Christian POV:-
I don't want her to be hurt, I know I hurt her the most but if she hurt herself, I won't be able to face her.
I don't want to love her, she can never remove those apprehensions of my heart and I will never let her too. I will do whatever I can, just to make sure that she doesn't love me, even if it involves hurting her.
But she hates me even if I have done nothing.
That's why I felt relieved when she hated my touch. I was happy that there are no chances that she can love me.
She felt disgust and hate for me. That intense detest can never be removed and it worked in my favor as I don't have to go through that feeling of betrayal again.
When I don't love her, why'd I marry her?
I have to get married to her but I can't give her love and moreover, I have turned this marriage into nothing but a mere display of ravish and repugnance for her.
