Just as Noah's car was leaving, my tears started to flow. How many times can he hurt me? And how long will I be full? Because right now, I really can't see the mouth of this dark tunnel. I can't go up anymore. I love him very much. Unconditionally. That no matter how many times he rejects me, I will continue to wait.
I entered our house in tears. I just realized that this is how love is. That's not a switch that you can just touch to turn it off and stop getting hurt. You have no choice, you will be really hurt when you fall in love. When you still love him, it's always on. You can't lead that.
That's what I told Reina when she was confused about Wade.
"It's not some switch, Reina, that you can turn off if you don't like what's happening." She looked at me while I combed her hair.
I want to tell a story about what happened with Noah a week ago. It's just that, I know she won't be surprised anymore. She knew that Noah really didn't like me before. I was ignored before. I'm the only one who hopes. There is nothing new in her eyes when I tell her more.
"Even if I'm in love with him, I know we won't be together."
"Why?" I frowned
What kind of drama is she telling me about her crush, Wade Rivas?
"Because he wants someone else. I don't think I can steal his heart, Coreen. He can keep a secret for Zoey. That's all, I know it's hard to defeat and divert his love."
I don't know which is more difficult, the one who loves someone else or the one who doesn't but he really just doesn't like you?
That day, Reina and I decided to go to the mall to shop. That's exactly what I was advising her before: the change of image. Of course, she is very much a wallflower. Her personality wasn't strong yet, plus being shy,she really couldn't be noticed at that Wade.
After getting our derma and shopping for clothes, we stumbled upon my favorite make up market.
"Are these really necessary, Coreen?" She asked as I selected a lipstick for her.
This one is really new. She doesn't want to wear lipstick because her lips will look like they are bleeding. Well, there are pink and peach colors there if she doesn't want red. Reina's head is really something.
"When I fell in love with Noah, I learned to use that." I reassured. "Don't worry, I'll help you." I turned back.
"B-But-"
First I saw his sparkling earring. His hair is messy and he is lazily accompanying Zoey Santiago. They also buy make up at my favorite make up store. My blood boiled as I watched Zoey holding Rozen's arm and pointing at the expensive lipstick.
"Hi, Rozen, Zoey!" My eyebrows almost moved because I was so annoyed
That's the difficulty with Rozen. He has a lot of girls (though I've only seen a few, and this one is the only one I've come face-to-face with) and he doesn't care if he just wastes money on them. What is important to him is that he can take them to bed.
I grinned to hide the anger creeping through my system.
"Coreen!" Rozen jumped when he saw me. "Who are you with?"
He immediately looked at who was behind me. After he saw Reina he sighed.
"Reina..."
"Hey, hi!" Reina said.
Even when she is annoyed, shecan still be kind. As for me, I struggle to smile and I might have retaliated against the wild woman in front of me. It is still clinging to Rozen even though Rozen is moving his arm away from it.
"H-How? Reina? You used the car?" Rozen stammered to Reina.
Because Reina can't just leave their house. But earlier, her mommy and daddy had allowed her to use their car.
As for me, I kept staring at Rozen's arm that Zoey claimed. The social climber who is supposed to be the love interest of Wade Rivas (whom Reina has a crush on). Two timer! Maybe she doesn't like Wade because his poor. Kay Rozen is clinging to him because he is famous and rich! I am disgusted. This is just like Rozen, if anyone has a girlfriend
I, on the other hand, stared at Rozen's arm that Zoey claimed. The social climber who is supposed to be the love interest of Wade Rivas (whom Reina has a crush on). Two timers! Maybe he doesn't like Wade because his poor. He clings to Rozen because he is famous and rich! I'm disgusted.
Rozen moved his arm away from Zoey. He was about to pull her hand away but Zoey still didn't let go of her grip on Rozen. I looked at Rozen. He glanced at me while he and Reina were talking.
"Yes, Rozen. Mommy and daddy have given me permission." Reina said to Rozen then turned to Zoey who was now looking at another lipstick. "Don't you want that?" Reina asked then pointed to the expensive lipstick that Zoey had chosen earlier.
"Oh? No... Uhm... I want someone else." Zoey said.
Now Rozen didn't look away from me. He looked back at me. He even raised an eyebrow at me. As if wondering why I was staring so hard at the arm that Zoey was holding.
"How quickly you change your mind. Alright, Coreen and I are leaving." Reina said
She pulled me closer because I couldn't stand Rozen's gaze on me anymore.
"That b1tch!!!" I screamed.
He turns Rozen into an ATM. Buying nonsense things!
