That night I could not sleep at all. Emotions after emotions were wearing me out. I was scared, I was angry, I was worried, I was concerned, I was even happy at times and then that happiness would vanish when I would recall Ritvik's words about the child's future.
Why was I living in such a conservative society? Why couldn't I give birth to this child without any fear of judgement or his future? I was weak, I was a coward, I was a moron. I really wish that I had the courage at that time to become a mother and raise a child on my own without thinking about the society. But I crumbled before societal pressure, and I am ashamed of it.