My extraordinary life in 16

"16" I'm simple and very shy girl . I have lack of confidence whenever I front of the peoples i started shivering idk why that's why i have problem to make friends and i have only i guess 3 friends . And i have seen many series and i started overthinking about my life relationships status and last my family. I don't know why my problems never ends . My life start with going school then coming back home then sleep 5 6 hours and then going to bed that's it . Everytime i saw others how cool they was like everyone likes her confidence and why not me i also do lot of things but you know what everyone is selfish and fake 🙂 it ripped the off my heart whenever I saw others getting invitation cards to birthday while I was wondering what the inside of one looks like . The fear that creeped into me when the teacher said we had to work in groups and i already knew I was going to be the only one left. I'm not doing efforts to make friendship somehow I was. Different from anyone atleast I'm not doing same things that they was doing . Atleast I'm not selfish. Atleast I'm not fake . Atleast I'm respect for friendship . I really didn't r know in what way deep longing for love because they all didn't wanted to friendship with me. But i want to experience what was to normal everyone else . Atleast once i only want my past when I was kid no one is fake .not depression. No one is feel different everyone was equal and everyone is your true friend. now i relized the things get closed they all shows true colours no one was standing behind you accept your mom. You are lucky when you find your true friend . I have all fake friends who always give to me excuses...