"Belle what's wrong?" I couldn't alter a word, tears started rolling down as reality hits me hard.
Without wasting a second, Cat takes my phone to see what has alarmed me like this. I see unexplainable expression as she goes through the messages.
"What the furge" I hear her curse. "Was he two timing you with that dude... I can't believe this.." She kept shouting and yeah it felt good hear her curse him and say all sorts of things about him. I've been dating the guy for two years now and didn't he know he was gay by then or I'm just his cover.
"I think this fun day should be shifted. sorry I have to ditch" I tell her " No need to apologize babe... so do you want to go now, it's like 6 in the evening and it will take only an hour to reach home." Yeah I have to go right now, I need to think things through. I mean how could he do this to me. Atleast he could have given me a heads up that he want to discover himself or whatever" I'm hurt and when I think about it I get so angry.
"Okay, then let's go." she says softly
we Carry the bags back inside the car and we hop in and start off home.
we ride in silence and I appreciate her for giving me some space.
I didn't realize how sleepy I am, till I doze off into one.
"Elle, wake up" I hear someone calling my name while patting me softy. I then open my eyes to see Cat looking at me with worry.
"Sorry I slept," I tell her after adjusting and noticing that we've reached home. " it's fine. you needed it" she says smiling sweetly.
" Alright then see you tomorrow" I say while getting off."Get home safe bye" she nods as she starts off.
I enter the house and see mom is eating pop corn while watching some movie. I guess she is lonely too.
"Hey sweetie thought you ain't coming today.." She asks " Hey mom, something came up. I couldn't enjoy the night I had to come back." I reply
" You okay honey?" she asks her focus fully on me. "Boyfriend problems momma" I reply before heading to my room.
some minutes passed while fighting myself whether to text him or not.
Then I finally decided to text him. "Hey u there?" I start off
"I'm right here, you okay babe" he replies.
you do not have the right to call me that, I think to myself.
"What were you upto today" I ask to test him
" was busy doing some stuff home. And you?" ooh so have the audacity to lie to me ait. " Can I see you tomorrow?"
"why not? where do you want to meet?" you better not ditch this time. I'm so angry right now but I'm just controlling myself not burst right here and now.
I get ready for sleep, while waiting for sleep to take over I read some novel on Wattpad. Novels really get to me, I succumb to the sleep that comes. I am so exhausted and I don't know what tomorrow brings, let's not think about that and sleep.
Its already morning and I hate the fact that my peaceful sleep has to end at 5 am. I literally have nothing to do, except now I have to wallow in my thoughts and think what will happen during this afternoon meeting with Jacks. The worst possibility that can happen is the truth, let's say my assumption turns out to be the truth then I'm totally doomed. I kind of dislike gays and I don't really understand their logic and to have dated one will be like the worst. I'm a Christian for heaven's sakes.
I'm lazy to get up so I just stay in bed and I decide to watch some Kdrama on Netflix. I force myself to forget and not think all those possibilities.
I'm a very big fan of Korean dramas and to say the least these guys are pulling in off. Now they are all over, they are being recognized internationally. I choose to watch Big mouth, I love the main lead actor and he is blowing it off. The role is perfect for him, I'm totally into him.
I didn't realize I've been that I've been watching for 5 hours straight. That's a good activity to kill time. I finally get up and do my morning routine and get ready for breakfast. Thankfully mom seems like she didn't want to disturb me with my attitude yesterday. After finishing up,I head downstairs and I see a note on the dining table.
"Hey baby girl,
hope you okay.
I didn't want to disturb your alone time,
I will see you in the evening. Hope you will tell me what happened.
love you,have a great day
Mom..."
I smile at her warm understanding note. After reading I look for some food in the fridge. I see she made cupcakes, waffles and some sandwiches. I guess I have to choose, then I decide to get one each and some strawberry juice.
I check the wall clock and it's already 10:30, I have like some 30 minutes before meeting him. If it turns out he dumped me or whatever this might be called, I will have to walk out. I quickly devour the food in front of me after setting down. In some minutes time I finish and wash the dishes I used.
I go back to my room and do some finishing touch. I look myself in the mirror and appreciate my reflection. I text him the location of our meeting and thankfully he replied confirming he will be there.
One thing I didn't mention I'm a motorbike lover. So to say the least, I own one. I head downstairs and I get my keys on the flower table. I lock the door and I don't have to worry where to put those keys because we don't use those, some years back I told mom to install digital door locks. You have to only know the passcode and you have a pass, as simple as that.
I get to the garage, it's been a while since I rode my Kawasaki ninja 300. She is fine and I love her smooth rides. Without wasting a moment I put on my helmet and hop on. Starting the ignition, I start off to Some cafeteria that is close to town, that's where i decided to meet him.
It's a 15 minutes ride, and I'm there already. checking my surroundings I don't see him and I go sit on an unoccupied table. I order some cream coffee while waiting for him.
In like 5 minutes, I see him. Honestly he is gorgeous and he should not betray his looks like the way I'm thinking. I wave at him a smile on my face. He saw me and is heading this way.
"Hey!" He greets as he takes his sit. "Hey. Im so glad you made it,I was starting to get anxious that you are ditching me again"I say it as a joke. "Oh Elle I'm so sorry I haven't been there for you, and today I had to ditch them and make some time for you." Why the honesty all of a sudden, I'm take aback. "Oh... who did you ditch this time?" I ask
" Well first I should say I missed you...it's been months now without seeing you properly. you look good babe.." This is so why I fell for this guy. He is a smooth talker...I mean I can forget whatever that is bothering me and hear him say all sweet stuff. "Aww I missed you too Jay" that's my pet name for him.
He takes my hands in his, they are so warm that I can hold him forever. He looks at me with so much adoration."Actually I've been wanting to talk to you but I didn't want to spoil it. All that ditching you doesn't mean I don't want you anymore, I started a gig with my partners and it's huge. I've been designing this software and it's not done yet but a prototype has been produced. I know I haven't been the best boyfriend for the past year but I really love you. you should never forget that." Oh my god what have I been doing. I made myself doubt him. I shouldn't have believed that guy, that photo must be with his partner.
A tear rolls down as the fact that I didn't trust him hits me.
"I'm sorry again babe girl," He smiles and he wipes off the tear with his huge warm hand.
"I'm sorry" That is all I say realizing that I have been brainwashing myself and believing what I shouldn't.
I forgot the fact that I love this guy and he loves me back.