Kurumi pov
' Time and Reiryoku . Two energies that are present in the memories of the original Kurumi and, until recently, completely foreign to me. '
Thinking about these two energies , I recall the knowledge and memories of the original Kurumi .
' Reiryoku, the concept of this energy is known to me only from the memories of the original Kurumi, because it does not occur in any way in this world, so I have no personal experience with it. However, from the knowledge and memories of the original Kurumi I know that Reiryoku or spiritual power is an energy that fuels the powers of each Spirit. '
' It is thanks to Reiryoku that spirits create their astral dresses , fly or simply maintain their existence . Reiryoku is the basis of a spirit's existence . According to my second theory , as to why I don't have all the abilities of the spirits . I suspect that the lack of Reiryoku in this world , has greatly limited my abilities and development as the spirit . '
Thinking about it further I shake my head knowing that this topic is not important now . After all, the lack of Reiryoku in this world means that this is not what this " being " is looking for . Besides , discussing theories as to my current state I can put off for another time .
That due to the non-existence or occurrence of Reiryoku in this world , energy sought by this " being " must be " time " . The original Kurumi knew a lot about " time " to say she was an expert would be an insult to her knowledge . The life of the original Kurumi revolved towards the idea of collecting more " time " . I also had the opportunity to experiment with it a little to confirm some things to make sure that her " time " is no different from mine .And well , the very definition and use has not changed . Both " times " are the same . But from where did I get the suspicion that this is what this " being " is looking for ?
' The first time I was shot with a zefekiel bullet , I openly felt water splashing on my temple . However, now being more aware of the situation , I can describe this feeling more accurately as like being hit in the head with a ball of diluted , not too thick liquid tar . Now understanding that this bullet was made of " time " , I can say that " time " despite its shadowy , black and red appearance has the texture of diluted tar . '
' However, the density really depends on the density of the energy of " time " contained in the bullet or one spot . My experiments with time and memories of the original Kurumi , who experienced the impact of the bullet made of " time " thousands of times reassured me about the texture and appearance of the energy of " time " . In my case " time "much more diluted and non-dense , in the case of memories of the original Kurumi , the " time " was thick as tar .'
Thinking about it I know someone would ask " why you mention it ? " or " What does it have to do with this " being " and its goals ? "
' It has so much in common tahat I felt the same texture floating in that void , where other Kurumi's and that clock floated . The liquid in that place , reminded me in its texture of tar .... Yes , I am sure that at that moment I was floating in " time " ..... I was floating in a seemingly infinite ocean created from the energy of " time " . Ocean of "time " so dense that even in the memories of the original Kurumi she did not even reach half of that density in the bullet that took her back in time. And when I emerged to the surface of that strange space , I was standing on " time " so condensed and dense that it became a solid ground .'
Thinking about it I know how absurd it is . Especially since I know what " time " is .
' " Time " is nothing but the life force contained in living beings . So yes , probably an infinite sea of life force . However, the question is why and from where this " time " is there ? As the name suggests , the life force can be used for several things . Looking at the fact that this clock was immersed in this sea , perhaps it feeds on this " time " or to recover ? I and other Kurumi were also immersed in this sea of " time ", but why ? I do not know . '
'Perhaps the process of creating us ? Filling us with " time " ? I have no idea . We were held there by chains just like that big clock , however I don't know what it means !!!?!!!! '
Thinking about it , out of exasperation caused by my lack of information , I bury my face in my hands and clench my nails against my skin . Feeling the pain , I immediately stopped . Instead , I wiped my face with my palms then spread my hands to the sides .
' Now as to , from where that " time " came from ? I honestly have no clue why this entity has such an amount of " time " ? I also don't have the slightest idea , from where that time came from . I have my suspicions however beyond that I don't have the slightest idea how accurate they are . Unfortunately this suspicion besides being terribly dark and scary in itself , it has some support in all the information I've gathered '
Thinking about where this " time " could came from , my head began to form the darkest images . However, they always come down to the same thought and idea .
' Destroying worlds to gather " time " from the death of the beings living in them . This thought seems all too obvious , typical and simple for me . However, doesn't it sound true and highly probable ? Especially since I have seen several things that solidified this thought in my mind . '
Thinking about it I recall this one dream in which I was talking to a burned body , which belonged to former consciousness of one of my souls .
' In that dream , I stood in the ruins , I was surrounded by mass graves , full of burned bodies from which a black shadowy substance flowed . These thin streams of this shadowy substance merged into rivers and this river merged with my shadow . It was just a dream , this shadowy substance had no flashes of red in it like " time " normally has . But it was falling into my shadow , and this is one of the ways I gain " time " for myself . '
' Is it just a coincidence , symbolism or warning ? Plus those words that were said to me at that time , crime , sins , shadows , turning back time . I don't understand it but it doesn't make this situation look any better . This " being " may want to end the world to collect " time " . And I may not be just an anchor , I may serve as a receptacle that collects and sends " time " to that " being " . Perhaps I will be even forced to cause this disaster myself . Besides this one dream there are several other things that point to this theory . And this seems to be the most logical explanation for everything that is happening around me . However, I really do not want it to be so .'
' Or it could all really just be my fear of the unknown . In fact maybe it was this " being " that emitted all that " time " or there was another way that time was there . It's all horrible thoughts may just be my paranoia . But there is neither confirmation nor denial that this is true . So yes there is a chance that I am an anchor for a " being " that is planning to end my world . '
I don't really know what to think , my head is empty . In the end what should I do ? What am I supposed to do ? I have no information, only theories. I have no way to find out new information. I can't get out of the situation itself and I don't even know if I can disobey the orders imposed on me .
' I . DON'T . KNOW . ANYTHING . '
' And even if I knew I can't do anything . This drives me crazy . My mind fills in the gaps or creates theories on its own . I am powerless . I am only human . Admittedly my soul is some staple of three souls and I myself possess superhuman abilities . But what does that change in front of " this " situation . What should I do in my situation ? This being created me !!!!! And it has an army of other Kurumi's stronger than me . Not to mention the fact that I'm certainly under its control or observation . '
Thinking about my situation I just smile . Closing my eyes I let the night and the moonlight consume me . I need to calm down because I'm really going to break down , and that's the last thing I need in this situation . I need to get my act together , leaving aside my situation , if my guess is correct others may also be in danger .
' My pink mouse , my mint chocolate . Big Papa and Big Mom . Ash and Cooper . Cherry and even Lotus . My Family , my friends , my world , my future and my destiny . There could be millions of them and me in the most diverse timelines . However, for me , I only have one of them and there is only one me . Others are just copies . '
' Should I give up ? There is no such possibility . If my assumption is true , I will not let it happen ... Or at least I will cause as much trouble as possible . But to have the chance to do so I must be stronger . Stronger than any Kurumi , stronger than this " being " . Unfortunately my current power has limits . '
Because of this realization I can only giggle .
' Therefore, to think about rebellion , I have to wade deeper into this situation . I must let myself be carried away by this river and try not to drown . But , to do it safely and start preparing for this possible dark future , to at least try to protect everything I know . I must use every bit of my powers . Therefore, even if I feel grief and sorrow for my loss of humanity , and even if I know that I can continue to lose it . I will take this if this give me some power .I can't be picky '
' With time more information will become available to me , more truth will be discovered . If my assumptions are wrong, at least I will have the strength to ensure the safety of others. As for my humanity. I will survive without it. As long as my family lives ..... My humanity too . So no more crying . I am now a half spirit , I am Kurumi Tokisaki . And it looks like, at least for now, I have a goal and a lot of work to do. '