I was 14 and Yasmine was just a few months old.
Mom was absent that day because she was in the hospital to see Yasmine's pediatrician.
I knew he was going to try again so I played along to make my plan work.
I acted like I was OK with what he was doing.
He had gained so much confidence that he handed me the stick to beat him.
He had shoved his dirty thing in my mouth for me to suck on it.
It was the best thing that could happen.
I just bit down with all my might, with all the rage in my stomach. He was screaming and punching me in the face, but I was too angry that day!
I had time to bite him well, I felt that his blood had already flowed before he managed to free me and he collapsed on the ground, screaming in pain.
I was glad he was in pain!
Me: You shouldn't touch me, dirty pig!
I only saw the door slam open and my mother rush in, certainly alerted by the cries of her pig.
Mom (hitting me): You want to kill my husband? You're going out of my house, you're going out!
She was hitting me and I was crying! How is a mother going to see this kind of scene and hit her child? Her husband had raped me several times for God's sake!
The guard came in to lift her boss and only then did she stop hitting me to go with her husband.
Mom (red eyes): I find you in my house, I kill you!
I started packing a little bag to get out of her house and leave her with that bastard! Then a question arose, where should I go? At dad's? I never heard from him again, in his eyes I did not exist! With mom's family? Her family considered me a bastard and kept humiliating me. So I stayed to find a solution.
Except that the same evening, everything changed and my mother said that I am the curse of her life.
When Bernard, yes Bernard, came home, I said I'm going to go to the police to have him arrested because he's a rapist and he destroyed my life. I made an incredible racket, even though deep down I knew that this famous complaint would NEVER succeed. Me, a poor 14-year-old girl, am I going to file a complaint against such a rich man on my own? It was a real impossible dream, I knew it. So I was delighted to have bitten his dirty thing and he will remember it forever. I made such a racket that after a while he said let's all get out of his house! All without exception!
Mom started crying, kneeling in front of him saying it's me who has to vacate his house because I'm disturbing their happiness.
I saw my mother sacrificing me to stay with a man. My heart hurt, but it didn't surprise me!
He did not change his position, he started to say that in any case, he will never take a woman who does not know what to do with beauty and the "whore" to the town hall. Insult mom of all names, I think my act really knocked her out of her mind. But I didn't care, I had defeated the PIG.
He kicked us out at 6 a.m., forbidding us to take what his money paid for!
What mom had the right to recover was Yasmine's belongings and he had sworn to recover her daughter at 1 year old.
In the middle of 6 a.m., we were out like dirt. My mom called me names because I ruined her marriage to her rich man.
I pretended not to hear and she stopped a taxi to take us to Auntie Solange, her big sister.
When we arrived, Auntie Solange was about to go to work, she simply clapped her hands when she saw us, as if to say "you again? ". I once again felt like a parasite.