"The harmony that becomes painful memories."
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I stood on the veranda of the house looking at the house in front of me. Many people are busy moving things onto trucks. It's uncountable how many items are loaded into the truck. Seeing all this broke my heart in two. On the other hand, I am sad because the next-door neighbor moved house. After all, our relationship has been very close for a long time. On the other hand, I feel happy because I don't have to see the face of Axelle, my ex-lover, too often. My heart still hurts a lot, what else is there to think about why we can be lovers until it ends like this?
We used to be fine before we became lovers even though we were very good together before. I don't know what the compatibility is from which point of view because I don't feel like it. That's just what people think. You know, before we became lovers, people said we were suitable for a romantic relationship and when we officially became lovers, people said we were compatible. When they know our relationship is over, they say that our relationship is indeed more appropriate to be a pair of friends. Nothing more than that because being friends since childhood and then having a love relationship looks boring.
Maybe we are too follow the flow of other people's opinions. It's annoying because Axelle cares so much about other people's views on life even though I've told you many times not to listen too much to what other people have to say. That young man is shit. How dare he do all this to me. We and our families have known each other for a long time. I'm sick of him having an affair at the instigation of his friends. Truly his brain and heart have been pawned by his stupidity.
Now, what am I doing here? Why do I look so stupid now?
"Mom, I'm out for a bit!" I shouted at my mom and it wasn't polite but I had to do it so that Axelle could hear my screams so he would know that I didn't want to accept his goodbyes when I left to move house later.
Alright, since there's no answer from mom, I can just go straight for a breath of fresh air instead of a rotten atmosphere because of Axelle's gaze from the front of the truck. Go as far as possible if you need to change schools so I can never see that sickly handsome face again. It's useless to be handsome if you behave badly. Even worse than my daily math test scores yesterday.
Coming out of the courtyard, my eyes fell on the house next door that the occupants had lived in for a long time to Seoul. I don't know what to call it, the children who own the house are Indonesian citizens, following their papa's citizenship while their mom is still a South Korean citizen. For some reason, seeing the house empty for too long made me miss the noise of the house, especially my fistfight with the son of the owner of the house. I smile every time I remember it. Although I don't like the son of the owner of the house, I don't hate him. Sorry, just hate it a bit. I'm good friends with his twin sister because we're both girls and his twin sister's attitude isn't as annoying as his brother's.
"Roosevelt!"
Can't Axelle let me settle down without him the last time he stays here before moving house? My ears will pretend not to hear and my steps will keep going fast so he knows that I don't want to be disturbed by anyone.
I hate those long legs because they can equate rare with me. Basketball kids are annoying and pretentious. Ah, why I used fall in love with him as my friend since childhood because I was a neighbor and especially a basketball kid. I lost my mind at first because of the love of monkeys which ended up hurting my heart.
"We moved house not to avoid you, but because papa changed jobs after so long waiting for a promotion!" Axelle said I don't care about his papa's job, who is a civil servant because my father is also a civil servant, so these two fathers are crazy about promotions.
"I know I was wrong because I cheated on you but I ask that our good relationship that has been established for a long time doesn't end like this. It's okay if you don't want to forgive me, the important thing is that we still look good. It's not good in the eyes of people! "
My eyes wanted to roll three times when Axelle said those rubbish words just now. Sometimes he said the word just now as if I was what I was. Oh, I'm nothing in his eyes that's why he can act on his own. Especially now, his papa has gotten a higher position one level than my father. You see, my father can get a position two levels higher than his papa so he doesn't look down on me like this. Crazy teenager.
Why am I following along like a crazy father about a promotion, anyway?
"I also changed schools to make you feel comfortable. I moved to Mary's school so Mary wouldn't bother you." So lightly he said the word just now.
In this story, I was cheated on and Mary took it from me. Then why would Mary nod to me? Gosh, why is my love story at the age of seventeen like this when this is my first love and it should be a beautiful memory to be unforgettable but this is a bad memory that I don't want to remember or admit?
My lips feel itchy when I don't respond to Axelle's words so I muster all the negative emotions inside of me to spit it out at Axelle so he can't go around like that anymore. "I want to run!" These tips can not be invited to cooperate. I ran, ran, leaving Axelle behind because I couldn't say any harsh words to him. The harsh words were swallowed again and now I will release the harsh words with the sweat of my body from running.
My ears heard the sound of sandals clashing against the asphalt complex. I'm sure it's the sound of Axelle's footsteps since we're both wearing flip-flops. I don't care for him who follows after running because I just want to get rid of the emotions in my body with sweat. Let him run too, reckoning this was the last time he ran in this compound before moving on.
My habit is to run to remove negative emotions from the soul. I can sometimes say harsh words but the words don't come out of my lips because my lips can never be invited to cooperate with cursing. What incredibly clever lips. Swearing will make me regret it one day so I don't want to curse other people even though I am very hurt and offended by that person's words.
I exhaled when I reached the park and stopped running and I saw Axelle's running back overtaking me. My eyes fell on his sandals. It bothered me and I just remembered something. "Are you out of your mind running in sandals? You're an aspiring basketball player so it could hurt your feet!" I scolded Axelle so loudly that he immediately stopped running.
I gasped for breath staring at Axelle who stopped running then he turned his body and his eyes looked at me full of admiration. Damn those eyes.
To be continued.