I was looking at the table where we are sitting right now, I focus on the little details, the good look of the wood, that great sensation on the fingertips, how there is drops of water hanging around, most likely droplets that fell from our drinks since they where quite cold.
The Half napkin that is filled with a red lipstick, lipstick that belongs to the "lady" that's gulping vodka out of a man's shoe in front of a crowd of cheering customers...
And even that can't distract me from the fact that what she said really did move something inside me.. that no matter how I look at it..
I really do like her.
I mean it's not "love" pff...
I think...
Why am I feeling like thiiiiiiiiis?!... I was doing great but she had to punch me in the heart again, I thought it was actually some kind of divine intervention but no, actually thinking about it, it's true, I myself am doing this to myself, it's just me trying as hard as I can to just look like I don't care but fuuuuuuuuuck I can't do it! I can't do it at all!.
Like just remember I what happened just an hour ago, dude the way Faraday was crying just from seeing me, how happy she was and how close she was to me that moment is... God damnit why am I crying?!.
For fucks sake I shouldn't have drank his martini, I think Madeline did something to it...
I turned to see her, she is now dancing in the counter of the bar, not sexy dancing, just dancing, looks like break dance tbh.
Thinking about it, if anything, she did something to HER drink, not mine.
...
I just can't deal with this!... How am I supposed to do my work now huh?!, how am I supposed to just go out of my way to create something to leave Faraday helpless, while pretending I just don't care about it, this was already hard just by seeing her as a friend but now..... Aaaaaaaaaaaaaagh for fucks sake!
*Cecile hits the table, frustrated, the sound doesn't disturb the party going on on the counter of the bar, but makes enough sound to get Madeleine's attention, who lowers herself from the counter and goes towards Cecile*.
-I literally left you alone for 5 minutes, what happened?.
Cecile is just looking at the wall while her head is smashed against the table, holding the martini glass she just had in her hand.
-You didn't die from alcohol poisoning did you?.
-No... But I feel dizzy...
-I was going to say you're quite weak to alcohol if you're already drunk with half a martini, but I'm pretty sure this time it has to do more with you hitting your head with the table.
-No, I was feeling blike that before I hit my head...
-So you're drunk, wow girl, didn't think I would see you like this, not so soon, at least I expected to try and force you to drink like another 5 martinis haha.
-Madeline...
-Oh, sorry, what's wrong?.
-What do I do?.
Cecile said with a wavy voice, tearing up and almost crying, but containing the tears and covering her eyes on her arm.
-What do you mean?.
-I can't keep going this way... I do like Her, but Imy work is to do something horrible to her... My job is to just leave her behind locked inside a magical cage of some sorts that I'm supposed to design and lock her in!.
I don't want to do it!, but no matter what I'll do if I don't get what Gustave wants I'll end up dead and she'll probably frame it as a suicide or something like that Idontcare... I don't want to that to Faraday, she doesn't deserve to be in a prison... I want to see her happy outside, looking at new stuff she doesn't know personally, I want to be there with her to see her smile while she discovers the universe!.
But what the fuck am I even supposed to do about it?...
-Nothing.
-Madeline...
- Trust me, if anyone wants to see every single one of the seven die, it's me, hell I would do it right now if I could. But it's just not going to happen because I know what they're capable of, I can't do that alone you know?.
-Do you... Want me to help y-
-No. We have. Aplan for that later.... Much later, don't worry about it.
But what I need you to understand is that as much as I hate them, there is nothing we can do against them, and that, specially, includes the decisions they make. And one of those decisions is keeping Faraday locked, that one is an order made unanimously, every one of them want Faraday locked because they know she is big trouble for them all.
So, again, I don't want to be rude or something, but I think your best course of action is to give up with the idea of seeing Faraday outside with you.
Cecile looks at Madeline with a little mix of both anger, and sadness.
-Why did you tell me to stop lying about me liking her then?. What's the point if I'm not supposed to like her in the first place.
- Oh, no, I didn't mean that, I meant that you just don't need to get your hopes up, for now at least, about having a house in the field where you and Faraday can live along 3 other kids that you somehow put on her-
-W-what?-.
- What I meant, is enjoy your time with her, that is what you need to do, I'm not telling you you shouldn't love her, I'm telling you, love her while you can, and still do your work... You can even not work that hard and enjoy more time with her!.
-That Will get me killed and/or replaced...
-I'll make sure you won't be replaced sis, don't worry about it!.
-How can you be so sure?.
-Because I'll kill every single one who tries to take your place : D
Cecile is looking at Madeline with shock and a nervous smile.
-Aaaaah don't worry sis I'm just joking hahahaha.
Cecile doesn't laugh, instead she is more worries about losing her job more than ever, and starts crying.
-O-oh... Sorry, no but really, if Gustave wanted you dead, you would have died already, no need to worry about th-
Cecile rapidly lifts her face from the table, tears running down her face.
-SHE SENT SOMEONE TO KILL ME!.
her scream is so loud that everyone on the bar turns around and stops what their doing, including the band that was playing a song, a band that wasn't there in the first place.
-So?.
-What do you mean so?!.
-Yeah it's not that big of a deal, she sents assassin's on every single person she knows, even other members of the council.
You know that tantrum she had with me before we went here? That was the fifth this day, she tries to kill me every day, hell I'm probably sure someone here is sent to kill you, and me on the way out...
In fact...
HEY YOU!, FUCK FACE!.
Madeline points towards one of guys on the bar, who gets scared and starts running.
-SHIT SHE GOT US, RUUUN!!.
Madeline was about to throw her drink until she realized it still had some alcohol inside, she runs towards the counter and grabs an empty bottle, she throws said bottle, hitting the man in the street in the head, the man falls to the ground head first, after 3 seconds, the man explodes.
-Ha!, it never gets old.
...
What?, she sends one of those every week, usually 2 but I guess the other one ran away.
Don't have such a long face! *Madeline hits Cecile in the back*
Come on dear, why don't you just cry away in the microphone? This bar has a karaoke machine you know?.
-I'm... Not good with being the center of attention...
-And you failed at that like 5 mins ago. Come on, I'll give you a boost!.
Madeline grabs two martinis from the counter she ordered before, grabs them and shoves them down Cecile's throat.
Cecile starts coughing, all while pushing Madeline away as she was running to the bathroom, her urges to throw up go away as her mind gets distracted mid way with the melody of a bass line that is playing from the speakers of the bar, a bass line that's playing way louder for her in her mind, taking control of her body as she starts walking with confidence to that bloody machine, her high heels taping the floor at the rhythm of the beat.
The whole bar is up to the show of their lives, as a hidden talent is discovered from an unexpected source.