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Chapter 12 - Chapter 11: Such a broken smile

"You're not good enough...." Jungkook mumbled to himself watching the water go down the drain, he was washing his hands after emptying his bladder at Jimin and Yoongi's apartment. "You're still...." Jungkook smashed his fist against the sink with wet hands and tears eyes, "Not good enough" The male let a small sob slip his lips looking up to the mirror "I can't believe you thought you were good enough....." He said to himself staring at his reflection in the mirror above the sink, "Why did you think you were good enough Jungkook? Why?...." He added just before he heard a knock on the door. "Are you okey? Who are you talking to?" Jimin's voice asked from outside the door. "No one..... important." Whispering the last word to make sure only he could hear it, Jungkook used the light pink coloured towel to dry his hands them moved to open the door. Luckily for him, Jungkook realized the tears on his cheeks and wiped them before opening the door and stopped in front of his hyung. "There was a spider, I was just chatting with it" Jungkook lied then tried to throw on a smile for Jimin but Jimin already knew what a broken smile looked like.

"What happened Googie?" Jimin asked worried over his best friend. "Mimi hyung....." Jungkook said in a sad voice, debating wether to tell him or not. But then he remembered Yoongi is in the next room. "Nothing.... I'm fine" Jungkook tried to smile but....

"Don't lie to me Jungkook, it makes me really upset." Jimin replied with a deep voice he usually only used on Taehyung when they fight over dumplings. "I.... I'm sorry hyung..... I'm still not good enough" Jungkook walked forward and leaned down then buried his head in Jimin's shoulder and cried quietly trying his hardest to not alarm his boyfriend. "What Gave you that idea?" Jimin asked holding Jungkook's waist with his left hand and head with his right. "Please don't ask.... I just need to cry a little, then I'll go back okey?" Jungkook said tilting his head so his lips would be straight over Jimin's neck. "Okey, cry then. Whenever you need to... just cry into hyung's shoulder and feel better soon," Jimin replied then felt Jungkook's hand hold tightly onto his jacket sleeve. "How could you think a person as sweet and kind as you isn't good enough?" Jimin mumbled.

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"Minho hyung?" A man named Seo Changbin asked walking through the door of Minho's apartment. "Shh!" Minho silenced Changbin then pointed at Jisung sleeping in his bed after he cought Changbin's attention. "Why is Jisung in your bed?" Changbin asked getting jealous, he knew Minho has had a crash on Jisung but he still didn't like it much. "I said be quiet!" Minho whisper\yelled at his friend putting his hand over Changbin's mouth.

Changbin widened his eyes feeling a sticky substance covering his lips, he knew this taste far to well. "Ew!" Changbin said obeying his hyung and staying as quiet as possible. "I don't want that sluts cum in my mouth!" Changbin said then wiped his lips to try and rid himself of the sticky white semen. "It's mine you jerk!" Minho hit Changbin's shoulder playfully. "Oh" Changbin said then licked his lips, making Minho turn bright pink. "Y- you just t-thought it was disgusting, n-now you l-like it?" Minho asked trying to not stutter..... trying.

"Ut's yours isn't it?" Changbin smirked then noticed Jisung's eyes slowly open "I'd drink your cum any day, blowjobs too" Changbin added then winked at Minho, purely to hurt Jisung. He let jealousy control him.

"You!.... d-don...." Minho tried to scold at Changbin but he kept stuttering, not realizing Jisung was awake. "Hmm...." Minho bit his lip feeling really shy, he couldn't say anything. "Minho hyung?"A sleepy Jisung asked not realizing what Changbin had said. "Jisung!" Minho exclaimed to try and change the subject, "Hmm" Minho whimpered when he noticed Changbin's eyes glaring at Jisung, he could tell Changbin was jealous and did it turn him on.

