Roxanne
"You look beautiful, love." I look up at Isaac and give him a poker face. "Give me a smile. You look marvellous when you smile."
"I will smile when I get rid of you. Maybe…." I give him a smile. "then you will see me smiling. Genuinely."
His face falls and his hold on my palm increases. I wince.
"You are hurting me." That snaps him out and his hold loosens. I have seen how he gets affected by my pain, maybe someday I will use that against him.
I look around at the people present in the hall. Many of them are from his side. My eyes catch Mr Rodriguez talking with some people along with dad.
He was not that happy with Isaac's decision I guess because when he came to congratulate us he had said to Isaac what a big mistake he is making by marrying me.
Among them I saw a man maybe in his late twenties or early thirties. Among all of them he was the only, who looked like he could be somewhere else than here. With shoulder length hair in a half bun, he looked handsome.
I look away when that man's emerald eyes catches mine. My eyes zone out on Emily.
She looked ethereal in light blue shaded with dark blue, one shoulder pleats dress. No one would say she was breaking down just a few days ago. With a smile she was socialising with everyone.
I looked down at my hand, which was in his hold. A big pink star diamond ring glinting in my ring. It matched with my pastel pink jewel neckline dress.
I was shocked with the choice of the dress, since I haven't paid attention to which dress was chosen for me. The sleeves and the upper part of my waist were embellishments with real diamonds. The clenched-in waist and the voluminous skirt gave a well defined look. The skirt also has a few diamonds tucked in it.
When I tried this dress it didn't have any diamonds. But now it has. I looked like a walking luxury.
I was annoyed with the ring earlier, because it was extravagant and here I got the bigger surprise by this dress.
"What happened, love?"
You happened.
"When can we leave?" I asked instead. The engagement ended a few minutes ago but we are still seated like a display.
"You have to bear with it, since we also have an after party." I signed. That's why I never went with dad to his parties. These socializing and fake things really drain me out.
He takes me by surprise when he kisses the side of my forehead. My brown eyes instantly clash with sis's green ones. She looks away and starts talking with Isaac's maternal grandmother.
Instantly I harshly push Isaac away. And the very next second I got pulled towards him by my hand. My eyes clash with his. A shiver passes through my body when I see his hardened face which still has a smile. Anyone from a distance will think he is smiling.
"Never push me away in public, love. It gives a bad impression." His hold on my wrist tightens. "Understood?" I nod my head. "Keep smiling." I put on a smile.
But as soon as he leaves my hand. Realisation dawns on me. I fucking agreed with him. His anger really makes me do whatever he wants.
After a few more minutes we left the engagement venue. We stop before the car, hand in hand. Before I can get inside, Isaac's grandmother stops me. I step out and look at her.
"I didn't say anything to you, since here all the people were close to us, but remember not to disgrace us there. Reporters and influential people will be present there." She whispers.
Without waiting for my answer she goes away and gets inside her cry.
Now you will see what I will do? I smirk.
I again got stopped from stepping in the car. I look beside to see dad. I give him a poker face.
"I will not say anything just that today whatever you will do will directly affect us." He also moves away without waiting for my answer. Sis faces me.
"Behave." With that she also follows dad. I sign and get inside.
I can't do anything which might affect my family.
"You know…." I look at Isaac. "You can do whatever you want there. You can act however you want, but remember not to push me away in front of those people." The burden which I was feeling on my shoulders,
lightens up
"What if I do something which will disgrace your family?" I asked, still unsure. He smiles and flicks my nose.
"I can handle those people." I look away as blush creeps up my face.
I know that for Isaac public impression is important but here he is telling me to do otherwise.
We reached the venue. A 5 star hotel.
As soon as our cars came to a halt in front of the entrance reporters rounded our cars, but Isaac's men kept them away. It was very hard to act in front of them. They were annoying the shit out of me with their ridiculous questions.
The topic of sis and Isaac also came up and Isaac and sis both very tactfully gave the answers. I was amazed by them. I am sure my photos will come out looking awkward. Few times Isaac tried to distract me which really helped.
Inside was a world of socialising. The people I never knew talked to me like we were friends. My face definitely showed how awkward I was but still they kept on talking. Isaac made things more awkward by giving answers to the question asked to me. So even though I found a few people bearable, I was not able to talk to them.
