"Hey girl ! get these stuffs up the stair and

don't just stand and mop like a moron"

"ooh Miri ! when have I turned to a moron,

you untrained mind"...I muttered.

"shut your mouth dumb , let's finish this

work as quick as possible, I've got no time

to waste".

I am no longer stranger to such human attitudes and I have learnt how to handle it with dignity.Well , being an orphan is something I have lived with since I was three years of age, I never got my parents warmth of love and never got to say goodbye, not even a wave of hand, not even a kiss on my cheeks.Better still, life goes on.

Living in orphanage was not something desirable, being restricted from funny activities which seems negative to them, no full right to enjoy, it was all grossed.

I would always watch kids who came with their parents for a visit.

"darling Tony"...a parent would say.

This sweet name triggers my mind, head bowed to the ground and flashback on exit parents, admiring such lovely family makes me think of what it means to have a father and a mother, how generous it would be of them to grant my request and how sympathetic to condone my stubborn acts.

"Mr. death! you actually made a terrific

mistake, you are such an unwise horrible

annoying Mr, if I have met you earlier,

I would have kicked your damn stupid

ass into the hot coal"

I always imagine this being realistic but it isn't.

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"Anita! Anita! wake up ... Anita!

Nika said shaking my body all over.

"mmh! Nika...huh! it's gonna be a bored

day again,right ?...I shruggered.

"No Anita! don't get your day bored,

you've got to see this"...Nika said.

Seven years old Nika has been picked along the roadside by a helpful Samaritan, the poor girl knows nothing about what the world calls family since she had no insight of how she got to the orphanage, she has always been my personal handbag who swings along with me at all time, she became my secret keeper and hopes not to loose me by her side.

Soon, the director and the psychologist barged into our dormitory.

"Arise!... shouted the director a everyone rose up from their bed.

"Anita !... her voice thundered as I quickly opened my eyes only to see the director standing behind my bed. All eyes were on me.

"you lazy baboon, you never strike

when others does"... she shouted.

Still feeling dizzy and sleepy,I asked her

"ma ! what does a baboon look like,

I hope to see it one day"

I stared at her wrinkled old face, she was waiting to drag me up from the bed as I sluggishly stood up.

"learn some manners... bastard!... she

said annoyingly.

"everybody should put on his or her best

well mannered attitude, we have a visitor

who have come to take one of you along

with him, your manner will unlock his

heart to choose you.Your hopelessness

will turn to a new hope if you are

coordinated with comported, shrug away

from it and you remain here forever....

...are we clear ? she asked.

"yes ma'am! ....we all echoed.

The visitor was signaled to come into the dormitory and make his choice of preference.

"Mr.Cart ! the ball is in your court to

play"... the director said.

I turned and stared at everyone,they were all enthusiastic to go with him,Mr.Cart was walking past everyone with a smile on his face, such a fair handsome wealthy looking Mr.Cart, who wouldn't want to go with him.

Well, I go wherever destiny leads me.

Still wanna close my eyelids, as I fold my arms, rub my eyes and yawn severally, I wish Mr.Cart will walk away and let us go back to our sleep.

"Pretty ! what's your name ?...Mr.Cart asked, pointing at me.

"My name ?...I asked shockingly.

"Yes! ... he said

"My name is Anita"..…..

"Anita! Anita! Anita!...such a sweet

name.

Mr.Cart walked up to the director and whisper to her ear.

"Anita ! pack your luggages and meet me

in the lower room"... the director

commanded.

I stood speechless...is this where destiny is leading me?...are my eyes deceiving me?... how did it happen? ,these rhetorical questions kept on running in my mind.

"Anita!...

Nika held my hand and sobbingly said

"it's true when I said you will leave

me,I know I wasn't lying, now you are

letting go of me"

I felt emotional as I tried cuddling her

"No Nika ! though we will be parted, but

we won't be parted in our heart"...I said, placing my hand on her chest.

"our bond of love won't be separated..

..Nika! I won't turn my back from you,I

will always be here for you"...I said

" what if you won't remember me

anymore? what if things gets better

for you and you deny me? what if I

rot in here?... Nika said, still sobbing.

"Nika...stop it ! stop it... don't say it

anymore,I want you to know that I love

you and I will forever love you, I will

always come back for you" ...I assured

her.

Nika sobbingly embraced me.

"Anita! why are you still delaying?

a voice from the lower room echoed.

"Nika!... come,help me pack my

luggages"...I said as I gave her a light punch on her arm.

"Cheer up! everything is gonna be

alright...I assured her.

Soon ,I was prepared, walking down to the lower room as Nika followed me to see me off.

"Are you ready ... Anita?... the director

asked.

I turned and stared at Nika, stared at Mr.Cart and then gave the director a warm reply.

"Yes ma'am!.

The director then turned to Mr.Cart and said....

"Sir! it's all set, you are good to go!

We walked down to his car, where I was to bid everyone goodbye, ready to enter the car, Nika ran into my arms , with smile on her face, she embraced me, I drew the symbolized love and place it on her chest.The psychologist walked up to me and said...

"feel the pain in other's shoe" as he bid me goodbye.

I waved at everybody as Mr. Cart zoomed off.