I was going to go just like a flowing water because i know if my destiny was to be together with him, we will be together and nothing can separate us but i just can't be like that i need to be put some afford on it, because if i am not its mean i am don't care about it but the truth is i care about our relationship and i will work for it.
I love him so much and i don't want to lose him because he is everything for me and i just want everything is to be okay between us, and i know we will work this out because from my side i see that we are in same pages, and we look for something good for each other.
I want always to try to do my best to makes everything is good between us and i really loves him so deeply and i will feel empty if he was not here and i feel numb and stupid when he is not here with me and i will be like a shit if he is not there for me. And i am put i fully trust on him.