I was drained after only spending a few minutes. Isaac's hold on my waist was really not helping. Sometimes his hold on my waist would get so hard for unknown reasons that a whimper would erupt through my lips.
Few times I even wanted to go away to some solitude place and away from Isaac's bruising hold but Isaac didn't let me.
Party ended without any problems though Isaac's grandmother did have a few taunts.
"I am exhausted." I groan as soon as I get inside the car. I really should have bought some comfy dress to change into. I can't bear this dress.
"Don't say that, love. We still have to go to one more place."
"What?" I shout. He grabs my hand and strokes the engagement ring.
"Yes." He answers. His gaze on the ring, with a look I can't predict.
"That doesn't help and here I thought I was free." I mutter. A silence falls in between us. My hand is in his as he fiddles with the ring and kisses my hand from time to time.
The car comes to a halt in front of iron gates. The roads were eerily silent.
We are in the countryside.
The car starts moving. It halts in front of a house that looks cozy. It's just a bit small from my house.
Before I can ask about the place Isaac answers. "It's a place where I go when I just want to be away from everyone. This place gives me peace."
"That's good but why am I here?" I asked, dumbfounded. Without answering he gets out. I also step out.
"Don't…." I stop him before he can nag me about stepping out of the car without his assistance. "I am not in the mood." He signs.
He grabs my hand and we step in. He straight away takes me upstairs without letting me take in the surroundings. Before I could understand anything I was thrown on the bed, with him on top of me.
His lips on me, sucking, licking and biting my lips. My lips start moving on their own.
The dress was irritating me.
"Fuck." He parts himself from me. "I need you, love." My eyes widened at that.
Is he thinking of doing what I think he is?
"Where is the hook of this dress?" He asked impatiently. "Let me just tear it." Before he can do what he said I shout.
"Wait." He stilled. His eyes clash with mine. They were dilated and a shiver passed through me.
"I…I am not ready." I say.
I really am not. I don't care who I give my virginity to. As much as I want to enjoy the sex which I have heard everyone talking about, I am terrified of the pain. I really can't bear the pain.
The thought of even something penetrating gives me goosebumps.
"Why?" He asked, breathless.
If I say I am terrified of pain he will laugh.
"I…I want to do…." I look away as my face turns red. "that with my husband."
That was embarrassing.
"But I am your husband." I scowl. I look at him and say.
"Not yet mister. When you will be my husband I will give it to you willingly."
Which you will never be.
"Fine." I was shocked at his answer. I thought he would debate more.
"Ouch." I groan when he lets his whole body fall on me. And the very next minute he moves away grumbling in annoyance.
"Fuck this dress is irritating." He grumbles. I nod my head in understanding.
"Let me go home." I say. If he has bought for that then I should leave.
"Can't you stay here?" I shake my head. He signs. I should get myself ready to have a full on debate session with him but he takes me by surprise by agreeing with me.
What is with him today?
We reached home. He leans down for a kiss and I willingly kiss him back. If I had known kissing would feel so much better I would have done it a thousand times.
Days went by. Isaac became a part of my day. His mansion became my second home and his office my third home.
We did various things but we never went all the way. And he was always the one to stop first which was surprising.
I started to like him. His absence when he had to go somewhere for business would eat me. I started looking out the time to spend with him. His nagging about things I do decreased. I started falling for Isaac.
Sometimes I would make an effort to get ready just to look good in front of him. The day I would make an effort that day he would not stop teasing me. I liked his teasing so I didn't stop dressing up for him.
Distance grew between me and everyone else that I know. I started dressing up like my sister when we had to make public appearances. Mrs Lander would taunt me every time we met.
Sis's marriage got fixed with Isaac's maternal uncle Ragnor by Mrs Lander. Sis had no problem with it. She said that she has no one else she loves so she doesn't have a reason to deny the offer.
I graduated. The office in which I was doing an internship offered me a job in their Italy branch.
My 21st birthday arrived. The day of my marriage got fixed.
Today is my marriage.
Now I have two options, either to marry Isaac and say goodbye to my dream or to run away and get that job which will be a step up towards my dream.