After that incident things didn't go well for me as i was having the feeling of guilt within me which made me have sucidal thought. I cried alot for a week and i really wanted to say sorry to him. I wanted him to know that i didn't tell anyone about his relation but deep down i knew it was my fault as i was the one who started this big mess. If i had not confessed about my feelings this would never have happened and things would have been normal like always. Months passed and i started living my normal life but still Peter thought used to hunt me once in a while.
Our winter break started and like every year i wanted to spend my winter in my bed and for the obvious reason " cause it was cold outside". I woke up around 8 am and it was snowing outside and i could see kids playing snow ball fight. Seeing them really pissed me of as i wanted to have a sound sleep and those kids were not letting me have it. I covered my ear with a pillow and tried to close my eye and BANG!! I heard a loud noise in my window. I got mad and opened my window then i shouted the F word to them. But for my surprise they were playing with there parents. It got quite and they were staring at me then I yelled again " can't you see im sleeping you dumb F "( F word). Ya i yelled it out loud but i didn't really care as i knew i was a jerk and they knew it too.
And you don't have to tell me i know i changed, to be honest i changed alot. After the Peter's incident i didn't go to the school for a week and in that whole week i was just crying. And when i got to the school i had hoped no one would talk about peter but that was not the case it was totally opposite and way worse to be frank. At first i didn't notice much but when i was passing through the hallway i saw Peter's locker where only thing i could see was GAY and even in the class room i could see some desks with vulgar carving of drawing with Peter's name on it. But here comes the bad part, people had figured out that Peter was talking to me that day and they kept asking me the question about him and even my close friends were one of them. I got furious and screamed at them all but soon after they started call me freak. People only needed someone to bully and that happened to be me after that incident.