It's nothing more than mere coincidence or miracle. No, she doesn't believe in any more.
Sasi was just a year old when her mother went missing, only leaving her and her big brother 'siron'.
After a few years, her mother was declared to be a witch, then she was abandoned by her father too.
Before this he never gave any concern or even a mere glance to her nor her brother.
Because of her mother, they were often bullied. But that was nothing for her, when she was with her brother.
After siron, awakened the power of the golden lion bloodline, her father the Duke sent him to academy.
He promised her, when he became stronger he would take her away .
Was that empty promise?, well sasi believe him like a believer. Because she was forbidden to leave her room, she spent her 18 years there.
***
"Arck… " Emma screamed. She jumped from her bed.
As soon as she opened her eyes, her heart was beating fast as it would explode any time.
Her mind is so messy right now, she couldn't understand what was happening.
hurriedly she brushed her hands on her body.
After a few times she checked all over again, "Everything is fine?" She was relieved. But still in a hezy stage.
Then she was told by another maid that the princess was called her.
For some moments she just lost thoughts,
'Everything is fine?'
'am I dreaming?'
A cold sweat ran down her forehead, as she fixed her cloth, trembling hands made it a little hard.
but it didn't bother her at all.
After some moments of hesitation, she decided to go there.
***
"It's soo comfortable." She softly whispered.
After she pretended as according to the queen's plans, she got her last wish to live in comfort.
She jumped a few more times to feel it bounce. Before it, she was sleeping in a stone hard bed. All money was stolen by her head maid, she didn't have courage to oppose it.
"But now it is different, it's different… " she claims.
As she lay down on her comfortable bed, her body was tense up, she bit her lower lip and knitted her eyebrows together.
She clearly remembered the day when her brother returned, with victory, with power and hope of sasi.
Siron was sent to the battle against the monsters, by the academy. Because of his achievement he was recognized by his father as heir.
Sasi was wandering through her window, as a lot of fragments were dancing on her nose. She takes deep breaths to know more.
That day was the first week of spring.
As he became a hero, he didn't visit sasi for months and even her personal maid, Emma, disappeared.
After few years struggling in her own hope and desperation, she heard that sasi became the holy queen and siron was became the duke.
It was like a slap on the face, both her closest people forget about her.
But she is still waiting patiently.
After a long wait, her brother fulfilled his promise to take her out.
In her execution.
Execution of her hope…
Execution of her trust…
Execution of her love…
Execution of her innocence…
Execution of her soul…
***
Sasi bit her lips so hard that warm blood, thicker red than her hatred, is now curved in her soul, sliding down on her lips.
She suddenly heard a knock. Sasi relaxed her face, a sinister smile spreading on her face,
"HMPH! Looks like… a real rat is here."
She snapped her finger, a red smoke spread out. Small red smokes continue to grow more and suddenly all blood on her lips disappears.
It's a unique power, which has no records. In the past, sasi didn't have any power but after she travelled back, she hit the jackpot.
Thanks to this power, she was able to detoxify the poison which was the queen giving her secretly.
She was still experimenting with its uses. With this she can trap anyone in an illusion, she also heals her body but there are more.
Sasi lay down on her bed and gave permission to enter.
"Emma, where have you been? I've been waiting for you… my friend." She weakly asked her.
Emma hurriedly made an excuse,
"I… I was a little sick so… I am Sorry."
Seeing Emma hanging her head low, a clear line of smile spreads all over her face. But it's instantly turned into a sad face.
Sasi hurriedly tries to comfort her.
As she rose from bed, she screamed in pain.
Emma hurriedly supported her and helped her to comfortably lay down.
After helping Sasi, Emma politely asked for a day off.
Because of sasi illusion, Emma still couldn't relax. She feels like a sharp sword is splitting her head.
Seeing her in pain, Sasi was very satisfied.
Sasi wants to see more but for today, it's enough for her.
She gave her permission, sasi softy touch her hand,
"Emma, you are my close friend. I don't want to lose you… please be healthy."
For few moments Emma stared at sasi sincerely worried tearful eye, pale, boney face and extremely weak hand,
"Princess, don't say so… I am always with you." She softly answered.
After a few times glancing at sasi weak appearance, she left for day rest.
"What a cute act of you rat… be healthy otherwise who can entaintent me? Huh?" She laughed out loud.
***
After testing her unique power, Sasi fell into deep thoughts. As she was trying to trap Emma into her illusion, she also entered in her memories.
Sasi wanted to know some secrets of the past.
Before Sasi always thought Emma was a good person so she approached her. But now it seems wrong.
Sasi was of noble blood but abandoned, nor did she have power nor any wealth or health.
So why is she being so nice and well mannered?
What does she get?
Who sent her?
Who wants to harm me?
All the questions she's been asking herself.
First she thought maybe the queen but the queen was already poisoning her. Then who?
With all the questions she looked at her memories, there was nothing.
All the things she knew about her were right, accept one thing,
"A sealed memory… it's the highest level magic… " she mumbled.
As she knitted her silver Arch eyebrows together, she became more dispirited.
After wetting her thirsty throat, she organised her thoughts.
When she was about to be executed, she saw a very familiar face in the crowd.
A young woman who just married a few days ago, sitting on the royal throne.
It was in a highest place so sasi have to look up.
Unlike sasi who was wearing a plain and dirty dress, she was so dazzling in those diamond, gold dresses.
Sasi can sense her happiness, she saw them laughing, whispering and giggling as clear as her own heartbroken, desperate, betrayed sad expression.
Sasi wants to drag her down,
Yelled at her,
Aak her, why didn't she plead for her, why didn't she glance at her? Why is she so happy? Today was her execution day. She desired for someone to be sad for her.
But no one was there.
Her loving brother, her best friend, king and all people, staring at her with disgust.
Wherever she turned her red eyes, she received only disgust, hatred.
As she last time looked at siron and Emma, her soul left her body.
It's a miracle or anything,
She got a new life,
A new beginning,
A new chance.
Sasi pressing her hands on her heart, she promised herself,
"I not going to be my past self,
Whoever or whatever I will find this mastermind,
I will ruined your plans,
I will destroyed your mind,
I will destroyed your soul,
Just wait, you cute dirty worm.
***
"Was that all dreams? or… " she mumbled.
Emma was very smart from a young age.
She was an orphan and bright girl.
She is often bullied by other kids but it's made her stronger. Because of her intelligence, she was selected as princess sasi personal maid.
First she didn't want to approach her, but she didn't know when she would be useful.
And her brother was strong and talented in swordship.
Emma was smart and knows how to approach a weak, dull and stupid girl like her.
Sometimes Emma feels envious towards her. Even sasi was abandoned, she doesn't have to do any hard work, she can eat well, wear well doing nothing. Compared to her Emma was struggling since young, she didn't get anything without fight,
She was desperate.
"Everything was going accordingly as I planned but why… " she whispered.
She narrowed her black eyes, she bit her soft pink lips, she didn't feel quite right.
But as she saw the weak, desperate look on the princess, she was relieved, she was just having nightmares.
She changed her maid dress into her pyjamas, and lay down for rest.
Suddenly she got up and desperately rushed towards her drawer.
She was searching for an important locket.
After a few seconds she found it. It was where her mother last belonged,
"... I have to do as my mother said. I must stick with her… I am really sorry princess
And thank you idiot. "
***