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Chapter 3 - Chapter 2: Too weak

"Yes!" Jungkook exclaimed excitedly after beating Jimin in a game of overwatch. After the picnic, Jimin invited Taehyung and Jungkook to sleep over at his place. Taehyung had to go home cause his parents wanted him to have dinner with them, so it was only Jungkook, Jimin, and Yoongi. Yoongi wasn't playing with them though, he was just sitting on the couch, silently watching the boys play overwatch on the floor in front of the TV in Jimin's and Yoongi's shared apartment. Yoongi's father had asked him to live with Jimin once he moved out, but Yoongi wasn't complaining about it. Even though he acts like he doesn't care about Jimin, or anyone else for that matter, Yoongi really, really loves Jimin and sees it his job to protect him as his older brother. "Rematch!" Jimin demanded excitedly "You wanna lose again?" Jungkook asked resting his chin in his palms looking at Jimin, who knew he couldn't do it on his own and needed the help of a professional "Yoongi hyung, will you play with us? We're bound to win if you're playing!" Jimin crawled towards Yoongi on the the couch and sat on his knees in front of Yoongi's partly spread out legs, looking up at him with his beautiful brown eyes. "It's already 2: 23 a.m, go to bed" Yoongi said then pushed Jimin away playfully, rapping his legs around Jimin's waist to make sure he doesn't fall onto the glass coffee table behind him and get hurt. "But it's Friday hyung!" Jimin pleaded for Yoongi not to send them to bed but Yoongi didn't care. "Go to bed" Yoongi said then got up to brush his teeth in his room. "But I don't wanna go to bed!" Jimin groaned but obeyed Yoongi anyway. Jungkook and Jimin finished brushing their teeth then shared Jimin's bed for the night, they weren't sleeping though. They stayed up a little longer watching a K-drama, however Jimin fell asleep in Jungkook's arms not long past 4:00 a.m.

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"Good morning hyung" Jimin said as Yoongi walked into the kitchen with his bed head, he didn't even attempt to calm the strands of black hair roaming all over his head. Jimin was sitting on the counter waiting for his ramen in the microwave and Yoongi was walking towards the sink to get water. "You're having ramen for breakfast? Couldn't you two have waited until I got up? I would have made a more decent meal" Yoongi said then walked to the living room to look for Jungkook and say good morning. "Actually this is lunch, and Kookie left hours ago," Jimin said as he sat down on the couch with his ramen, "He seemed really sad to leave for some reason" Jimin continued as he turned on the TV to look for something to watch on YouTube, Jimin knew exactly why Jungkook felt sad to leave though. It was because he wanted to see Yoongi before leaving, but he couldn't simply say "Jungkook was sad because he wanted to see you and kiss you goodbye" Yoongi would get upset and Jimin didn't want to deal with that. "Jung Hoseok raping" Jimin typed into the search bar remembering what Taehyung and Hoseok spoke about the day prior, Jimin wanted to hear his new hyung's voice. "You could've woken me, " Yoongi said when he looked at the clock on the wall "It's already 1:00 p.m" Yoongi added then sat down next to Jimin on the couch. "You say I could've woken you now, but if I actually woke you you'd get mad at me" Jimin pouted in hopes his cuteness would ensure Yoongi not to yell at him. In Jimin's favour, the video on the TV started playing before Yoongi could react. "My character's like half and half. Who knows? A public figures striving life. Who knows?" Jimin was amazed by Hoseok's voice while on the other hand, Yoongi wasn't so impressed. "He's amazing!" Jimin said suddenly making Yoongi jump a little bit. Yoongi wouldn't admit it but he's been a fan of the YouTube rapper under the username of "Jhope" for about two years, but he had no idea he would actually meet his inspiration in the music industry in real life, nevermind become friends with him. "Yeah" Yoongi replied getting up to go get dressed in his room. But Jimin grabbed his hand before he could leave the room, "Wait hyung! May I invite Tae and Kookie again? I really wanted Tae to come yesterday but he had things to do so he couldn't, he's free tonight so can they come again?" Jimin asked with a smile "As long as you don't keep me from my work again" Yoongi said then pulled his hand out of Jimin's grip and left. He was acting like he was annoyed by Jimin inviting his friends over all the time but in all honesty, he really enjoyed watching Jimin have fun. That's why he's always silently watching them from a corner. The fact that he gets to see Jungkook played a positive part too.

