Nothing change. As always today I am also wishing to god "please god listen to my wish,I don't want to live in this world but I also don't want to die. I just don't want to live as Rata." But I know when I open my eye it will be morning and I am still the same me.

(cry)Sob sob

If only father mother was still alive. Then I ...

While sleeping I was still wishing the same thing.

When my father mother died they said it was a accident but I know that's my uncle work. After I got evidence and punish them I thought finallys I got my revenue. God did make me lucky but I lost my reason to live. Then I suddenly meet him. He was the sunshine of my life. I thought now I won't be lonely anymore. But what he also betray me. Now I have blood cencar. I don't what to live like this but I also don't want to die.

If I have a next life I want to earn so much money.

So that I can at least get what I want.

(close eye)

so cold. Where am I? God are you finally listening to my wish.

Ha ha ha

Now I am free.