What a hectic schedule? Isn't this too much for a teenager? Waking up from a short nap from the long night of solving innumerable physics objectives to consuming all the data from biology textbooks to attending classes to never ending like mock tests at college to studying in the evening throughout the next night is all what it is called a normal day. Targets to be achieved and dreams on process. Life has been this way since I could remember. It would be a lie if I say I didn't enjoy it. This routine for years and the longing silence of being a night owl for most of my school years made be a nyctophile while I am not an insomniac and can sleep soundly if I want to at anytime and at anyplace. Inspite of all the hardwork I am still a young girl who loves to watch rain from the window, enjoys icecream at midnight, wants to have a second look at the cute boys, wants to watch a second show movie and most of my favourite times is when I stuck myself at the window corner with a novel in hand in dim light or under the sheets with a torch to finish the book I found interesting.
What if I? What if it? What if they? is all what occupied my mind with never a chance to explore what it really is.
At some extent I want to get more of life at the same time I not someone who would settle for anything less than anything I want. At this stage all I care for is to secure a good rank at my medical entrance and pursue medicine in a good and reputed college. This had been my biggest dream and thought to be the sole purpose of life since I know to dream and began to have my opinion of life. Days ran by, I got more and more serious, my hours at college increased with no limit or the limit is till I finish my work for the day and I could feel myself losing a few pounds inspite of regular meals and special healthy meals indeed. At this point I would trade anything just to have my name on the top of the list of toppers for the preparation tests and these listings however have their own style of building or breaking our confidence.