She mustn't mistake my behaviour as a favour at any cost ! Rick is right, I should be clear about my intesions everytime. Shall I talk to her now ? Oh, there she is, a hint I must take !
" Hey, Katharine ! "
I called for her.
" Huh ? Oh, Daniel. What's up ? "
Katharine stopped in her way after listening my call.
Fuck ! I've been with her since childhood. I am spending time with her alone for months now; how could I not notice how fucking beautiful she is !
She is smiling at me with her dimples on display and red lips twitching. Her dark brown eyes sparkling as she smiles. Her loose blond curls covering her beautiful face as the wind is blowing high.
" Fuck ! This wind is ruining my hair ! Ha ha. God my hair is messy... "
She is giggling as she is unable to control her hair against the strong wind.
" You look more beautiful when you are messy like this. "
I complimented her.
" What ? Are you serious ? My hair is all ruined and my face... "
She tried to say that she isn't looking beautiful. But I won't let her say that, because she is beautiful this way !
" You are a real beauty Katharine, without any stupid beauty products. You don't need any of them to make you look beautiful ! "
I said what I thought for her.
" What's gotten into you today, Beta ? Why are you praising me, all of a sudden ? Are you alright ? What happened ? "
Katharine said teasing me.
" I am not pulling your leg, Katharine. I thought we are friends so, I felt I should tell you the truth. I am sorry if you feel offended or anything. "
I said feeling guilty for making her feel offended.
" You don't need to apologise like this, Dani. I am just surprised. Nobody ever complimented me like this. I mean, I receive compliments every now and then but, they all are about how sexy my body looks. How sexy my lips are. How slutty I am !
But... Nobody ever said that, I am beautiful. Nobody said that I don't need the stupid beauty products to make me look beautiful. And that's why you took me with surprise.
Thank you. Really thank you for not looking at me like some whore and just praising me to impress me so that, you'll have me in your bed. Thank you for making me feel I am beautiful and a person who isn't mere a fuck toy and have feelings as well.
Nobody... Ever made me feel good for being the eye catcher. Whenever I went to the human habitat, I always had my face covered or applied horrible makeup to cover this face so that, nobody should chase me.
Though, I am strong wolf. I have claws. I have deadly teeths able to rip any throat or head or heart off, but I too want to live life like a normal girl. So, instead of killing the bastards and feel horrible for being beautiful and going without cover, it's better to be ugly and go unnoticed ! "
Katharine said with a supreme pain in her voice. I can only imagine what she would have faced. How bad it is to be treated as a whore in her home and being chased by humans for having her body ! Where should she feel safe and at home ?
Her eyes are wet. My god, is she crying ? My heart aches for her. I want to reach out and wipe them off her beautiful face, but I shouldn't do it.
She is talking about every male wanting only her body and me doing it, would make her feel I am doing the same ! But, I can't just stand here like statue and let her cry. I can't help but reach my hand...
" Kath... Are you... Please don't... I am sorry, I don't know what to say. "
I am very bad at comforting someone.
" I am sorry. I didn't meant to trouble you. Sorry just... "
She wiped her tears and sniffed. She is not even looking me in the eye. Shall I... I reached my hand and hesitated at her shoulder and pulled my hand back.
I again reached and I placed my shaking hand on her shoulder. She looked at me and she couldn't control her tears from leaving her eyes and wrapped herself around me.
This is the first time any girl touched me and that too directly hugged me ! This is very unexpected. And I don't know what to do ? I should put my hand over her shoulders or she'll feel awkward.
As I placed my hand around her, she tighten her hug around me and started crying.
" Calm down Kath. Please don't cry. "
I am feeling very bad watching her cry and not being able to console her.
" I am so stupid... I am a grown up and I... I am crying like a child... "
Katharine said still crying.
" No ! You are not stupid. You've been very strong all by yourself till now. It's ok to be weak sometimes. Just let it go and cry it out. I am not judging you. Who am I to judge you ? You are very strong Kath.
If someone else was at your place, they would have gave up a long ago. But you ? You are a true fighter, Kath. I am so proud of you.
And I am so sorry. Please forgive me. Along with the rest of the pack, I've been nothing but an ass towards you. I know you since we were kids. I knew, your parents threw you in the forest because they discovered you were different.
Everyone in the pack was born here just you and Alpha were adopted by Alpha Stanley. I became friends with him but let you alone. I am so sorry. "
I apologized for being mean with her this long.
" Why are you apologising ? You didn't do anything out of the box, you did what everyone else did ! "
Katharine said trying to make me feel better, but little did she know, it made me feel more horrible.
