I have been wondering time and time again why I can't sleep after all of this time. The effects on my health have been decreased, usually every night without sleep would make me feel let's say, 50% more and more like a walking corpse, now, ever night it just feels like it adds another 2% no me being a zombie.
As far as I know this shouldn't be the case regarding health.
Any other human at this point would have started with visual and auditory hallucinations, I however, don't seem to manifest any of those symptoms.
Don't get me wrong, I feel absolutely horrible And every second I feel as if my eyes are looking directly at the sun.
However even in these horrible conditions I still don't feel as bad as I should, Regular sober me would usually just think that I am somehow immune to these disgraces and would start feeling Superior to any other human being.
The walking zombie me that somehow is more sane in the head, Tells me that this isn't a regular case of insomnia...
That and the fact that Mildred told me too.
If this isn't a case of a chronic sleep deprivation.
This leaves me with 2 options at best.
1- This is due to all the stress I have been experiencing for the last couple weeks.
or
2- this is due to a supernatural phenomenon, for example, I contracted a kind of course And/Or this is the work of an awakened soul, someone like faraday that for some reason it's using their ability to not let people sleep on me.
I've considered option 1. However, my insomnia started way before the incident with Gustave happened. Same with when I started working on Faraday, yes, the was stress at that moment but that was mostly due to the fear I had to start working in such a facility. And I got rid of that fear pretty much by the second day.
And I even was able to suppress that little episode of insomnia with some pills.
And before you ask, no, the pills aren't working anymore, I tried them since day one of this new episode.
The lack of motive and proper explanation for this episode, along with the fact that medicine doesn't work in this case, really makes me feel like option 2 is the one occurring right now.
I never interacted with anything in this or last week that would be related to a course, at best, the only thing that could be called coursed would be Mildred, however, I don't think she has anything to do in this matter (And I hope so, if she does I will look really stupid for thinking this.)
This leaves option 2-B. I'm currently under the effect of some sort of power, one being caused by someone I interacted in the past week.
Or not...
Because even then, long range abilities have been registered before, someone controlling pollen from kilometers away to be precise.
This COULD be the work of someone I have never met before, just sitting around a corner with binoculars or even just having their normal day without realizing that I am under their control, or worse, they know I am and that is the plan from the start, in other words, a delivered attack to my person.
But why would I be a target to that kind of attack?.
I stand in front of my window while looking at the lights of the city. I try to reflect on my thoughts.
Who would have me as a target?.
-Gustave?.
No, that would be way too obvious.
-Sometimes the obvious answer is the right one.
But I highly doubt this one will be.
-Think about it, she hates you so why wouldn't she want to torture you even if you're not in the facility?.
Hmm... I'll have it in mind, but still I need to consider all other options.
-What options?.
Literally anyone I have interacted with the past week.
- Couldn't be someone even before that?.
What do you mean?.
- Maybe it was an attack that started way before you even got to the facility, think of it as to when someone gets radiation poisoning.
They don't start to have symptoms until way later in their life and it depends on the dose they get while being exposed to that radiation, sometimes it's 1 week after, some times is 20 years from the first contact.
Hmmmm... that is true, and that messes whit everything here, this could be a consequence of some contact with someone from years ago.
-It could even be do to the mercury.
I disposed all of it from my system.
-How can you be so sure?.
I was sure to concentrate it all on the arm, the doctors said no trace of it could be inside of me.
-But weren't you just a child discovering her powers at that moment, I don't think you had full control over those at age 5 you know.
Even if I couldn't dispose of a small trace, I would either be dead by poison or not have symptoms at all.
-Maybe you're right, technology has advanced a lot, so you should still go and take a little trip to the hospital just to be sure, a little blood analysis couldn't hurt you.
Just in case, to be sure.
I should, yeah, If not for that at least someone can tell me why the hell I can't sleep, and even if they don't know, that just would confirm my theory regarding this being the work of someone else.
If that is the case then I can ask for help to someone who actually knows something about fighting these kind of powers.
-Good luck with that!.
Thanks, I appreciate-.
Who am I talking to?
I quickly turn around to see my bed and for a mere split second I can see a blue spark disappearing from my bed, I could see the shape, I could see the color but I know that what I imagined to be there can't be in that moment nor ever.
For a mere split second.
I saw Faraday sitting in my bed.
But for a couple of minutes I've been talking with a voice in my head that wasn't my own thoughts, That voice was Faraday's.
N-No this couldn't be, Faraday can go out of her cell, she doesn't even know where I live and more importantly, the voice was talking but I was thinking my answers, my mouth never opened to say what I was thinking yet the voice in my ear answered everything like we were having a conversation.
I discard the possibility that she was here talking to me but still...
The hallucinations have begone.
I-I need to go to the hospital ASAP.