Some people survive chaos and that's how they grow, and some people thrive in chaos, because chaos is all they know and they been train to live and grow by the chaos that happening around them all the time.
And if you don't understand the chaos that only happening in someone life you can't judge them only because the way they look because sometimes the look that you got from the surface is not the same what is happening inside.
And that's why I always trying to very careful to judge someone or even didn't want to just them by their appearance sometimes you could be really wrong about it because bad looks in the surface sometimes not as the same long as inside them.
So that's why no matter what happened I will always be trying to appreciate everything that you do for me and I am always trying not to makes any problem that can makes you sad because I can't see you when I am the one who makes you sad and I wouldn't stop to blame myself for it.