While going through these thoughts of mine,
I fell asleep.
It's the same noisy alarms sound_
As soon as I get up I was taken aback,
By the sight of my reflection...
"Why?!"
"Shouldn't I be thrilled by looking at my long braids, in the mirror?!"
"..."
Turns out, there's still a whole bunch of shocks reserved only for me!
I immediately shouted Amy's name!
And when she entered, I immediately grabbed her tightly,
"A-Amy didn't you bring your daughter yesterday?"
"D-didn't she cut my hair with scissors, a-and then you trimmed it??"
"Just how did it grow back right away?!?!"
It's like my voice won't come out and the sweating won't stop either...
My panicking made her startled, and with that startled voice of hers, she replied,
"W-what do you mean M-Miss? I've n-never brought my daughter here; she has never visited this house!"
"?!?!"
"D-did you have any bad dreams, Miss?!"
"WHAT ARE YOU SAYING..."
"Amy! I think you're making a mistake somewhere!"
"You did bring your daughter here yesterday; How can you deny that fact NOW?!"
"B-but Miss... I truly never brought my daugh..."
"Think again!"
"It's not like my sudden memory blank-out infected you, right?!"
"But..."
"What's the wrong with you, Amy?! Yesterday you obviously broug..."
"But miss yesterday didn't you went on shopping and returned early without purchasing anything; when did I bring my daughter yesterday?!?!"
"I truly never brought my daugh..."
"WHAT DID YOU SAY?!?!"
At this moment, I no longer could hear the loud beating of my heart; like it never existed!
"What day is today?"
She didn't even give her answer, but my body already started getting colder...
It's like I already know the answer, expecting not to hear it from her Mouth! Cause no matter how cursed that diary is, it can NEVER_
"I-it's the 5th of January."
ERASE A DAY...
...
'Burn it!'
'Burn it!'
'Burn it!'
Immediately grabbed the diary, and rushed to the fireplace.
"It won't burn!"
"It's also a crime to burn such a precious Diary!"
Cordelia slowly approached me.
"What do you want now? Get out!"
She stayed silent, and the moment she took off her veil, the diary fell off from my hand! It wasn't because of her terrifying appearance instead...
She looks exactly like me! Even I myself can't deny the fact that there's not even a single difference between us!!
She simply picked up the diary without the care about my reaction.
"H-how... w-who are you?!?!"
She stops and looks at me with those soul-less eyes of her.
"Me?"
"You mean us, right?!"
"We're one after all!"
Even though she was spouting nonsense, my voice... it won't come out anymore. I was never a shock lover either!
"Must be thinking I'm spouting nonsense, right!"
"But, I am the disgusting other-half that you'll lock in the closet, the disgusting truth that you'll likely love to be forgotten, and the memory that you'll bury in the darkness!"
"Does that make sense now?!"
"..."
"Judging by your reacting, I guess it doesn't."
"But no worries it happens!"
"Just why do you bother digging the truth when it won't be any good?!"
"Truly unnecessary!"
...
Even in my befuddled state, a queer thought came into my mind.
"What happened to Alan??"
"Yup, that's right! What you're thinking is absolutely right!"
"Didn't I tell you that I am you! Didn't you want to rip that disgusting mouth of his; give him a taste of hell?!" she replied with a grin on her face.
"H-how could you d..."
"Besides, an extra like him is not a matter of our concern. It was his fault for overstepping the mark."
"Oh please don't push yourself anymore to carry the act of goddess, and lie to yourself; no matter how bright the moon is it can't prevent the darkness to fall!"
"Be honest, didn't those jealous eyes, attention, affection, admirings feel gratifying?"
'WHY?'
...
'Why her words are so... TRUE!'
'Why did those feelings feel so damn satisfying to me?'
'Why can't I deny it? Because I can't!'
'But... this isn't me right?!'
"I-I don't want to be this person..."
She remained silent for a moment.
"No matter how much you lie, you too know that there's a part of you that you don't wanna admit, and which you can never admit are the part where you truly belong behind the ACT! The part of your imagination, your another You, your another World! And this is the world where the you in you belong's. In the end, no matter how hard you try to erase that part, how much you try to remove that part of you... I'll always EXIST!!"
"And this diary is the only object that holds our truth. It is this diary where you wrote your every single moment, the you in you, the everything you knew!"
"Regardless of how much we pretend to be a saint, deep down we're the WORST! Wanna deny?!"
'Ah... I see...'
'While finding myself in my dreams in Reality, I didn't even notice when I made my dreams into my own Reality...'
'These peoples are nothing more than some mere characters playing their roles!'
"And what's the play?!"
...
'In the end, this Reality is nothing but a Dream!'
'But...'
'Who cares!?'
'As long as I am Happy...'
'Finally, I'm happy! I don't have to run in the Best Girl Competition anymore. I don't have to feed on my Dreams anymore.'
'Isn't this the Happiness?'
'I can be whatever I want, whomever I want, and do whatever I want.'
"BUT... What happened to my real body?"
"..."
"Why bother asking?"
"Of course I'm curious; Did I die or in a coma or what?"
"..."
...
I woke up to the alarm.
As soon as I woke up, the maids entered my room.
"What day is it today?"
"It's 2nd January today."
"oh I see!"
"Is there something important today, Miss?"
"Nothing much."
"..."
"Did my father perhaps choose any personal maid for me?!"