" That's exactly why I am apologising ! I shouldn't have done that. I can't change the past but, I can definitely change the present and future ! I swear Kath, I will always be by your side.
I won't ever leave you alone. I won't be an ass to you anymore. I will always be your friend ! And I swear, I am not saying any of this just because I want you in my... Um... "
I hesitated at the horrible and insulting word frame to use.
" Bed ! I get it. "
She completed what I wanted to say.
" I know you don't have any of that intension for me. I am an adult now Dani, I can guess the intesions of a person; specifically male, by just looking at him ! I've faced max of the dirty intesions, so I know you don't have any of that. "
Katharine she continued and took me out of the bastard's line who wanted just her body. I feel relieved at this.
" Neither do our alpha ! "
I must tell her she should give up on Rick. By trying to get his attention, she will get her heart broken and nothing else. The early she'll get that, the better it would be for her.
" He ? He is holding some unknown rage against me ! "
Katharine said rolling her eyes. She have misconceptions about him.
" No, Kath ! He isn't holding any rage against you. Infact, he is the one who feels very bad and mad that you live all alone in a pack of 200 wolves ! He doesn't like everyone having only two emotions for you. He too want to be your friend and never let you alone. "
I tried to make her understand what he actually feels for her !
" Liar ! "
Katharine said.
" No, I am not lying... "
I tried to say something but she interrupted me.
" If he have this much feelings for me, why didn't he told me himself ? Why did he needed a lawyer to speak on behalf of him ? Can't he speak for himself, huh ? "
Katharine said accusing him.
" Look Kath, I don't want to hurt your feelings, but you too know why does he avoids taking to you. He just... "
She must get that she is annoying him and nothing else.
" Why ? Am I gonna hurt him somehow ? Or am I gonna... "
Katharine tried to prove herself innocent.
" Kath ! You need to accept that, even though she got married to someone else, she is his impression ! He can't accept anyone else at her place. Doesn't matter how much time passes. "
I threw the words without mercy at her face.
" But she said... "
Katharine tried to use Jenifer's words as her shield.
" She said, she would have married him if he was a man; which he is ! She even said she loves him. He isn't holding any rage against you, he just doesn't wants to hurt your feelings again and again. You need to understand that, if you want him to talk to you, you must let him go ! "
I told her clearly.
" But I love him, what about that ? It does matters ? "
Katharine said.
" Kath, you only like him or more accurately, you are attracted towards him and nothing else ! He already have imprinted, no one can love the wolf who have already imprinted on someone.
Imprinting is a two way thing and you know that !
We are wolves not human that, we'll like someone, love someone else and marry someone else ! We imprint on one and spend the rest of our life with them only !
I don't need to explain the imprinting to you now ! He have closed his every last option of anyone else being his mate ! He have selected her already; you haven't ! Move on Kath, find your impression. Live happily ever after with him. Waiting for him won't earn you anything ! "
I tried very hard to make her understand her actions won't earn her anything but the Alpha's real rage this time.
" How do I find someone else when, I am stuck at one already ? Why haven't you imprinted on someone yet then ? "
Katharine asked me.
" It doesn't work that way Katherine ! You don't go find someone and ask them to imprint on you or you imprint on them. It just happens. You look at them and you know you can't live without them.
You just become possessive about them.
You can't stand anyone or anything hurting them. You get restless when they are out of your sight. You are ready to kill for them and die for them without thinking about it for a second. And many such things.
You don't feel any of these for alpha do you ? No, right ? You just want to be with him. Nothing exceptional. Every female in our pack feels the same way ! It's natural.
He is the most strong and fierce male now and everyone is scared of him. And each and every female, doesn't matter of wolf or human or any other animal, they want the best male as father for their young ones.
None wants the weak and coward one as their mate. So, you feeling this for Alpha is completely natural but, he isn't your mate ! You'll know when you'll come across your mate and he'll know when you'll imprint on him, it works that way ! "
I explained her the way imprinting works.
" You... Have you... Imprinted on someone Dani ? "
Katharine asked me confused.
" No. Not yet. "
I told her the truth.
" Then how do you know this much in details ? Like this much ? "
Katharine asked shocked.
" Our Alpha is 'Rick' for me, Kath. He is my best friend. He tells me everything about everything. And I have known many of the mates. "
Who is she kidding ? Almost half of our pack have imprinted and won't they brag about how they feel for their mate ?
She stared blankly beside me and after a few moments, grabbed my hand and dragged me along with her.
" Ok. Come with me. I am gonna talk to him. He'll need you. "
She have more strength than I thought.
" Wha... Hey... Listen... "
She didn't listened to me and kept me dragging along with her.