Chapter 11 - 10th Dilemma

AKI

THINGS have been awkward since I went to Chihiro's place. I was the one who initiated to give him a blowjob because I became horny all of a sudden but then…

「Why am I the one avoiding him?」 I thought to myself while taking quick glances at my innocent assistant.

Kasalukuyan nitong kausap ang isa sa mga kliyente ko. Kakatapos ko lang magbigay ng prescribed medicines sa isang buntis na male Omega at kinukonsulta n'ya ngayon si Chihiro kung may available stock kami ng kailangan n'yang gamot. I'm sure we did at mukhang nagkaintindihan sila ng aking assistant dahil tila napatagal ang pag-uusap nila.

They were both Omegas. Chihiro must be aware of the consequences of becoming pregnant especially when you are a male Omega. Mas maselan magbuntis ang mga lalaking Omega. Although Alpha and Beta males could also get pregnant, mas mataas pa rin ang fertility rate ng mga Omegas — both males and females — kaya naman malaki ang papel nila sa mga Alpha na nangangailangan ng maraming anak lalo na kapag mayaman.

Alphas have a higher rate of making Omegas pregnant and the very peak of success is having sex with an Omega in heat. And that's the reason why suppressants are very important especially to those Omegas who doesn't have mates yet. They are prone to molesters and all sorts of risky circumstances as long as they still go into heat. They normally experience it for once or twice in a monthly basis but there are tons of factors that can affect an Omega's heat abnormalities; just like Kicchan's case before he settled down with Okuda.

As an Alpha, I was quite fortunate for having a higher tolerance against Omega heats which benefited me a lot, knowing my line of work. I could never understand how hard it would be for an Omega to suffer when their heats became a burden not only to their body but also their mental health. Watching Kicchan going through all those pain before shattered my heart. I wanted to ease that pain but I knew that we wouldn't work out if I pursued him, anyway. But I'm happy now that he's found his forever and even had a child with that person. I may still dislike Okuda a little bit but at least he could give Kicchan the happiness that I couldn't and probably, never would.

"Ah, fuck. Why am I being dramatic again? Haa~" dismayadong saad ko nang ma-realize ko na napakalayo na ng takbo ng aking utak.

Nang sulyapan ko muli si Chihiro ay wala na ang kausap nito. Nakayuko na ngayon ang kanyang ulo at tila may sinusulat. I couldn't believe that I'm observing him through a small opening at my office door. Sinadya ko talagang nakaawang ng kaunti ang pinto para lang masilip siya. I feel like a stalker! Akmang uupo na sana ako sa aking swivel chair nang biglang sumulpot na naman si Jirou at nilapitan si Chihiro.

「Fuck! What is he doing here again?! Nilinaw ko na sa kanya na huwag papakialaman si Chihiro! Inis kong isip. Should I interrupt them? But I don't want to deal with Jirou right now. This is so frustrating!」

I chose to observe and eavesdrop on their conversation. Alam kong mali but if Jirou tried to do something to Chihiro, I'll definitely get out of here and chase him out.

"It's rare to see you alone," pambubuwisit ni Jirou kay Chihiro.

Halatang ayaw ni Chihiro sumagot pero may respeto ito kay Jirou bilang nakakatanda kaya kumibo pa rin siya. "Hindi ako nag-iisa, Arisawa-san. Nasa loob si Izumi-sensei," pagtatama n'ya.

"Oh?" Ngumiting parang demonyo naman si Jirou. "How rare."

「Fuck! Shut your mouth, Jirou!」 Nangangalaiti kong isip-isip. Sa sobrang galit ko para nang mababasag ang suot kong salamin.

"May kailangan ka ba kay Izumi-sensei?" bakas sa mukha ni Chihiro na hindi ito komportable na kausap at kaharap si Jirou pero pinipilit n'ya pa rin na kalmahan ang sarili.

"Nothing in particular," tila nababagot na sagot ni Jirou at tinapunan ng malalaswang tingin si Chihiro. "Say, do you work out?"

"Huh?" kumunot ang noo ni Chihiro sa tanong.

"You're no doubt an Omega but you have quite the large body and you don't look frail at all," komento ni Jirou na lalong nagpaigting sa pagkailang ni Chihiro.

"Sa pagkakaalam ko, Arisawa-san, walang batas na nagsasabi na dapat ay magmukha kang mahina kapag ipinanganak kaming isang Omega," matapang na depensa ni Chihiro na kinabilib ko lalo sa kanya.

"But screwing a large Omega is kind of," ani Jirou at nilakbay ang mga mata n'ya sa kabuuan ni Chihiro bago tinuloy ang nais nitong sabihin, "a turn off, don't you think?"

