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Bai Xi's Pov:
I sighed and looked out of the window as the night scenery passed away.
We have been quiet ever since the car started. He didn't say a word and I think he is maybe ignoring me. I sat there contemplating on saying anything but decided against it, as it may set him off.
And after all that happened I don't think I can handle any more of his tantrums.
I sighed again and this time, loud. He threw a glance at me but didn't said anything. I can't sit like this , so instead , I tried to be on the safer side and asked , "Where are we going?", as I looked at the area passing by.
He only answered , "you'll see" , without straying his eyes away from the road.
"Just tell me."I insisted.
This time he didn't reply , instead kept driving.
"So you are not going to tell me.", I got frustrated hearing him say that and demanded "You have to tell me. You can't just take me anywhere without my permission." I tried to reason with him but he just shrugged.
I sighed and relented , "You know this is wrong . This is my basic right to know . Now you are just bullying me and I don't do well with bullies, so trust me when I say this you don't want to face my wrath. So tell me where are we going?", I tried to sound as intimidated as my words but I don't think I succeeded much , as the man just swept a glance at me , than reverted his attention back on the road.
His lips pulled in a smirk as he said , "Well if you think that you are being wronged, then I should tell you that you have wronged me too."
"Me , What did I do?", I asked him confused , but he just threw me a glance saying , 'Don't you know'.
I snapped, "Ever since we met I have been nothing but bearing of your mood swings. You threw me out of your hotel room and left me in that restaurant without saying anything. If that isn't rude then I don't know what is. Also just now you shouted at me, but did you see me complain." I exploded and recounted all the things that happened since we met and I saw a grimace taking over on his face.
Yeah finally a score. He has been walking all over me ever since that day. It's time to payback , even if I have to play a little dirty.
I put over a sad expression and made it all extremely pitiful. A panicked expression took on his face.
"Hey, I didn't mean to do all that. I'm sorry if I hurt you. I was just mad at you for putting yourself in danger like that. But please don't get upset over it. I didn't realise that I was being so rude." He pleaded.
I turned my face to the window when I feel his eyes on me.
I gasped as I felt tingles shooting up my arm as his hand grasped mine. I turned to him and saw him already looking at me. He brought his hand holding mine to his lips and softly kissed on the back of mine.
"My Home", he replied.
It took me a second to understand it , but when I did , my heart pounded hard against my rib cage as if it might come out. I pulled my hand back and before I can even think more clearly , I screeched and told him , "What do you mean your home " , I was hyperventilating inside while I thought of countless outcomes if he ever got to know my identity.
"I am not going there. Stop the car right now." I declared with not so much a preamble.
He threw me a confused glance but continued driving. I pulled my hand back and look at the way we are going but it didn't seem the way to the Si manor. As the manor is on the west of the city, almost on the outskirts , while we are going into the city. Atleast we are not going there. All the servants at the manor knows me.
Maybe he is taking me to the mansion that he lives which is also in the city. I breathed a sigh of relief at that. I averted all eye contact with him and turned my face to the window.
Suddenly, he slammed on the accelerator and the car zoomed past the others. He didn't say anything more, just took the next intersection and exited the crossway.
He drove for a while before pulling over in a relatively quiet corner. The street looked empty except for the the few vehicles passing by.
He unbuckled his seat belt and turned towards me.
Taking my hands in his he said ,"Hey , Look at me", in his earnest voice.
I did and my heart thudded at the look in his eyes. It is quite something, something I should probably be scared of.
He continued in his deep baritone of voice , "I am sorry for that day in the hotel. When I heard you say that you did something so dangerous, I got scared. Scared of what, I didn't know. Until now , I realised that I was scared of losing you, before I ever got you. You do something to me. Something which makes me feel crazy and possessive of you. I know it hasn't been that long and too early to say this but I know you matter to me more than anything that ever did.
"Ever since I met you , it is you that I want to breathe."
His confession shooked me up badly. I watched him gobsmacked as his eyes portrayed his emotions.
He continued, his voice pleading, "Call me crazy or whatever but please give us a chance."
I opened my mouth to deny that but he cut me off , "Don't lie. Before you say anything else... let me tell you , I know you felt it too. I saw those flickering emotions in your eyes. Please, give us a chance. I promise I will never give you a reason to let go."
I felt all that he said , but sadly this cannot happen. I can never be what he needs. I am not the person he thinks that I am. He doesn't know about my toxic past. He doesn't know that it is so much more than just a past. A past which has been haunting me and even if I want to let it go , it will never let me go , not unless...
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