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Chapter 21 - Chapter 19: Can't stand the sight

"Jisung?" Changbin called for Jisung who was beside Minho while they watched kdrama together. "What?" Jisung replied then saw Changbin signal him to go to the kitchen. After they entered the kitchen together Jisung asked "What is it changbin-ah?"

Instead of answering Changbin leaned closer then tried to kiss Jisung, but Jisung pulled away instantly. "Alright, when the time is right I'll break up with you guys. Say something like "Threesomes aren't my thing." Changbin chuckled on the outside but cried on the inside. He felt like he was an imposter, he knew Jisung didn't really like him and felt guilty about invading what used to be a paradise. "No!" Jisung exclaimed and grabbed Changbin's hands then held them tightly. "Changbinnie hyung, Minho hyung really likes you. You can't just leave."

"He does ... but you don't. I can never truly be happy knowing I'm the reason that you're unhappy. I'll let him down gently ok?" Changbin smiled at Jisung yet the tears betrayed him. "It doesn't matter if I like you or not, as long as you and Minho are happy. I can fall in love with you anyway. It's just gonna take a while longer." Jisung replied thinking his own happiness isnt important.

Changbin cupped Jisung's cheeks and asked, "Since my happiness is the only thing you care about, can I please have one last kiss before I go?"

"No, no! I wont be the reason for breaking minho's heart. You're not leaving!" Jisung protested and started crying. As he said, he didn't want to be the thing holding Minho away from happiness.

"Shhh..." Changbin kissed Jisung's forehead and hugged him. "It's ok, it's not your fault. Hopefully, we'll still be friends after this." Changbin said then pushed Jisung away and walked back to the living room after cleaning his tears before he could try to protest again.

"Minho hyung?" Changbin asked but Jisung pulled him back immediately and begged him not to do what he was going to. "Please! Please don't do this! Please I'm begging you Changbinnie hyung!" Jisung pleaded while still crying his eyes out. "What's going on?" Minho got up from where he was sitting on the couch and walked towards his two boyfriends, or, soon be only one. "I... I don't think I can do this." Changbin said and pulled his arm away from Jisung. "Wha... what are you talking about Changbinnie?" Minho asked eyes already filling with tears. "A throuple, I mean. I don't think it's something for me," Changbin tried his hardest to breakup with them in the least painful way possible.

"I guess I'm greedy and dont want to share. I'm so sorry Minho and Jisung, I didn't want to hurt you. But I'm not a good boyfriend and this won't work out, even though we tried."

"What? No, are you guys playing a joke on me? You can't just breakup with us."

Minho protested but all Changbin had the strength to do was walk closer to Minho then kiss him. "For the most part, I really do love you..." Changbin turned around to face Jisung again then walked towards him, placing a kiss on Jisung's left cheek as well. "I love both of you so much, " Changbin looked back at Minho, then walked away and opened the front door to leave.

"This is all my fault...." Jisung whispered finally collapsing to the floor. "How?! What did you do Jisung?! " Minho asked unfortunately believing Jisung, he didn't know anything and thought they were as happy as happy could be. "I don't like him like that... now he left because I couldn't pretend anymore. " Jisung said and minho's mood changed completely.

"No, Jisung. Why would you choose to date someone you don't like?" Minho said this time softly. He bend down in front of Jisung as well. "I saw how much you liked each other, when I realized that Changbin liked me too I just... I just wanted to make you both happy... And now I ruined everything because I wasn't good enough at acting like I did like him." Jisung explained and made Minho furious. "WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT JISUNG?!! IT DOESNT MATTER IF I LIKE HIM OR NOT, DID YOU THINK ID CHEAT IF YOU DIDNT DO THIS?!! DO YOU NOT TRUST ME?!! " Minho yelled and grabbed Jisung shoulders, shaking them full of rage. "IM SORRY!! IM REALLY SORRY HYUNG!!!" Jisung cried uncontrollably and Minho stopped shaking him. "It's not your fault, you just wanted to make us happy... Come one, get off the cold floor." He got up and pulled Jisung with him to his bed so they don't get a cold. Then continued to hug Jisung in bed while crying because he didn't have the energy to do anything else.

