"Ifraa....this banquet is looking beautiful "aqsa said to me as we entered the hall.
"Yeah definitely "… I said , even I am shocked to see something so beautiful the whole banquet with so many lights and a beautiful chandelier is hanging in a middle on the hall. everything is decorated with golden lights…. My father can never afford something like this , this is sure saad's work .
Then I saw the guests , yes off course how can I forget there are going to be so many peoples here , so many peoples that know my past , so many peoples that are my past , but isn't this ,the thing ,they all are my past and now all I have to do is to focus on my present..
"Heyy ifraa are you listening what I am saying ?" aqsa said by moving her hand In front of my face.
" Huhh , what ? no actually sorry I was just thinking about something else ."
"I was saying that we should probably go and greet our guest you know we are bride's sister .. its our duty and what if I found someone handsome and dashing guy in our guest . so maybe the next no. is going to be of me." aqsa said as she give me her that michievious wink … she is always like this , always ready to get married , and on the other hand me .. it scares the shit out of me to just be in love with someone ….
"You both are here go and greet the guest …. U are bride's sister go and show some courtesy to groom's relative". our mom said as she came near us ..
"Mom relax we are going there .. first tell me how's our bride , is she nervous ?" aqsa ask to mom , the most stupid question I've ever heard.
"Simra and nervous .. that girl don't know what it feels like to be nervous . she is always that confident and pridefull , right mom"
"On a contrary this is definitely not happening right now , she is so nervous that she is roaming all over her room by thinking about all the things that are not going to happen …"
"Really" aqsa and I both said in unison .. this is just impossible.
"But mom I never saw her nervous" I ask my mom , that's true that girl don't know anything about being nervous wherever she go , she always know she is going to kill it .and always act so confidently.
"That happens when you are the bride and you know that when you are gonna go to the stage and every eyes are going to be on you , you feel nervous "
"Whatt ?? if all eyes are going to be on her that why I waste so much time on getting ready.. I want some attention too mom " aqsa said by giving me a wink.
Mom hit her playfully and she giggle. sometimes I am really confused how is she always this happy?
Mom and aqsa are already busy in their talking so I try find that one person I have to avoid whole time …
As my eyes and head are moving from right to left .. I find him…
3 years after three years I am seeing him he is still looking the most handsome person in a room , i sigh , throughout the whole day , this time from relief, it look like that just one look from him and every cell in my body goes calm . my anxious heart get back to its normal rhythm . that's when I realized I am still in love with him . all these 3 years I try to suppress my feelings for him with layers of different feeling but the second I saw him , I am feeling like all those layers get crushed in that one exact second and the only layer which remain is of my love for him ….
He is talking to his friends and showing all his emotion on his face , his laugh when he hears something funny or his displeasure when he hear something annoying .how the shine of his eyes and his thick eyebrows work together and all his emotions are on his face. His friend said something to his and suddenly he move his head toward me and and before our eyes can meet I grab aqsa's hand and drag her toward simra's room
"Aqsa lets go . we should give a accompany to our sister" I said by dragging her toward simra's room.
"But atleast let me talk to my friend" she said by waving her free hand in the air , probably saying heyy to her friends circle.
"No just lets go please" I said and continue dragging her , not that I am giving her option to say no again ..
I drag aqsa with me because I don't want to realize which one of us is me,, he is always confused between me and aqsa .
.. I don't have the courage to make eyes contact with him because if I did that I have to go to him and start begging on my knees to forgive me … I am sorry .. for something I never did.
"Forgive me , I am sorry . these words I hate these words because they hold no meaning , people don't believe them anymore no matter how much someone beg them to believe they just don't…"
"Zayn please belive me I am sorry ,I did nothing wrong they are lying , zayn don't leave me I love you please , just listen to me zany . I am telling the truth , please forgive me … zaynnn"
I can actually feel my eyes having tears in them as my memories from the past came back to me again , not they were ever gone .. but today's day is not mine it's simraa's
By still holding aqsa's hand I stand In front of the bride room , by showing a big smile on my face I turned the doorknob and open the door ..
"Heyy pretty gir"l I said
"Ahh.. thank god you both are here , I am already getting bored here , whats going outside ?" simra said as she sits on the one side of the bed. "Give me some gossips".
"You know I don't like any gossips simra, ask our gossip queen".
"And that is going to be me well I have so much to tell you first, that I checked out a really hot guy with your groom and they look like best pals so you have to share his all details with me". she said by walking toward simra . "second the whole town is excited to see your lehenga which is specially designed by our hardworking sister Ifra Aziz . and third is that I caught ifra checking out her ex like she is never going to see tomorrow. Done" she said by sitting in front of us.
"What" simra and I both said together .. we gave each other glances . this always happen with us we always say thing together. But right now I have to focus in what aqsa said about my exx.
"Say it again" again we both said together,
"What?"aqsa ask with the most clueless expression in her face.
"What you just said" I asked.
"About the hot guy?" she question.
" no" . this time simra said it .
