Chapter 4
And there are many promises to keep until now. Though she has made though he has. For her promises have a huge worth. A promise to forever give their selves to each other and to be one, a strong sense of support for each other. She is keeping her promises and for she will try each and every possible way to keep her promises to protect their relationship. Though she had promises back than but both ended them in peace. They realized that their circumstances wouldn't let them live together. It took time for her to cure from that inner wound but by the time she accepted the reality and moved on intimating herself not to fell in love again. But feelings are uncontrollable. She met him. His care and respect could not let her control her feelings that she forgets what had happened before. But now by the time it seems like the feelings are now not that much from his side.
Every night in the fear of separating she cries and cries. Thinking all the time maybe somewhere she was at mistake. And every night thinking that she ignores all his faults beginning every day with a new hope that maybe this time things get better. But what was hurting her more was his promises forever. Every night he could only come to say him goodbye with no more no less talks and a point came when I could not tolerate his this attitude and starts to frustrate on him that he must give her the only her time even if it is just for 10 to 15 minutes and by the time he read my messages he promise everyday not to do this again but what was the bad part everyday he breaks his promises which he is doing since a lot many days. She feels now that maybe he takes no interest in talking to her. Maybe he don't want to coz she used to take out her all frustration on him. But what she was doing was for just she needed his love and a little time which every relationship wants. So she decided to compromise even more maybe things would get better. But this attitude was ever increasing. She was not getting that love. She now regrets that why she fell for. In return of giving her everything she at not deserving at present the love she wants. She has done everything for him even the ones she don't like herself but for the sake of her love she provided her best support and time.
He could not understand how much she is possessive for him. She could not bear the thought of even seeing her with anyone else. Her soul is only His. She is day dreaming every time to encounter happier moments in life but suddenly a scary thought enters her mind that what would be her life if his love is gone. If he starts running away from her. Which he is doing how she will be able to tolerate this situation. Her irritation anxiety and fear has now made her disturbed. Or maybe she is waiting for the time when he would realize that he is at mistake . but she is also blaming herself that maybe her frustration and anger are making them apart.
Love has no boundaries no limits no restrictions. She is enduring the thorns that her love is giving. But is this good for her. A relationship that beholds love requires intimation from both sides. She could not throw back herself to her previous conditions that's why she is trying to resolve every day . she needs his support. His love forever. Hoping one day to live happily ever after till than relying on expectations.
What has come her way she never predict for. Everyone wants to live a happy life. Though she also wants to live with him. He maybe don't know how to take everything in a balance way. That's why she is only giving her time where maybe he will better understand what a relationship wants. And to let her heart in peace every day she cherishes the moments she is with him. The people around may consider her a psychopath or a one insane for his love but no one could understand ones feelings. For the time being the present is miserable . though sometimes she wants to get rid of this situation but what has come this far is her fate. Even if now misfortune has knocked her door but she wants to turn this into her best fortune. Coz she has promises to keep forever. This time so deeply, till he himself would reject his love in front of her, she will hold his hands so tightly every time letting him realize his mistake. Till than even if the world says her to let the things go and live her own life she decided never to say Good Bye.
It was night she was thinking all this and crying and than praying to GOD that one day all will be fine. (the tears fall from her eyes on her pillow while she closed her eyes and went on a deep sleep).
Life will teach u a lesson though once or twice. U will regret to accept the reality but in the end u have to. GOD is only making u stronger in this process to self own yourself. What you ought today to give yourself to someone may be not right. You are relying on hopes and you are passionate to reach your destiny. And in this very process you rely on GOD that the Creator of this universe has best planned for u. and slowly you will accept the reality that its just useless to put so much effort for things that aren't meant for u. and what is meant for u will surely come your way and that is the Best plan of GOD. You will cure yourself from the pain. Though u always tried to settle down everything finding happiness with your loved ones. A light of hope was there and one day that light of hope will turn into your beautiful destination maybe it would not be the one you want but you will feel more proud to be there. An inner satisfaction that you have done your part with full devotion. What you are going through consider is as your opportunity of learning a lot from life . your hopes shall never die but this journey will make u realize your worth and what you deserved is far better than what you are running before. All you need is to have strong faith in faith. And surely your enduring will make you more closer to GOD. Your prayers are not rejected and HE is making you wait so to bestow you on the right time.
And where shall the thought of her being together happily one day will take her to!!!
The End!!