you riles." Yes my spaghetti strap crop top and sweats are so cute.. do you always suck up this much or just to me, I thought. I smiled while grabbing her hand to take her to the sign in table.
Throughout, tryouts we both did pretty well. Except the skills portion. We were both suppose to show our skill range. So, I did a cartwheel, into a round off, into a backflip, and back into a round off. I won't say it was an accident… but innocent until proven guilty right. How was I suppose to know my last round off would kick her in the face. Oops. Guess she was too close to me.. I looked down at Bella "oh my god..love… I'm so sorry. I didn't mean too.. can you still do your performance?" She had a black eye now. But, no one could prove it wasn't an accident. "I don't think I can" she replied. "Riley" I turned , it was coach. "Yes, coach" I replied. "Take Bella to the nurse. Tryout results will be posted soon." "Yes, coach" I replied. Now, we wait for the results. Bella couldn't make it.. could she.. she didn't even begin her skill sets. Seb would be mine this time.
I waited and after three days the results were finally posted. I ran over to the bulletin board to see if my name was on the list. "Slowwwww down, Riley. I can hardly catch up." Yara yelled while chasing me down the hallway. "You can't blame me, yara. YOU already know the results." I said. Once I reached the board there was bella standing in front of it. "RILESSSS!" Oh no please don't come to me. "Rilesssssss we made it. WE MADE IT." Those words echoed in my ears 'we..' what does she mean 'we'. I walked slowly towards the bulletin board to see the list. I was second on the list and behold- all the way at the bottom with no skills. Drum roll please- in 15th place the literal- last person to make it. BELLA. Ugh. "We-we made it, love…" I managed to say while holding back my tongue. Bella hugged me tightly, while yara looked at me and mouthed 'sorry'. seems me and seb's nice romantic time together is now gonna be me, seb, and his pet dog.. also known as Bella.
Before I knew it 3 weeks had passed, and it was time for our first game. It was the varsity basketball game. I was the flyer for the performance and the second flyer was Bella. Yara was the one in front who had to do all the complicated moves and do the most flips and splits. Our jobs were way easier than hers. I was ready wearing my short black and white mini skirt and long sleeve crop with our school logo tigers on it. Yara ran over to me. "First performance jitters? Let's her them all out now." She said. I looked over at seb. "Jitters? I don't think so. As long as he's here ill do my best. No matter what." I said. Yara turned to see who I was talking about but Hudson came behind her and hugged her first before she could see who it was. "Hey, beautiful. Coming to cheer for me?" Hudson said, proudly. "In..your..dreams.. Hudson baby." Yara replied. "Wait- did you call me baby? Seems I'm growing on you." Hudson smiled while saying this. "The only thing that needs to grow is my patience for you. Go away now Hudson" Yara sighed. "What's that all about?" I said with a smirk. "What's-what about? That's just Hudson. You know how he is." She replied. "But, it seems he's the sweetest to you. Ms.head cheerleader." I said. "Yeah well.. maybe it's because he just wants one thing. That he's not getting." She said and rolled her eyes. "Forget him let's go" Yara grabbed my arm and began walking to the buses.
"TIME TO BOARD THE BUS, THIS IS AN AWAY GAME LETS GO" the coach yelled. "Yes, coach." we all answered. Once I got onto the bus, I was disappointed they separated the girls from the guys. Seb is going to be on the bus with the basketball team while I'll be stuck with Bella. I walked down the row to find a seat. "RILES" oh god- no no. "RILES i saved a seat next to me. Cmere cmere" screamed Bella. I looked at yara for help. I mean she seriously wouldn't leave me with Bella right? Well, I was wrong. She let me sit with Bella alone while she led the team at the front of the bus to get rid of any anxiety they may have.
My best friend is honestly amazing but must she leave me now. "Riles..are you ready? Nervous?" Bella asked. "No, love. Are you?" I replied. "Completely. It's the first performance in front of seb. I don't know. It sounds terrifying." She said. For a second I pitied her. "Lay on my shoulder, it's a long bus ride. I got you. Don't worry." I said. She laid down and fell asleep, the rest of the way. I regret that decision now. She didn't even remotely deserve it.
We got to the game. The basketball players waited outside. We all went in and were waiting and preparing for the game to start. I went to get a snack from a truck that was near the court supporting the basketball players. "Two hotdogs and two sprites please," I said. "Here you go, miss." The worked said. "Thank you" I replied while turning around to take the food back to yara. I saw Bella near the seats talking to a guy. I got annoyed thinking how nice she was. I was about to walk past when I heard her flirting and giving the guy her number. What are you serious. Is she not dating seb. She has no self respect or care for other people. I stormed off and back to Yara. "What's wrong Riley?" Yara asked. "Nothing." I said while shoving her food to her. "Alright alright- that's enough" she said, then kissed my forehead. "I don't know who upset you but our first performance is in 20 minutes. Shake it off, you got this." I tried to ignore what I saw and just get ready. "Hey riles, the guys are about to come in. Get your pom poms let's go" Bella walked over and said. "Okay let's go" I replied.
The music started and we all stood in a row shaking our Pom poms as the team came in. The players all ran through and Hudson specifically ran through and tapped yara's arm. Not surprised, clearly they have something going on because Yara was blushing. But, I'll pretend not to notice. As the game went on everything was going well. Until the last shot, we were already 1 point ahead but, if the team made this shot. We would be tied. Hudson ran and stole the ball faster than anyone else could.
He shot the last shot and made it. 4 points ahead we won the game but, Hudson fell down and injured himself during this. We were all cheering and didn't notice Hudson didn't get up even after the whole team was cheering. Yara noticed first. "HUDSON?" Yara yelled as she dropped her pompoms and ran onto the court. Seb was giving a speech to the team and only turned around after hearing yara shouting. "Hudson?" Seb said as he ran onto the court. I know Hudson was hurt but, my mind was somewhere else. Where is Bella?
