So my aunt,I and her two daughters went to our house for the burial preparation although we never slept in my fathers house we logdge but often attend meetings at day break ,first time I came to the house with my aunt ,my dad insulted me and told my aunt to take me away that I signify badluck and my stupid grandma was at his back supporting his every word julia and rita came down from the car cause of my dad high voice,when ben saw me he came rushing to hug me ,my eyes started clouding with tears when julia came closer to me and whispered in my ear saying I shouldn't try myself and cry that I can't go everywhere fooling myself I used my last ounce of self control to not shed tears as I hugged my twin brother ben I didn't see the rest of them at home,ben told me my father sent them to get things for burial preparation and we discussed her told me how my mom was treated badly both in her dieing bed she was trying to reach my aunt to bring me to see her of its just this last time we cried hugged each other and then I decided that my last fear of anyone in this world is over and this was going to be my last tears anyone would ever see
I would go back to school take the entrance exam with Julia to be promoted to Senior high while I study law and my father must be charged for domestic violence that left to murder ,ben saw the murderous glint in my eyes and was telling me to calm down ,now we only have ourselves and I told him to run away from home as my dad would start making life hard for him.
That day when we were about to leave my dad told my aaunt that she's to bring a certain amount of money for him and that he has to settle many things I lashed out at him telling him how he failed big time as a father and My mother will haunt him to insanity he told me he wasn't sure if my mom didn't have me for someone else and curse the day I was born if it was me of before I would cry but I just smiled at him and thank him for making my job easier that the next time we will meet it won't be as family but as strangers and her should get ready for my revenge he won't know what hit him.
On our way to the lodge my aunt kept on asking me if I was Okay and I should cry if i wanted ,when we got down from the car Julia held my hand for the first time and patted my back she told me I should not listen to anybody when they tell you to cry they just want a weak and when you are known for something it gets bad as an addiction I was surprised she could talk to me that long without saying mean things I wanted to tear up she left me and said keep your emotions in check you have a lot to learn and left me I finally put my self together promising to change and stand up for myself but I know its never going to be easy