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"Yoongi hyung?" Taehyung asked as he stopped his car in front of a small motel, he felt really unsafe and uncomfortable with what Namjoon did and wanted to be somewhere where Namjoon wouldn't be able to find them. Yoongi was sleeping soundly in the passengers seat while dried out tears stained his cheeks with sadness.

Taehyung got out of the driver's seat then walked over to the front door of the motel to book a room. When he got back he opened the passengers seat and then he slowly picked Yoongi up, locked the car with the small remote in his right hand. Then went up to their room. He thought about booking two but then thought it'd be best for him to stay with Yoongi all night.

Taehyung softly placed Yoongi's skinny body onto one of the two beds after struggling a bit to unlock and open the door with Yoongi in his arms trying not to wake him. Instead of going to his own bed Taehyung took the dark grey blanket off of the bed next to the one he placed Yoongi on then softly threw it over Yoongi's sleeping body. He didn't want to struggle to get the one yoongi sleeping on over Yoongi's body. Careful not to wake his hyung, he then lifted the blanket and got in the bed next to Yoongi. And cuddled with his hyung all night long until the next morning when they woke up near 10 pm.

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"Taetaebae? Are you awake?" Yoongi asked softly in case he wasn't. "I'm awake. How are you? How do you feel?" Taehyung asked lifting his head enough to rest it on his right hand. "You feel really hot, hyung." Taehyung's deep voice send a shiver down Yoongi's spine. "Do you have a fever?" Taehyung asked after placing his left hand on top of Yoongi's forehead. "I'm fine. Where are we?" Yoongi asked noticing his surroundings have changed. "We're in a motel, I didn't want Namjoon hyung to find us and take me away from you." Taehyung said then got up shirtless. He got really hot during the night and took it off hoping he'd wake up before Yoongi and put it back on so Yoongi wouldn't get upset or uncomfortable. But when he woke up he saw how comfortable Yoongi was and didn't want to disturb him.

"Oh god...." Yoongi said and cried again suddenly realizing he wasn't having a bad dream. "It's real...." Yoongi whispered and Taehyung stopped with putting his shirt on halfway up his arms. After a few seconds of his eyes filling up with tears he put his shirt on and went back to the bed where Yoongi sat crying while covering his face with the blanket. He hated crying in front of Taehyung and saw him as a baby, but he couldn't stop the tears thinking about both the accident and the sight of Jimin's body covered in blood.

Taehyung sat on his knees on the bed and hugged Yoongi tightly. After about two minutes of them crying together Taehyung broke the hug and said, "I hate myself for leaving you like this but I have to go. The latest I'll be back is 3 ok? I need to check on Hobi and Jin hyung's. And get some clothes for the both of us, I wont let Namu hyung keep us apart ok? And please, I'm begging you hyung, don't go anywhere. I need you to get through this. I know you might think that you're a monster and I'd be better off without you, but I really can't do this without you."

When Taehyung finished he softly kissed Yoongi's forehead, he knew Seokjin and Hoseok would be falling apart and wanted to be there for the both of them as well as Namjoon but he was too upset at him at the moment. "Please promise you won't leave?" Taehyung requested and Yoongi replied after some hesitation. "I promise." Luckily, Yoongi believed Taehyung and knew that he'd need to stay. "Thank you." Taehyung thanked Yoongi then hugged him one last time before heading back to his house to get some clothes.

Luckily Namjoon was no where to be seen. He packed some clothes, a tooth brush and tooth past, a hair comb, ect. He wasn't sure if Namjoon would ever calm down and knew Namjoon would over power him if he wanted taehyung to leave Yoongi and didn't want to give him a chance in the first place. He still loved Namjoon to bits of course, but in times like these he needed to be a little resorceful. And he was resorting to staying away from namjoon at all cost.