A few hours had passed and had Yoongi helped Jimin prepare all sorts of snacks and beverages for the boys to enjoy while watching movies and playing games. Yoongi didn't want to spend much time outside of his room while Taehyung and Jungkook was there, however he knew that he'd need to keep an eye on the trio of trouble making. So he gave up the hopes of staying in his room and just sat on the couch, waiting for them to arrive. Which Taehyung did at exactly 6:01 but Jungkook only arrived at 6:18 p.m. "Late as always Jungkook-ah?" Yoongi asked as Jimin opened the door for Jungkook to enter, in return to Yoongi's comment Jungkook just stuck out his tongue and pointed it at Yoongi. Yoongi was still in the same spot he was in earlier on the couch, he didn't even look up from his phone to know what Jungkook was doing and he stuck out his middle finger as a response to Jungkook's teasing. "Hey I need to show you guys something!" Jimin hopped onto the couch grabbing the remote to show Taehyung and Jungkook his findings. "Wow! Hobi hyung?" Jungkook was really impressed when the TV started playing and he could hear what his new hyung sounded like. Taehyung however already knew since he watched several of Hoseok's YouTube videos the night prior, that didn't keep him from admiring Hoseok's talents as if it was the first he'd ever heard of Hoseok's rapping skills though. The night continued of Taehyung, Jimin, and Jungkook playing and fooling around with Yoongi only ever moving from his comfortable position on the couch to go to the bathroom or get some water. Each time Yoongi would get up and move towards the door of the living room Jungkook would get worried and ask "Hyung, are you leaving?" or "I wonder if he'll come back and play with us" in his head but knew better then to ask in reality. Taehyung and Jimin noticed the continuous gazes Jungkook would give Yoongi who always seemed to be watching him from a far, Taehyung thought it was adorable but Jimin knew what the face Yoongi made whenever he looked at Jungkook meant. He knew what Yoongi was thinking whenever he licked his lips and swallowed the saliva in his mouth, and he knew it wasn't as innocent as Taehyung might have thought it was.

As the night grew latter and the eyes grew heavier, Jimin suggested they go to bed, but he had a different idea for Jungkook and Yoongi. "Yoongi hyung, is it ok of Kookie sleeps with you tonight? I don't think my bed will fit three people and I want to be with Tae tonight" Jimin lied knowing he'd be able to fit all three of them in his bed but wanted to give Jungkook some alone time with Yoongi, hoping that he'd wake up the next day and see Jungkook and Yoongi are holding hands while feeding each other breakfast.

"Whatever" Yoongi was to tired to protest and frankly, he didn't want to. He wanted to be close to Jungkook, and he knew if he "accidentally" turned Jungkook on, Jimin would keep Taehyung away and make sure he doesn't see or hear anything.

Even though Taehyung knew about Jungkook's and Yoongi's "fun time" together, Jimin was still really protective and wanted to make sure Taehyung stays as innocent as he is now. Jimin also knew that jungkook wearing his reading glasses was his way of saying "you're mine baby boy" to Yoongi, so Jungkook was very... grateful, to Jimin for suggesting he sleeps in Yoongi's room. "Go brush your teeth" Yoongi said to Jungkook who kept staring at him. "Strip for me first baby" Jungkook smirked evilly, he knew Yoongi wouldn't say no, and he was rather uncomfortable in the bathroom the day prior so he wanted to have a decent fuck. Yoongi's cock almost immediately hardened and Jungkook couldn't help but move closer and closer until he was only a few inches away from Yoongi who had also walked towards the younger, the arge to kiss his hyung was taking over Jungkook's body. He stared into Yoongi's eyes then down to his lips while Yoongi cupped Jungkook's cheek with his left hand waiting for Jungkook to start removing his clothes but he didn't, Jungkook just kept staring at Yoongi's lips.

He leaned closer to Yoongi's face slowly, making sure Yoongi wasn't uncomfortable. He knew Yoongi wouldn't get uncomfortable with lack of space between their bodies but Jungkook had never dared to kiss his hyung before, he's always wanted to but he was to afraid Yoongi would get upset. Jungkook closed his eyes then used both his lips to softly suck on his hyung's lower one. He could feel Yoongi's hand moving off of his cheek, and his eyes started filling up with tears, he was so afraid Yoongi would push him away. What he didn't expect was feeling Yoongi's arms rap around his neck tightly. Jungkook allowed his hands to pull Yoongi closer to his body then rap around his waist. He opened his eyes still kissing Yoongi, only to see tears flowing from Yoongi's eyes.

He tried so hard to stop but he couldn't. He just stood there holding his hyung's waist tightly while kissing him, watching so many tears fall from Yoongi's closed eyes.

"I'm sorry hyung"

Jungkook whispered after finally breaking the kiss, tears flowing from his eyes as well as Yoongi's. He thought that Yoongi was forcing himself to like Jungkook but Yoongi was busy crying from happiness. Yoongi suddenly fell to the ground sobbing, he thought that Jungkook was only there for the fuck and was apologizing because he didn't like kissing Yoongi. And frankly, Jungkook suddenly kissing him but then saying sorry made Yoongi too sensitive so he couldn't just pretend everything was alright anymore. "Hyung..." Jungkook said softly, to shocked to move even an inch. Yoongi sobbed quietly while holding onto Jungkook's left leg covered by yellow pikachu coveralls. "Why..." Jungkook tried to ask why Yoongi was crying on the floor but he was still to stunned and just held Yoongi's hand that wouldn't let go of his leg.