"Youre awake?!" Minho said loudly while Jisung just rubbed his eyes. "I fell asleep?" Jisung asked with a very sleepy voice. "Yes, we were making out and the next thing I knew you were out like a light!" Minho said trying to avoid Changbin's eyes. "Slut...." Changbin mumbled still glaring at Jisung. "What was that?" Jisung asked to sleepy to notice what Changbin had said. "I called you a slut.... or do you charge?.... Disgusting" Changbin said making sure Jisung understood. And he did, except Jisung started tearing up. "W-what?" Jisung cried confused and sad, he always thought Changbin like him, but now his hyung was suddenly being so mean to him. "Binnie! What was that for?! " Minho yelled furious, he never thought Changbin would say such a thing about his quokka. "Did I say something untrue?" Changbin asked looking away from the both of them. "I'm not a slut hyung!" Jisung started to sob. "Why didn't you react like this when I called you a slut?" Minho mumbled trying to wipe Jisung's tears. "You didn't say I was disgusting hyung!" Jisung sniffled. "Now you've made him cry don't you see?!" Minho shouted loudly snapping Changbin back to reality. "Sorry...." Changbin mumbled looking down at the ground, he felt so ashamed that he allowed jealousy to get the best of him. "Say it clearly you brat!" Minho demanded, causing Changbin to slowly walk closer to the bed. "I'm sorry Jisung, I didn't mean to." Changbin said after kneeling down in front of the bed. "Then why did you say it?!" Jisung yelled and cuddled into Minho's arms, hiding his face in his hyung's chest.

"I'll leave..." Changbin said in a sad voice then got up to walk towards the door. "I'm the one who's disgusting for letting my feelings for Minho hyung control how I treat Jisung. I can't even get jealous can I? There's no chance Minho would ever like me the same way as I like him....." Changbin thought to himself then opened the door to leave.

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"WTF WAS THAT FOR?! WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT TO TALK TO JISUNG LIKE THAT?!😡" Minho furiously typed into his phone.

Changbin- "Don't u think I already feel bad enough? There's no need to yell at me😒"

Minho- "WHY THEN?! WHY DID YOU DO THAT?"

Changbin- "Because I like u and got jealous🤷"

Minho- "THATS NO EXCUSE! YOU MADE JISUNG CRY"

Minho- "ON PURPOSE!"

Changbin- "I already feel like shit hyung😣"

Minho- ".....Did u just confess to me?"

Changbin- "Yeah🤨 You didn't realize that? Jeez thanks😒"

Minho- "Why confess now?"

Changbin- "Because you're with Jisung now, I don't need to worry about rejection and wanted u to know🤷"

Changbin- "I can't tell you I wont let jealousy control me again if you don't know that I was just jealous😕 You wouldn't believe me☹️"

Minho- "So back to yelling then😌"

Minho- "WHY THE FUCK DID YOU WAIT THIS LONG?!"

Changbin- "IF I CONFESSED IT WOULD HAVE RUINED OUR FRIENDSHIP, NOW I DONT NEED TO WORRY BECAUSE YOU HAVE YOUR VERY OWN BOYFRIEND NOW"

Minho- "Why are you yelling😶"

Changbin- "Hurts doesn't it😒"

Minho- "Anyway, IT WOULDN'T HAVE RUINED OUR FRIENDSHIP IT WOULD HAVE GOTTEN YOU A BOYFRIEND TOO"

Minho- "I've been in love with you since high school😣 Couldn't you have confessed back then?"

Changbin- "....Huh?"

Minho- "The only reason I started liking Jisung was because I thought there would never be anything between you and me"

Minho- "So I stopped liking you in order to continue with my own life"

Minho- "AND YOU RUINED IT"

Changbin- "You just said you "stopped liking me" Why are you so upset?"

Minho- "BECAUSE YOURE IN LOVE WITH ME AREN'T YOU?"

Minho- "WHAT ABOUT YOU?!"

Changbin- "I already told you I wont let my feelings for you get in the way😒"

Minho- "BUT WHAT ABOUT THOSE FEELINGS?! ARE YOU JUST GOING TO IGNORE THEM?"

Changbin- "My feelings aren't important"

Minho- "They're to me🤬"

Changbin- "Well then ✨stop liking✨ my feelings so much😒"

Minho- "THATS JUST UNFAIR!"

Changbin- "Just quit it already🤨 I'll get over you😊"

Minho- "How are you so calm?"

Changbin- "I just am🤷"

Minho- "Can you send me a selfie please?"

Changbin- "Nope😌"

Minho- "Please.... I just want to see your face"

Changbin- "Why? 😒"

"Pretty please🥺" Minho typed into his phone then got the photo. Except, it was a photo Changbin took of himself, Minho and Jisung at an amusement park a few months prior. "Please Binnie.... I really need to see you" Minho typed once again, he received the selfie he wanted a few minutes later.

Changbin was trying to hide his face in the blankets on his bed but Minho could clearly see red puffy eyes staring at him with such a broken smile. "Happy now?" Minho read the massage and started crying, he couldn't bare being the cause of his best friends tears. "Yes" Minho typed back and pressed the send button, then aggressively threw his phone at the couch. And ignored any massages or calls for the rest of the day.