I finally snapped and pushed the door wide open, both catching their attention towards me. Kapwa sila nagulat sa paglabas ko kaya wala ni isa ang nakapagsalita. "Get the hell out of my office, Arisawa!" singhal ko kay Jirou.

Napangising parang demonyo naman ang gago na lalong nagpainit ng dugo ko. "Why so ang—"

"If you insult my secretary one more time ako na mismo ang kakalaban sa 'yo. Don't underestimate me just because I don't look intimidating!" banta ko sa kanya and I subconsciously began to emit a vicious vibe around me; warning this another Alpha in front of me to back off.

From the looks of it, Jirou had chills as he smiled wickedly, oddly satisfied by my reactions. "So you two have done it already, huh? And here I thought you wouldn't touch your precious Omega secretary. How dirty can you be, A—! Urk!" Hindi na natuloy si Jirou sa panglalait sa 'kin dahil sinunggaban na siya ni Chihiro. Pareho silang natumba sa sahig. Sinakal lang naman ni Chihiro si Jirou. "Urgh–! Kkrgh!" Tinangka ni Jirou itulak si Chihiro at kalasin ang pagkakasakal sa kanya but he had no idea how strong Chihiro was.

"Bawiin mo ang sinabi mo kay Izumi-sensei!" Dama ko ang poot sa mga mata ni Chihiro at higpit ng pagkakasakal nito sa leeg ng kaharap n'yang Alpha. Jirou was no match for him!

"Chihiro, you don't have to—" I tried to pull Chihiro away but I was cut off.

"Hindi maruming tao si Izumi-sensei! Ikaw ang marumi! Wala kang kuwenta! Ang alam mo lang ay saktan ang damdamin ng ibang tao dahil lang sa isa kang Alpha! Ano ngayon kung Alpha ka?! Kapag namatay ka walang magluluksa sa bangkay mo!" nangangalaiting sigaw ni Chihiro kay Jirou at sa bawat galit na nilalabas n'ya ay mas lalong humihigpit ang sakal n'ya sa lalaking nasa ilalim n'ya ngayon. Nagsimula nang mangitim si Jirou at unti-unti na ring humihina ang pagtangka n'yang kumawala.

I had to stop Chihiro somehow. He's dead serious about strangling Jirou to death! I panicked. I was running out of options. If I tried to pull Chihiro up, I would likely end up being pushed away myself. Nakapakalaking tao ni Chihiro. He's even larger than Jirou himself!

"You can stop now, Chihiro. He's… he's dying!" Sinubukan kong kalabitin ang balikat n'ya pero hindi man lang natinag ang sekretarya ko sa kanyang posisyon.

"Urgkk… Kffrgh…" Natigil na si Jirou sa panlalaban. Nagsimula nang tumirik ang kanyang mga mata at nagsimula nang magkapasa ang parte ng leeg nito sa sinasakal.

"Chihiro, stop it! You will be in trouble if you continue strangling him!" sita ko kay Chihiro.

"Hindi ako makakapayag na insultuhin ka ng lalaking ito, Sensei!" giit n'ya at hindi ko namalayang umiiyak na pala ito.

Fuck. Fuck this. I have no choice then! Kahit na wala akong lamang sa lakas ni Chihiro, inipon ko pa rin ang lahat ng lakas na mayroon ako at sapilitan siyang hinila paalis. I was successful and his hand got loose.

"Sensei—?!"

I cut him off by pulling the collar of his uniform and kissed him on the lips. Hindi nakapalag si Chihiro. My kiss was a bit clumsy but I was able to pull off a proper one. I did it until he started to calm down. "Are you calm now?" I asked while huffing. Fuck. I think I got a little hard from kissing him.

Namumula ang mukhang tumango naman ang dambuhala kong sekretarya. "Mm. Gomen," nagsisisi nitong paumanhin at iniyuko ang ulo n'ya upang itago ang realisasyon na ngayon lang n'ya naramdaman.

I turned my attention Jirou who was now coughing and wheezing, trying his utter best to regain the air and strength that he lost. "That's what you get for messing around with us," sabi ko sa kanya habang magkasalubong ang mga kilay ko. "Never show your face to me again, Arisawa. I'm cutting ties with you,"II declared.

Kahit nanghihina pa ay nagawa pa ni Jirou na tumawa ng pagak. "How laughable…" he said with sarcasm. "I never knew you were this twisted, Aki. You never learn. An Omega broke your heart and yet you still hook up with another Omega? Ha! I give up," aniya bago pinilit na tumayo at napasandal sa pader. "Fuck that guy all you want. I'm sick of your wailings and annoying rants, anyway. I'll get the hell out of this rotten place. I don't wanna be surrounded by retarded people like you!" Siya na nga itong nasakal at kamuntik mamatay, siya pa ang may ganang manumbat?! The nerve!

