I jump of bed early Sunday morning . I refresh . Then do my laundry . Believe it or not but I knew domestic works pecks of having an old Zulu nanny. She taught how to cook , do laundry and to do all I know today. I look at the mirror and see a strong woman . I lift my shirt up . I see old healed up scars , I trace my scars and I tear up . Boy am strong. The scars from the mental asylum, the scars I got from my sister , Melo and when I was in a cross fire between the Mkhizes and the Khumalos . I sigh I look at my dark dark skin . I repeat my mantra , am strong am beautiful am beautiful . I feel myself tear up . Am having a break down . I gasp for air . I scream and begin hitting the mirror . I hear shouting then the door is broken down . The person rushes to me and picks me up . I look at him . It is Intanda . " I-n-n-n-t-a-n-d-a it h-u-rt ". I gasp for air . " Ssssh sthandwa sam , sssh." . I look at him quickly and skip a breath he called me his love but why . " Int" I say. " Do not talk sleep ". He says . I feel myself sleepy .I tried to speak again he shuts me up .And I feel myself drift to sleep . I sleep peacefully. Gosh it has been long since I felt this way . About 6 hours later I wake up .These has been the longest sleep I have ever had. I see his tattoos before I see him . I drool he is a dream this one . " Sthandwa sam " he sighs " You soo beautiful so beautiful Makhumalo , my little angel , so short, so pretty mmmmmh " . I stare at him did he have to say short .Yes am short , I agree am short okey but him saying am short makes me feel goosebumps is it even possible. " I have restored the door and cleaned up the bathroom and yah I have cooked pap and beef stew . " I look at him imagine him in the kitchen mmmh dirty thoughts run through my mind .A man that cooks sexy .I close my mouth in shock where did those dirty thoughts come from . " Thank you Intanda you didn't have to i mean you know breakdowns you know " . I make our situation awkward. He kisses my forehead and goes to the kitchen .My apartment is a one roomed apartment. He shout from the kitchen " Lufuno you are not going to works tomorrow " . I quickly go to him. " What did you say and why can't I go to work why mmmmh".He looks down at me .Boy he is tall so tall so sexy .I bite my lips , were did that come from. "You were sick love, so I called your boss, my friend and told him you are taking a week off " . I quickly look at him "A week Intanda you are crazy i-l -I lov-e my work , it my escape . " Am having a panic attack , He rushes off and holds me . I sniff him so good . I smell man cologne so woody and spice . I continue sniff him till he chuckles . Gosh can this day get better. We eat our pap in peace. He catches me a few time checking him out. " Let us watch a film " Intanda says. I watch him in awe , this man is insane ."Intanda look neh , we are not friends thank you for doing what ever you did today thank you soo much " , I say with a little blush. No yoh this man is beautiful I mean handhandsome . I laugh to my joke. Intanda looks at me weirdly and puzzled . Yep am like that .He just chuckles and settle on my couch , remote on his hand. He quickly dash to my fridge a d take out a beer . Man am still puzzled. Where did that come from . I mean beer , he looks at me and chuckles. Yoh this specie loves to boast about his beauty knowing that him doing that leaves me starstruck . They if you can kill them join them . So I joined him and we watched Blended . Oh yes Intanda told me about his love for comedy . " Sthandwa am hungry can you prepare me something ", Intanda says .I look at him .Boy this man is crazy . " Intanda are you crazy . I mean am I your friend ahh"
" Look Sthandwa...." " Intanda ,Intanda stop calling me your love okey we are enemies okey enemies " . Intanda 's face changes quickly the moments I say enemies .He stands up quickly and stalk towards me and I move back until am against the wall. "Mamela neh (listen okey) Lufuno rumours you heard about me are true but now am here , here for you against my family, following you around a Khumalo kid because I like you okey , I like you a lot , so what do you say ". Me what is he saying Intanda guys is telling me he likes me . I begin to fear for what my father will say .And Intanda continuous " tell how you feel and if you do not like me just say okey " he is breathing in my face so close so sexy . " Intanda am scared and , Intanda please leave and never come back okey " . I feel my self tearing up for just saying that. Yes I don't like Intanda okey I just can't help but love him .But I have to let him go for our peace and the peace of our families. With that Intanda tales a step back leaves him card on the table " Love just call me if you need anything " .He goes and I close the door . I break down, my first love gone and all just because of my fear . I hold his business card in my hands and save his numbers both private and business . With that I wear my big girl pants and stand up .Feeling dejected. I spend the rest of the watching emotional films that made me cry a lot .With that it cleansed my soul.
NB : Intanda I believe is a Bemba ( one of the language spoken in Zambia ) word meaning Will
Lufuno is a Venda( one of the language spoken I South Africa) word meaning love
Mamela is a Zulu word meaning listen
Neh means okey
Sthandwa is a Zulu and Ndebele word that says love