Anita now felt as if Jessie had pulled her from a well of deep memories. Anita also found this deep well like a comfortable bed and wanted to stay here for some time.So that maybe one or two sweet memories can be found in this well.
jassie felt that her grandmother was more distressed by telling her childhood stories, so nothing was being said to her.
Anita suddenly gets up from the bed And picks up the water bottle lying next to her which was not empty yet and goes to the kitchen to fill the water bottle. So that it takes some time for Anita to come out of the well of deep memories. Anita drinks water standing in the kitchen and fills the water bottle as needed. She comes back to her bed.
Jassi is silently watching all this as she is surprised that there was no need to fill the water yet they went to fill it.From this Jessie understands that the grandmother is upset.
Seeing all this, Jessie thinks that now I have become disturbed not to ask anything from my grandmother
And she says to Anita, Grandmother, now you too go to sleep, the rain has also started now, The strong winds stopped blowing.
But Anita knows all about Jesse's heart.
Then Anita laughs and says, don't worry bout me, today I will tell my little friend everything about me.
jassie smiles...
Then Anita would start speaking.....
In our time, the will of the boy and girl was not asked at the time of marriage. The elders of the house used to establish this relationship. Me and your grandfather also saw each other first time after marriage.
jassie said in surprise that this is how marriage was done, Jassi said laughingly
This thing was bad even if the boy had smallpox spots on his face and A girl runs away from home on her wedding day in fear
Consider the boys and girls of that time.
Anita was looking at jessie's face.
Because Jesse had said a very deep thing and
jassie was unaware of this. Because what he said about smallpox touched Anita's heart
Listening to Anita, she was thinking in her mind. Even if it is not spot on the boy's face, but after marriage, the soul of many girls is definitely scarred. When spouse who connect the heart is not found.
Anita recites a famous song of that time which tells the sorrow of girls....
"father has find spouse for me who does not come to my soul"
All things come in this one line . Anita then becomes silent.
Grandmother, don't tell me to sleep now, you know that tomorrow ,I won't go to college.
I know, I know everything.
It is only a few days after our wedding. father of your grandfather asked us to leave the house.
We shifted to a room where had only one bed and
luggage which I brought from my father's house.
Just nothing else Grandma Ma!
how cruled they are!! Why did they do this, Grandmother?
My studies which they think were not good
Everyone thought this girl was not good because she was studying outside the village.
This was the inferior thought of the people with whom you lived grandma..
oh yes my little friend..... Yes, it was bad, but I could do nothing.
I also did not say anything and your grandfather did not speak anything before.
I didn't tell anything to my parents, they had their own problems, what should I tell them.
My mother made me understand one thing on my wedding day that You stay at your in-laws house with your inner strength.Because although a woman is weaker than a man, she has more inner strength than a manI remembered this all my life that when I sat in that empty room, I kept remembering what my mother had said.My courage was getting stronger
Then I came to know that my grandfather was a great man. It didn't matter to him whether the room was empty or full.
He did not eat or stay at home much, he would just go with his friend and come late at night.
The biggest shock I got was when I found out that your grandfather was not doing any work.
grandma it's true that grandfather did not do any work even after marriage.
yes, my child.. For two days, we went to sikh temple and ate bread, Or sometimes a neighborhood bread was given.
Did grandpa have no tension about these circumstances?
Anita laughs a little and says that he always said that God will show some ways.. But I knew that God would still help me if I tried on my own.
Then what did you do?The lines of distress on Jessie's forehead were clearly visible.
Anita looked at Jesse with love and put her hand on his forehead and kissed his forehead and said
Then my neighbour told me that there is a small school nearby, there is vaccancy . She said if you can do any work there then do the job.
Then I asked your grandfather about the job when he came home at night.
Then, what did grandfather say?
Your grandfather did not speak much,
He used to answer in very few words after listening to everything. I thought maybe he does not like me but then slowly I realized that it was his nature.
Did grandpa agree to do the job?
he says as you like...
Then the next day I went to school and told them that I have completed 10 classes. They also wanted a little-educated girl who could take care of small children.
Like a nursery class grandma...
Anita laughed a little...
Yes exactly right my little friend.
Anita takes a long breath and said that because of my mother and brother, whatever I studied , it helped me a lot in hard time.
I was called to school the next day for a job
And tears came to my eyes.
My salary in school was eight hundred rupees a month . But now the difficulty was how to get through a month without money.
there was no tension to grandpa?
He was also upset, and looking for a job but he did not know any manual work, due to this he did not get a job.
Sometimes we slept hungry and sometimes went to the sikh temple and ate bread .Thus we passed a month.
I have never seen a worse day in my life. Because neither had anything to eat at home. There was always this fear that no guest would come to the house. Thank God no one came that time.
But yes, these difficulties strengthened my spirit even more.
It is very difficult to live like this, even thinking about you makes my mind nervous.
My little friend, if such difficulties come, So it does not go away with panic But yes, if your intention is firm, even the hardest times will pass slowly.
You never know what life will show you, but if you have a strong will power, you should always have a strong one. got it
yes grandmother, , I will always remember that and will try to have courage like your mother and you.
It is raining so hard outside that you can hear it... Anita says. . . . . .
You don't sleep today and don't let me sleep.
Now don't take the matter to another side. tell me, what happened after this ....grandma
i tell you... okk.
I still remember that how did we pass that one month without money and without eating enough bread?
The day also came when I got my salary. I was happy that day. But when I gave money to your grandfather at night.
he will be very happy... grandma.
Anita speaks with a strange laugh...
Like every time he said nothing, but yes,
The next day my happiness and enthusiasm was gone..
When your grandfather baught novel of 200 rupees and gave two hundred rupees to his friend
Grandmother,, what did grandfather do?
He did not speak much and I didn't ask him too much either.
But yes, as long as we were together, it went on like this.
Both of us never openly laughed or talked.
I could not understand till today whether he was happy or not with me.
Our relationship had been a puzzle.
How long have you been together ?...grandmother
ten years..
Saying that Anita took a long sigh..
Then there was a long silence between the two.
Anita again fell into the deep well of memories.
She was thinking that
In these 10 years, maybe he did not laugh even for ten minutes
All I have earned till date are these two children of mine.
By seeing whom I forget my past time..
It was not known when youth came and went..
Childhood passed without play and youth without desires..
Perhaps there were sins of previous births that I committed in this life....