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After that, Jirou took off without saying another word. Sure, he said a lot of awful things to me at the end but part of me couldn't hate him fully. They were mean, hurtful words but I knew that he was bluffing. When I used him to lash out my emotions and forget my unrequited love for Kicchan, I could feel his warmth. He didn't say anything but he held me so tight through all those nights and made me feel loved; at least he did try.

But things were different now. In the end, we both knew that this kind of relationship was fruitless. We would just end up hurting each other. This made me realize that Jirou was indeed in love with me all along. How could I not notice? He was the only Alpha who stayed by my side when I decided to cut ties with the others. The hate he was feeling now was because I wasn't able to see through his true feelings. I did the same thing as Kicchan — only I took a person for granted.

"I'm sorry, Jirou," I whispered to myself and clenched my fists.

"Sensei, ayos ka lang ba?" nagulat ako sa biglang pagkibo ni Chihiro.

"Y-yes, of course," I reassured and forced a smile.

I didn't wanna go through all that pain again. I've had enough. And I couldn't afford to lose Chihiro because of my selfishness. He's starting to become special to me that it hurts. It hurts a lot. And I'm afraid to admit to myself that I am slowly falling for him. I couldn't imagine the outcome of my desires. He doesn't deserve someone like me. But why…?

「Why does my body yearn so much for Chihiro's touch?」

"Patawad sa ginawa ko, Sensei," paumanhin nito at hindi n'ya namalayan ang paglapit ko sa kanya. "Nadala ako ng galit ko at—Uwah!" Hindi siya natuloy sa pagsasalita dahil bigla ko siyang niyakap at natumba kaming pareho sa sahig, nakapaibabaw na ako ngayon sa kanya.

I purposely rested the gap between my buttocks against his bulge and that gave Chihiro an instant boner. What an honest guy, really. It's kind of scary. Confused by my actions, Chihiro wasn't sure what to do and looked everywhere in panic. We were outside of my office, after all. Someone might arrive any time and see us in this awkward position.

"Fuck me, Chihiro," I ordered with a hoarse voice and even let out a soft moan when I rubbed my buttocks on his angry member. It was still inside his pants but I could already feel him getting even bigger.

"Sensei…" he stated my name with a husky, restrained voice and grabbed my waist; probably to stop me from teasing his suffering manhood.

"Please…" I begged. "I promise… This will be the last…" As soon as I said that, the aura around Chihiro changed. Something inside him was riled up and I could smell his pheromones. They were leaking out like crazy. I had no idea how but he managed to carry my whole weight and pinned me hard against the wall. It was forceful, like he had no care if I was hurt or not. Was it because I teased him too much? "Chihiro…?" I called out with a feverish expression and my eyes widened when I saw a scary look in his eyes. Lust was all over him!

"Sensei. Sensei…" he uttered and abruptly pulled down his pants without putting me down. All he did was push his chest against mine to support my weight.

When I realized what he was about to do, I tried to stop him. "Chihiro, wait—Aah!" A loud gasp escaped my mouth when he shove his whole shaft without warning. "Chihiro… Ngh! Mmgh~!" I groaned and moaned when he started thrusting forcefully. It was shocking and painful because he was big and we didn't even prepare yet. But my body was eager to accept him.

"Sensei…!" he uttered before burrowing his face on my shoulder and continued pounding me hard.

"Aah… Chihiro—ngh~ Haah~" I could only respond with moans as I clung to him tightly. What the hell? I asked him to fuck me but didn't expect him to ravish me this way. It's still painful but I was loving the pain he was giving me. He didn't fully understand yet how to pleasure his partner properly but his emotions were all over me. They were strong and uncontrollable. It's making me dizzy and weak. "Chihiro… Go a little slo—Aah!" My attempt to get him to calm down a bit was a failure. He kept pushing hard inside me, filling me up to the brim.

「I'm gonna cum if he keeps going like this!」 I thought as tears formed in the corners of my eyes.

Losing my hope of talking to him, Chihiro went on and thrusted without stopping which in the end made me cum. Everything happened so fast that I didn't notice that he came inside me. Everything was a daze.

He carefully pulled out his thing after that rough and quick sex we had and carefully put me down on the floor, too. The next thing he did was turn his back on me and I think he tried to hold himself back from crying. I was too weak to even scold him for fucking me like that but it was no time to joke around.

Because when I said that this will be the last — "Chihiro, you're fired." — I meant it.

「to be continued」