I ran all over to find Bella. I found Bella im the bathroom making out with a random guy. "Bella.." I said. She stopped and pushed him away, quickly. He rushed out the bathroom. "Riles…" "bella…what are you.. doing…" i said "well, look seb just isn't always enough for me. You get it, so, let's just let this slide this once? Okay?" She said as she patted my shoulder and brushed past me out the bathroom door. I stood there shaking in anger. 'You get it..let's just let this slide this once? Okay?' Her words echoed in my head. Are you serious? You psycho bitch. You're so selfish. How can I understand, why would you purposely hurt seb. And expect me to help you- hurt seb. Seriously. You waste of space. I wanted to explode on her. I wanted to strangle her and throw her off a cliff. It was at these moments I remembered my childhood.
10 years ago, I was diagnosed as a sociopath.
"Riley.. can you tell me why you're so upset with your mom?" The doctor asked. "I'm upset because she was just being too loud" I replied. "Too loud, Riley.. you're only 8. She was just trying to help you. Do you understand?" The doctor replied. I began laughing uncontrollably. "Riley, what's making you laugh?" The doctor asked. "Well- the voices just said how fucking stupid you sound." I replied. As I continued laughing. I was known as 'the devils child'. They said I was born straight from hell.
I got in trouble multiple times for fighting at school, lighting the teachers desk on fire, stabbing another student with scissors, and even cutting out all my classmates' hair. They said I even killed anything I found pretty. I looked at butterflies and killed them. I stomped on flowers. I just destroyed anything I found 'pretty' that's how I got this stupid doctors appointment. I overheard my mom talking to the doctor later. "Your- daughter shows high signs of being a sociopath," the doctor whispered to my mother. "No..my daughter isn't that bad. Maybe she just had anger issues or maybe she's just acting out for attention." She said.
"Can't you tell me something normal. Tell me my daughter is normal. Tell me she just wants attention. Tell me she'll be okay" she begged the doctor. "I think you should take your daughter out of the gymnastics classes. She isn't going to respond very well to the other students." The doctor said. My mom came in to get me. "Sweeties.. we're going home and I'm taking you out of those gymnastics classes.." my mom said to me in such a light tone, as to not have me have another 'episode' as she called it. I chuckled, "those classes aren't important anyways, I'm a natural talent. I'm amazing as is." I replied. I could see the look of worry on my mothers face, so I began learning how to control my thoughts and emotions a bit more.
Now, in present day I feel like controlling those thoughts and emotions is becoming a bit harder. How could she say that? How could she do that to seb? Are your serious? "RILEY, there you are. Come on girl, we have to get on the bus." Yara's voice snapped me out of my thoughts. "Are you okay Riley?" Yara said. "Yes, I'll be okay. Let's go" I said. I was wrong, one nice thing did come from gymnastics. My best friend Yara. "Oh by the way Hudson and seb are getting onto our bus, since Hudson is injured." Yara said. I replied "oh, okay." Before I actually thought about what she said. "WAIT WHAT!?" I said. Yara dragged my arm to the bus. I knew I was about to have a full panic attack. Me and seb on one bus together. My dream come true. Thank goodness Hudson got injured.
We got onto the bus and moved all the way to the back with the boys. Hudson faked and coughed as if we didn't know it was fake. "Yara im dying, can I at least have a hug? I'm just in so much pain" Hudson said. "Is he okay?" I said. "Oh Riley, he's fine. Don't mind him, he twisted his ankle." Yara replied. "Yes but, it still hurts babyyyy can I at least have a hug?" Hudson said as he pouted. "Fine crybaby. One hug" she replied, before walking over to Hudson and leaning down to hug him. Hudson snatched her down and onto his lap. "All better. You make every part of me happy." He said with a wink. "HUDSON!" Yara yelled and jumped off him into another seat. I turned to find seb and there he was sitting with Bella. Bella just cheated and yet she still gets all the attention. At the rate I'm going I'm up for a real war.
When we finally reached the school I got off the bus and went to get my cheer bag from the back. When I went to get my bag, I slammed into a boy. "HEY WATCH WHERE YOURE GOING!" I shouted. "I-im sorry.. wait are you a cheerleader?" The boy said. "Yes, what's it to you? HUH?" I replied aggressively.
"Nothing- I just noticed the uniform you look kinda cute in it." He said. "Cute- why are you on the bus? Basketball player?" I asked. "No-" he said as he pulled out a mascot head. "Something like that, though." He said. "You're the mascot?" I asked. "Yes and you're a cheerleader? So, you're like my queen and I'm your jester, huh?" He said. "If you're a jester im more like your Harley." I replied. "You're the Harley to my joker?" He asked. "You're the joker to my Harley?" I replied. "I'm Jackson- Jackson harper. And you are?". "I'm Riley- Riley hart." I replied with a smile. "Riley hart? Can I walk you to class?". "It would be my pleasure" I replied.
Jackson walked me all the way to class. I felt like I was walking on air. He Carried my books for me and even bought me a drink. "This is my stop-" I said once we reached my class. "Okay, then I'll leave you now, my princess." He said. I walked into my classroom happily. Then, I saw seb walking down the hall with Bella happily. Once they finished talking, Sebastian came into the classroom and walked over to me. "We need to talk-" seb said. Before walking away. I didn't know what to say or how to respond. 'We need to talk' was I in trouble? Did he know what bella did and was blaming me? I was scared to talk but he didn't sound like he was giving me a choice. I sat in my seat patiently and waited. Did he want me to come over now and talk or maybe later. I was worried but I didn't want to upset him. What does he mean… "we need to talk."