I only want to say after everything you've been through. You deserve people who will love you for you ... and not because it is beneficial to them that's all. So, when you want to find someone for you friends, partner or whatever.
You should find someone who can value you for what you are no matter what happened they not going to try to changes you and also you should find someone who want to be with you for you not because you are beneficial to them.
Because if you love someone you should value their feelings and also for who they are because you will never know is already happens to them in the past and also you should think that you wouldn't let them get hurt cause you know how the feeling is when you get hurt.
By value the things that comes from someone you already can makes them feel happy and joy because they know that they can trust you no matter what and their respect you the way you respect and value their existence around you.