After listening to moon's side of the story I broke down in tears, I couldn't help but wonder why she didn't hate me after what I did. I moved closer to her and wipped the tears on her cheeks and pulled her in as I gently kissed her. " I'll keep you safe from now on" I said while hugging her.
1 week later
I have decided to not hide myself anymore, I am going to come out to my whole family. I arranged a meeting with my brothers first and talked to then about my decision and they all were supportive of me confronting my dad on the matter.
The meet up with my dad didn't go well we exchanged words as I was trying to make him understand me but it was all pointless he did want to see me anymore because he thinks that it is something stupid and unholy.
I went back home crying not wanting to let moon know why I was crying. it broke my heart because it was so hard for me to understand why it was hard for him to understand my love. but am not willing to hold back anymore I am going to take anything he throws at me.
Moon took me out for dinner and we also went on a late night drive, while I looking at her I saw how happy she was and I would burn the world it makes her happy. I imagined how It will be being married to her and letting the world know that she is my wife and I belong to her, how our child is going to look like, I some how hope she looks like her with her Eagle shaped brown eyes and her slick thick brown hair." what are you thinking about " she asked when she found me looking at her.
"I want to get in your pants" I replied while rubbing her thighs, she looked at me and started laughing.
After really thinking about it I decided to tell moon about it because It was something that i really wanted
she invited me at her restaurant and I decided that It a good time to tell her.
" I want a baby" I said to her, she looked at me surprised and started laughing "we both know I can't get you pregnant, what are talking about". I looked at her with a firm expression to prove how serious I was "I WANT A BABY WITH YOU" I repeated it again with a much serious tone "are you serious" she asked "we are not ready for a baby right now, you ate not ready for a baby right now and I don't want to make you rush things right now" she continued while pacing around the room. " baby calm down, and am sure am ready for it please let's do it" I held her trying to convince her. "No you're not ready, you need to think about this through" she said, "but I am please let's do it, I know someone who will be willing to be a donor and I will carry the first baby and you can go see him yourself and plus he is also westindian baby please" I tried to give her more information to show her that I had thought about it.
she did not accepted it saying that we should also consider other options, I am trying to understand her but I just can't but maybe she isn't ready for a baby now so am going to wait