After it was getting dark we had to leave and eat dinner then we went to bed around the same time again. After that we woke up, got dressed ate breakfast and went to the park again.
After almost night time we went home and I sadly had to leave. His father dropped me off at home and I went to bed. Then I woke up and got ready for school. Another day in a boring school.
But I get to see Robin at least. So I meet up with Robin in the third grade wing and we have the same classes. After school cause I don't want to explain what happened. We went home and hung out at his place.
One day we decied to play spin the bottle with Rose and Ross. The bottle spun and it landed on Robin. We kiss and there were sparks. Then after that was done we went to bed and had school so after school.
We went home and hung out again as we kissed again. We held hands and did couply stuff. His parents liked me dating him. My parents don't care like at all. They still hurt and rape me you know the drill?
Anyways yes that still happens no matter what I say or do they won't stop. They love seeing me in pain. They don't care if I'm happy or not. They don't love me they hate me and I hate myself.
I wish to die and end it all. But I can't at a young age at the age of five yes three years ago I wanted to kill myself. I tried but that didn't work clearly because I'm still here obviously. But I've been depressed at that age.
Yes I was five when I found out I was less happy then the rest of the people in my grade. That's around the time I wanted to be male to that's probably why I started out with depression.
I really want to be a male. But my parents don't care what I want. All they want to do is hurt me emotionally, physically, and mentally. They don't care if I'm happy, dead, alive, and or depressed.
Yes they rather have me gone but I don't really know. My brothers and sister would care but no one else will. I don't have any friends besides my crush Robin that's it and Rose and then Ross.
But Ross is my cousin. Rose is his sister, she is six years old Ross is ten years old. But they like each other, yes they want to date. But they are shy to date which is weird because they would make a cute couple.
Yes I want them to date and be a couple. But I do like Rose some how and I don't know why or how or when. Maybe since our first kiss yes I kissed her and Ross plus Robin. Robin was already my crush but my love grew.
From liking him to being in-love with him. I wish to date him but I don't know if I'm bisexual or straight. I think I'm bisexual but then again I don't know. When we turn nine I found out I like Rose and Robin so yes I'm bisexual.
I told Robin I'm into girls and guys. He was/is supportive which I knew he would be. He thought it would be a good idea to see if I'm really bisexual by us dating. Which I didn't mind because I really wanted to date him.
We decided to date at the age of ten instead of the age of nine. I just recently found out for one and for two we didn't want to ruin our friendship just yet. So we waited a year and then decided to date.
Which I was so glad about. He is my first cuddle, hand hold, bath/shower. Yes we are that close to where we bathe together no matter the time of day or night. If it's morning we'll still shower we don't care.
I love him and I think he loves me after suggesting the idea of dating. We still kiss some-days. Yes he was my first kiss as well. Which I'm not mad or sad about rather have him my first kiss then my cousin.
Then at the age of ten me and Robin did secretly date at the age of ten. But then at the age of thirteen we broke up. Because I liked Rose and didn't want to hurt him. Me and her did start dating after I broke up with him.
I love Robin still but I like Rose and I don't want to hurt them both. Yet I will eventually because I want Robin back. Yet I don't at the same time because I love Rose yet I don't. I rather be with Robin.
Is that bad I'm dating my ex's sister? I think it is bad because I love them both but I still rather be with Robin. I love him more then anything but yeah that's not gonna happen anytime soon.
At the age of twelve I slowly lost feelings for him and gained them for Rose. Which was weird because she is his sister and I started to like her. I didn't understand at the time why but I liked them both and I was stuck.
I wanted them both but they wouldn't agree because they are brother and sister obviously of course. I really want to date them both but sadly can't so I had to break up with him and I wanted to at the age of thirteen.
When we are thirteen years old I broke up with Robin and started transitioning. My parents disowned me Ryan took care of me and helped me. Once I was fully Ryder which took two years I was so happy.
Me and Rose dated and then I broke up with her at the age of fifteen. Then I started dating Rex around that time. Which he was my second boyfriend and the mistake I made which was mine and his relationship helped me learn.