At the end of the day, Lukas' circumstances might have changed and completely turned upside down with him becoming a Vampire but that didn't actually change who he was.
Lukas still felt like the same human as he always had been, and that wasn't the best of feelings to have. The reason why he chose the Vampire Nightlife game in the first place was to pretend to be someone else.
Or if not someone else, then just a better version of himself.
And that was hard.
Doing the actual work to be a better version of yourself was always a daily struggle, and somehow, just talking with the uncooperative Vampire tested Lukas' nerves.
He wouldn't have tried if it was only him that he had to worry about.
And yet he thought of Chaerin being gone, and then Lily being sick and he let out a breath that he had been holding and tried one more time.