I was so upset that I dropped the things we bought.
You're right, Reina! Too annoying! Now, I have confirmed... She likes Rozen because he is rich! She doesn't like Wade because Wade can't give him what he wants! WHAT THE FVCK!" I messed up my hair then stared at the things we bought that I dropped.
It looks like Reina hate Zoey already. She wants to save Wade. Wade loves Zoey so much that he just leaves her to her whims. He just leaves it to Rozen because that's where Zoey is happy, with material things that an Elizalde can buy and not a Rivas.
I just hope Reina succeeds in convincing Wade to stay away from Zoey so it won't be difficult anymore. I pity him.
"Just here, Reina." I said as I pointed to a coffee shop.
"Huh? I will take you to your house. It's a shame if I don't use my car." She said.
"No, thank you. Daddy's office is also nearby. I'll just wait here."
She nodded and showed us what we bought. "Okay. It's up to you. Text me if you don't get it, ah?
She nodded and showed us what we bought. "Okay. It's up to you. Just call me when your daddy can't pick you up"
I laughed, "Of course I can go home alone."
Reina grinned and left.
I sat down at my favorite coffee shop. I ordered a frappe and looked outside. I can see every car passing here. I chose to hang out outside instead of inside. I can see our car more easily when I sit outside compared to inside.
I was about to text daddy when someone suddenly sat in front of me. I immediately frowned when I saw who it was
"What are you doing here?" My voice immediately raised a few volumes.
Just looking at him, my blood is boiling. I don't know why...
"Easy, Coreen." He chuckled.
He held my hand on the table. I immediately removed his hand
"WHAT THE HELL!?"
He just laughed
"I just want to apologize."
"Apologize for what, Rozen?"
During our argument, the waiter was afraid to put the frappe I ordered in front of me. I stared darkly at the waiter and motioned to put it down even though I was angry with my companion.
"Are you jealous?" He asked loudly.
The reason why he grabbed the attention of the people around me. The waiter also glanced before he finally left. My cheeks warmed up.
"What's jealous?" I whispered.
I'm squealing with anger. This animal is really assuming.
"To Zoey..." He said confidently.
I almost laughed.
So instead of immediately blowing up in his face, I drank the cold frappe that I ordered. He watched me drink. When I felt better, I turned to him.
"I'm not jealous, Rozen. I just don't want you wasting your money on a worthless girl!"
"In that case, who should I waste my money on?" He raised his eyebrows. "Because I don't know, Coreen. I do not know."
First of all, why are you wasting your money? Many people are suffering today! Why don't you just donate to them. Why do you have to give your money to women... two timers." I said boldly.
"Two timer?" He asked.
Yes!" I said. "Wade and Zoey have a relationship. Wade loves Zoey, Rozen. That's why Wade is poor and he can't give the things Zoey needs. He only agreed that Zoey should be with you so that you can give her whims because he can't do that."
Rozen burst out laughing. His laughter only annoyed me even more. What the hell?
He grabbed my frappe and drank it. My jaw dropped at what he did.
"That's my frappe, Rozen!"
"That's mine, too. I paid for that."
The nerve of this guy.
I closed my eyes in annoyance.
"Why did you pay for that?" I shouted.
While his expression was just cool when he looked at me so annoyed with him.
"And for God's sake, I already drank there!" I spat.
Ugh! This is so frustrating! I'm not gonna say anything about it anymore. I folded my arms and looked outside. He was staring at me with a smile. I guess He's still glad that he ruined my day.
"Wade Rivas doesn't like Zoey. Zoey likes him." He said
I looked at him.
"I'm just here to use Zoey... and she's also using me..." He shrugged.
I winced at what he said. I didn't understand what he was saying. It sank in my brain for a long time. They are just using each other?
"You're really sick." I said seriously to him
He snorted and leaned into me. "When are you going to tie me to you so that you can stop your annoyance every time you see me with another woman?"
I pushed him.
"Damn, I hate you so much! There you are!" I yelled as I took my shopping bags.
Instead of walking out of Coffee Bean, he stopped me. He grabbed my arm and pulled me towards him.
"Date me secretly, Coreen."
"WHAT? Why would I do that? I don't like you! I'm sick of your behavior, Elizalde!"
"Date me secretly... I will help you with Noah. I promise." He said boldly.
I was stunned.
"Don't you...ever use... Noah's name on me."
His jaw clenched, "This is your last chance. I promise you that. I will help you with him. Just date me... secretly."
I don't understand. How will he help me with Noah while I date him secretly? And will I believe this animal if all he knows is bullshit?