Felix
All of the boys are at field practicing with their swords and knives. I got my practicing knives in my hands but i guess my mind will not let me concentrate here. My eyes keep wandering through the castle. I can see her standing at the balcony from far away. Her gloomy eyes lost in god knows where, her long brown hairs covering half of her face, her pale skin and trembling lips. God i can see them whenever i close my eyes. Sometimes i think is it weird to think of your childhood friend this way. But its nothing like i had control over it for past nineteen years. I still freshly remember when I was six and she was five, we played a lot of games together, wether it was hide and seek or catch me if you can or shooting marbles, I always used to let her defeat me so i could see her jumping in joy and giggling. I loved to make her laugh and of course in return she would steal sweets from castle's kitchen and bring them to me. But all that suddenly stopped one day. Probably after she was twelve or thirteen. I knew hersel iw a bit sad after the queen's death but in these past four or five years she had changed a lot. Enough to make me doubt that something is troubling her but i know she won't tell me. I even tried to ask her few times but she always ignored me and as we grew up I became busy in training and had more practice to do and she made an invisible wall between us. I could clearly tell she wants to hide something from people and it scares me that she would hurt herself in that way.