About my sad life

Hi Mt name is Madan.I am so worried about my life because when I was small I always feel that I will always be happy when I grew up and I will settle my life with happiness.But still now I am not feeling the same moment which I thought for my life.Why I dont know only my life is like a hell even I want to process better to be happiness with my family.Maybe I had done something wrong on life past life.Please God just forgive my wife and my son because they are my heart and soul which I will never forget until my last breath maybe I am your wrong person on your special world.