Non achieved goal

And as usual every day, I go back to my bed staring at nothing and guessing at the nothingness that resides in my heart, leaning on my loneliness, wandering in no one, alone between the walls of my room and the lost is the only present, accompanied by my quiet music and chanting in terrible silence.... That's how I am My soul has vanished and I can no longer find anything worth uttering with a letter....