"about the lehenga" simra said which so much curiosity on her face . I saw her with disbelief . I can't believe my sister want to know about the gossip of her legenge that my life .
"No" . I said while giving a glare toward simra . "about my ex did you notice me seeing him".
"My girl… half town notice you ,we all know how much you are in love with him . the second you stepped here , everyone's eyes is either on you or on me trying to figure out which one is you but then you look at zayn and now they all know which one is you."
"Oh my god oh my god . I am not stepping outside now" I said while panicking.
"Heyyy you can't do that its my engagement you have to be there for me" simra suddenly said to me as se pleaded.
"Or otherwise be ready to hear an earful of mom and beside trust me I am gonna be there with you the whole time and no will guess which one is you" …. "See perks of having a twin ".
"You sure this idea will work ". I asked to both of them .
"We are sure". They both nod in the in unison.
"Okay"
"Now go outside and check when they are going to start the ritual ." simra tell us as she signal her hands toward the door .
"Yeah lets go"
......
How can I be this stupid . how can I forget that I have no more right to ogling the person I love …. That my every movement is restricted .ok from now onwards I will just avoid him .
"What are you thinking ?" aqsa ask when we stepped out of simra's room.
"No,nothing"
"Come on I know you ,..tell me?". She said as she move my head toward her face .
"I am just thinking that from now onwards I will avoid zany,.. I don't want to the gossip of the town again?
"My girl you are the gossip of the town already , but you are right you have to avoid zayn , not for anyone but for you my sis , that jerk don't deserve you why don't you get it?".
"Heyy.. you know what happened earlier that was not his fault ,anyone would think the same .."
I always say this to myself whenever someone say this but each time it feel I am convincing myself more than, the other person.
"No no my sis you are getting it wrong someone who would really love you never think the same .. and if its not his fault than its not your fault too. Stop blaming yourself for what happened because of that jerk"
"Don't call him a jerk" I said with a warning glare to aqsa, I never liked someone talking bad about zayn.
"There is nothing to hide that I hate him and I will call him a a jerk no one can stop me , not even you . you are so desperately in love with him that you never listen anything bad about him , and on the other hand he ….ahhh.. stop talking about him otherwise I would lose my mind and start beating him that would ruin our beloved sister engagement . we don't want that now do we?"
"Heyyy my girls" suddenly we both heard a familiar voice when we turned we saw our bestfriend..
"Madihaa ?? is it you ?".. aqsa question by yelling with excitement.
Madiha is saad's sister and aqsa's bestfriend.
"Yeah its me" she said while walking toward us .
"Ahh let me guess both of you" she said by looking both of us with confused expression.
"Ifra" she point her finger at me . "aqsa" she point her finger at aqsa . right ?.
"You are always right".. I said with a smile.
That's true only people who knows us since childhood can guess the different between us .
Even zayn can never tell us apart ..
And then in a blink I saw aqsa jump in excitement and jump over madiha to give her a hug .they both are always like this since the childhood but after so many years we are actually seeing madiha after she went away for her studies.
"How are you? .. girl you totally changed? Aqsa says to her while still wrapping her arms around madiha.
"But you both are still the same ….. , tell me how are you ?"
"We are absolutely fine , and tell me have you know that handsome guy with your brother ? with that long hair and brownish red tux , I can tell you all the girls will drool over him in seconds as they saw him".. aqsa said as she move his head to find that 'handsome guy'.
"Yeahh him"… madiha said , its clear that she is blushing my the mention of that guy name …. Aqsa and I saw each other and realize that she is already drooling over him . "actually he is my brother's best friend Kaif and goshh…. hell …yess …he is so hot even I really like him" she said while putting her hairs behind her hair .. she is really blushing so hard .
"Ohh my god madiha .. it really feel so gosh to saw you blushing like a teenage girl" aqsa said.
"He always says he likes me" madiha said now while giggling.
"Hey heyy… stop or otherwise I will get jealous , did he really said he likes you" . aqsa ask her .. I never really understood about aqsa that she always wanted to know about her friend's crushes ..
"Yess.." madiha said.
"If you both are done then we should go and see when the engagement rituals is going to happen?" I said I really want to see the ritual , I am so happy for simra's because I always love weddings and their rituals.
"Yeah yeah lets go , its been really long since I last saw aunty and uncle ." madiha said while tucking her each arms with mine and asqa's . she love walking like this .
"But where are they ?" I said I try to find them but eventually I saw someone coming toward us ….
"I can't believe my eyes aqsa is he really coming toward us" I asked to aqsa as use her as a human shield to cover me but that's really impossible right now.
"Oh oh my sister …..definitely yess , right now he is probably trying to figure out which one of us is you…" shw said while pointing toward him .
"No no no no I am going" I said .
"Where?" madiha ask .
"To find mom and dad . I have to ask about the rituals. Remember ?" I said this as I free my and from her arms and run toward the opposite side , no no I can't face him now.
I can't face the love of my life , can't face my ex…..