After he had everything he needed he headed to Yoongi's and Jimin's place to get some things for Yoongi as well.

"Ahh! Ahh!" Taehyung sobbed loudly the minute he entered, he couldnt take it anymore. And the blood all over the floor and broken glass everywhere helped with that. "JIMIN!!! JIMIN AHH!!" Taehyung collapsed onto the the floor in front of the blood stain on the floor. "Ahh!!" Taehyung continued crying but this time got up and ran to the kitchen to get a cloth. He couldn't stand seeing his best friend all over the floor. His logic was to clean it. "AHH!!!" Taehyung tried his best to clean the blood but just ended up spreading it on the floor and on himself. "JUNGKO00OK!!! J1MINSSI!!! COME BACK PLEASE!!!" Taehyung begged and begged but all he did was torture himself.

"AHHHHH!!!"

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After a lot of crying and screaming and shouting Taehyung eventually managed to get Yoongi's clothes and ran out of the apartment as fast as possible. He then went to Seokjin's house. Leaving the bags of clothes in the back seat, he slowly exited the car and walked up to the front door. He already had a key to open it because Seokjin wanted taehyung to be able to get to him if anything ever happened. "Jin hyung?" Taehyung asked as he could already hear loud whimpers and sobs. "Jin? Where are you?" Taehyung asked then walked to the living room, then to Seokjin's bedroom. He then saw Seokjin crying on his bed holding a picture of Jimin and Jungkook that he took at an amusement park about a year prior. "Tae." Seokjin said then Taehyung walked up to the bed to hug Seokjin tightly.

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After calming Seokjin down at least a little bit, Taehyung asked Seokjin to go with him to get Hoseok as well. When they got at Hoseok's place Seokjin stayed in the car while Taehyung went inside. "Taehyung! Are you ok?!! Where's Yoongi?!! He must be so scared!!" Hoseok cried and attacked Taehyung with hugs before Taehyung could even enter the room completely. "He's at a motel, which is where we are going right now. Seokjin is in the car. He really needs you Hobi." Taehyung couldnt stop crying while hugging Hoseok.

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"Yoongi!" Hoseok exclaimed the minute he saw Yoongi crying on the bed while scrolling through photos of Jimin and Jungkook. When he heard Hoseok's voice he immediately looked up and spread his arms open wide to except the tight hug Hoseok had asked for by also opening his arms wide. Hoseok knew Yoongi wasn't a fan of physical tough so he had to make sure yoongi was ok with it if he hugged him. "I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to I promise!" Yoongi cried and sobbed uncontrollably in the arms of Hoseok while Seokjin and Taehyung also joined the hug. "It's not your fault Sugaplum." Seokjin and Hoseok said at the same time.

"It is! I was driving! I wasn't there for Jimin! I don't even know what happened to him!!!" Yoongi said while Hoseok and seokjin removed themselves from the hug but Taehyung stuck to him like a peace of gum would on a fluffy carpet. "I do ...." Taehyung finally said and broke the hug as well. "What?" Seokjin asked looking at Taehyung's shirt sleeves that still had Jimin's blood on them. "He slipped on one of Holly's toys and fell onto the coffee table." Taehyung then noticed everyone looking at the blood on his shirt, they didn't freak because they figured it was Jimin's given what taehyung had just said. "How do you know?" Seokjin asked softly.

"There's no other explanation, he's always tripping over those things. And unless someone pushed him onto the coffee table and placed Holly's broken chew toy just a few feet away from him, that's the only explanation I can think of." Taehyung said and it started to make sense to everyone. "Did you try to clean the blood? " Hoseok asked taking Taehyung's hands in his. "Yes ..." Taehyung replied then got up to remove his shirt and put on a clean one. "You should've left it for the police to investigate first." Seokjin said. "I know, I know, I just.... I couldn't stand seeing that!!!" Taehyung said then collapsed to the ground crying once again.