She really liked this guy, and when he hit up on her. She knew immediately that the infatuation was reciprocal and wanted to see how far it would go. Would it turn into a forever thing? Will he accept me for every baggage I bring, good or bad?

That's one of the many things she hates about herself, putting fairy tales or happily ever afters' in her head before assessing the whole situation and its pros and cons. It was the hopeless romantic in her, her filtered scenery of love.

But he was good at having sexual appeal, the way he just looks at her. Boosted her confidence to a million percent. He just showed you he wanted you…in his bed and to act like nothing ever happened after.

Her emotional capacity was way too deep for her to have a one night stand and completely forget about what had just happened. And continue with her life, just like that. But he didn't care, it didn't bother him at all. He just wanted what he wanted. A night of pleasure for him and the rest of her life living a constant misery of misreading a situation she knew wasn't even worth entertaining. Would've given her soul to a man that wasn't worth it. He was just a bypasser, and it should have stayed that way. Instead she saw her whole life with him, a picture perfect fantasy hallucination.

Sometimes you just know, but you ignore your gut. Thinking you can try to love and be able to change that person. He will go back to his OG self, after a while he'll go back to his old ways. It's self inflicted pain, you'll doubt yourself asking what you did wrong. Here's the answer; you did nothing, the capacity of your love scared them so much. They knew they couldn't reach that unlimited quality of love that you radiated. Even if they tried to impose that change, everyone eventually gets tired of trying to impress those around them.

There comes a time where you love and appreciate those who accept you just the way you are. All of your perfections, flaws, insecurities and trumas. Everything about you will make sense to them, they will honour it, they will know it but more importantly they will encapsulate it.

Don't wait to be loved right by the wrong person, you are only becoming your worst enemy. You intentionally deprive yourself of the love worth more than a lifetime. You devalue your greater self ( We are constantly growing, you are never too old or wise to be educated ) of peace and security. You disrespect your educated self because s/he knows you deserve more than what you choose to tolerate.

Let's not rush our destiny, rather let's prepare for it. If you want a loving person, train yourself to give out love. If you want a thoughtful person, think about how your actions affect the people you love and have fruitful relationships. Prepare your emotional capacity to be able to be patient, kind, forgiving and trustworthy.

You are not hard to love. Someone who simply can't love you will make you feel that way.

We're all just a bunch of puzzles, we just have to take that unknown adventure to search for the missing one. The only loss that may come out of that quest, is rejection ( which is God's protection ) or the regret that you were too scared to go on that discovery that could've changed your life for the better.