After a few seconds had gone by, Jungkook snapped out of it and hugged Yoongi tightly trying to calm him. "I'm sorry hyung..... i didn't mean to..... I just...I wont do it again I promise! I'm so sorry" Jungkook rubbed Yoongi's back softly, then heard a knock on the slowly opening door to Yoongi's bedroom. It was Jimin who heard the sobbing and thought that someone had gotten injured. "H-hyung?" when Yoongi heard Jimin's soft voice he immediately pushed Jungkook away and run towards him. Rapping his arms around Jimin he cried uncontrollably, causing Taehyung to storm into the room ass well. ''I can't take this anymore!" Yoongi yelled into Jimin's shoulder and Jimin got super pissed seeing his hyung cry like this. "JEON FUCKING JUNGKOOK WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO TO MY BROTHER?!" Jimin yelled about to punch Jungkook but Taehyung yelling "Kookie! Kookie no! breathe Jungkookie!" and Jungkook collapsing onto the floor made Jimin guess whatever happened wasn't only Jungkook's fault. "I'm sorry!" Jungkook said gasping for air on all fours, body trembling and eyes a watery mess with tears that glimmered so brightly, yet so dark. Taehyung realized Jungkook was having a panic attack rather quickly and luckily knew what to do.

Yoongi kept on crying in Jimin's arms and Taehyung managed to calm Jungkook, a bit at least "Take him home Tae" Jimin said refusing to look at Jungkook who could barely stay on his own two feet without falling over. "Minie, don't be dumb" Taehyung tried to reason with Jimin but he wouldn't budge "I WANT THAT FUCKING BASTARD OUT OF MY HOUSE TAEHYUNG!" Jimin screamed loudly but this time it was directed at Taehyung. Taehyung flinched and stepped back visibly afraid of Jimin, he'd never yelled at Taehyung in his life so Jimin suddenly being so aggressive frightened Taehyung a rather large amount. "I'm sorry," Jimin said when he noticed how much he was scaring both Taehyung and Jungkook "But please..... let me take care of my brother" he added then looked at Yoongi still sobbing in his arms. Taehyung gave up and helped Jungkook stand then left to go to Jungkook's dorm room.

"Yoongi hyung.... what happened?" Jimin asked after about half an hour had passed of Yoongi crying in his arms on the floor, he knew he had to wait a bit for Yoongi to calm down before Yoongi would even talk to him, so he just waited patiently while holding Yoongi on the floor of his bedroom. "I'm in love with Jungkookie!" Yoongi yelled then hugged Jimin even tighter still sobbing like a baby. "I know that!" Jimin said returning the tight hug "I've known you were in love with him even before you did! What I don't understand is what he did or said to put you in this state" Jimin continued then made Yoongi get up and sit on the bed. "H-he.... Jungkook..... k-kissed me" Yoongi touched his lips feeling where Jungkook's lips had been earlier ''That's amazing! Why would you cry about it?!" Jimin said loudly feeling really confused. "Because he didn't want to do it! I'm so scared Jimin!" Yoongi continued sobbing covering his face with his hands "What are you talking about?! How did he not want it?! Of what are you so afraid of?!" Jimin forced Yoongi's hands away from his face so Yoongi would look at him. "I don't know! I just am!" Yoongi replied then got a slap in the face from Jimin.... literally..... Jimin slapped him through the face. "Don't fucking lie to me! What are you afraid of?!!" Jimin asked more aggressively,he knew exactly why Yoongi was afraid but he needed Yoongi to say it himself if he wanted Yoongi to ever calm down "I'm not lying!" Yoongi yelled back trying to get Jimin to let go of his hands. "Yes you are! Just tell me what you're afraid of!!!" Jimin's grip on Yoongi's wrist tightened and it was starting to hurt Yoongi "I don't know!" Yoongi continued sobbing and Jimin yelled back "Yes you fucking do Yoongi! What are you afraid of?!"

"That he doesn't love me back!..... he's just here for sex''

Yoongi whispered the last part and Jimin let go of his wrists. "He said he didn't mean to kiss me..... and it hurts so fucking much Jimin..... it hurts so much I wanna kill myself!" Yoongi confessed "I don't want to live without being able to kiss him when I want to kiss him!" Yoongi through himself onto Jimin once again hugging him tightly while sobbing. "Was he already fucking you when he kissed you?" Jimin asked with a soft voice "No...." Yoongi replied then felt Jimin push him away "Then how did he not mean to?" Jimin basically whispered to calm Yoongi and stop him from crying,also to apologize for how rudely he treated his hyung "Tell me what happened" Jimin pulled Yoongi back into his arms and hugged him.

"H-he told me t-to strip, b-but when I g-got up h-he, h-he..." Yoongi stuttered crying into Jimin's PJs "He kissed you instead of fucking you?" still whispering Jimin put his chin on top of Yoongi's head and Yoongi's hold on Jimin's body tightened as he nodded his head yes. "What's the problem then hyung?" Jimin really didn't understand why Yoongi acted like that over one single kiss that he knew Yoongi has longed for for a long time. "He said he was sorry.... and that he wouldn't do it again.... Mimi, I'm scared" Jimin widened his eyes, Yoongi hasn't called him Mimi since they were children.

"Well Kookie literally had a panic attack, I promise you, he's just as scared as you are right now" Jimin wasn't wrong saying that, in Jungkook's dorm room, Jungkook was the one crying in Taehyung's arms.