I was born in a Muslim society the conditions at home were very bad my father used to work in a govt job which it was very difficult to support the family there were those who were our relatives and my uncle seemed to be in the relationship we had two brothers and two sisters both the sisters were older and my mother was always worried about the house and what would happen to these children somehow paid off the loan and took a 120 sqr yard land there was no money to build at a govt institution used to do it but it was very difficult to take 20000 RS. On interest so that some wall etc could be built and we could live in it I had a religious family and was well trained from the boginning not to do anything wrong to bring money into the house perhaps Allah took pity on our situation and my father had a diploma in electrical work after which he went to soudi Arabia and some of the condition in our house started to improve marriages of sisters I somehow became B Com from khi university so that I could do some work in those days father job ended and he returned to Pakistan tighter we both brothers opened a bookstore on which father and I began spend more time so that the condition of the house were in order and the same time I got a job in a govt institution because due to the training I could not do anything wrong but there was bribery and bootlegging my work order was causing many officers trouble because I used to do my duty properly so from the begining of the job they kept trying to get me into some kind of trouble and made it very difficult to do my job gave during my marriage and I had 2 boys it was very difficult to live with them on salary and I was looking at the situation in the office that they settle me in something at any time my wife used ask me all the time that other people are also working why do you because I had work and I did not allow wrongdoing in front of the officers finally these people made a false case and put me in jail because I did not any money from here when my case went to the high court after asking for money and loans from peoples at home they acquitted me immediately but despite this these corrupt and corrupt officers did not allow me to go to work I have been supporting my family for four years now and then today my children ask me what you have done for us and I have no answer somehow the elder son has done engineering the injured son is getting into computers but somehow I am not able to pay his fees despite hard work in every way. I have a few questions I ask whole world to tell me just what good people should do the big people in society go bad and why those who are bad are on the way to sustainable development is education and all things in the whole world only for the children of these big bad people the poor people don't even have enough money to give their children a good education these bad people can even educate their children and hold decent jobs every one knows that all their money is misdirected but still people bow down and greet them the root of the badness of the society is not the small people the root of the badness of the society is the big people who spoil the whole society below. Today I am so ashamed in front of my house and my children for walking the right path that I have no answer to tell them what this society has done to me this is the reality of the society at this time and there is much more in the broken heart perhaps when you read these words from my heart you will know what the pain is thanks