I closed them! I CLOSED MY EYES!
After using every ounce of strength and willpower, after screaming my lungs out, even after breaking my entire body in the process, I still closed my eyes. I am a failure! How could I let this happen, how could I be so weak, so worthless, useless, pathetic, WEAK. That is what I thought to myself, what I believed and realized all those years ago!
For the second time, I have entered that place, that goddamn never ending hell.
USELESS! WORTHLESS!! PATHETIC!!! WEAK!!!!
That is what I thought to myself while screaming as hard as I physically could.
At the mere sight of that fucking place.
Rexy:
SIGH
"FUUUUUUUUUUCK, I can't believe it, I am back, I really came back to this hell. I merely closed my eyes, and I am back in this shit hole.
Goddamnit!
Motherfucking PINK fucking room! Motherfucking purple gas! Oh, I am going to find who sleeps in that fucking room and kill them! YOU HEAR ME? YOU FUCKING WHORE!"
[Anesthesia gas…right before it appeared from that circle, I heard a robotic voice saying that.]
"Fucking sleeping gas, they failed to contain me using cuffs and chains so they move on to anesthesia, BASTERDS!
SIGH
[If I take those words at face value, after consuming the anesthesia gas, I fell asleep, which means that this is simply a dream!]
[…]
[....]
[...…..]
"Well, I wish it was that easy….I mean if this were just a dream, I would have succeeded in killing myself…"
It is a widely known fact, that dreams do not have any specific meaning nor the universe's way of showing the future but merely a defense mechanism, that the brain uses as it loses its consciousness due to falling asleep. the brain creates fabricated events from its memory and shows them to itself, in order to not suffer any psychological damage, those psychological scurs are formed due to the brain's never-ending desire to commend and rule over the body. when it falls asleep, the brain cannot command over the body, so in order to keep its pride, it creates dreams, a false reality where it can pretend to be in control, where it pretends that it still has rule over the body. In other words, the brain creates a new reality in order to not lose touch with the real reality and its place within it, nothing more and nothing else. But because it still uses its own memory and experience to create its dreams it cannot create nor react to events that didn't happen to it nor events that it doesn't know about, for example experiencing death within a dream. The consequences of dying are unknown to the brain, the only thing it knows is that the act of dying would be the end of it, that is why the shock from so-called dying is so great, and that shock forces the brain to end the dream and wake up, well that's the case if the dream allows you to die, ka-ka-ka!
Rexy:
"Drowning, suffocating, biting my tongue, breaking my neck, smashing my head endlessly, jumping down from a mountain, I have failed every single time…..NO…..this place won't let me die!"
[I can still be hurt, I can still feel pain, I can break my bones, tear my muscles, blind myself effortlessly, but this world won't let me die.]
"And even dying due to bloodloss or an endless amount of traumas won't do the trick because I fucking heal here almost instantly"
[Instantly…this is wrong, the human body cannot do this, it cannot recover that fast.]
"This is madness, something is messed up with this place...or with me. But dreams do not work that way, they simulate reality or for the very least make an effort to make any form of sense, but this….dream is a way off the mark, first of all, no matter how long time passes, this dream just won't end, it would be the case if I was in comma, but I was perfectly fine the PINK room, so you can scratch that possibility off."
[I should start right this down…]
{In that endless world of nightmares, that was specifically designed to torment me I knew that there wouldn't be something convenient like a RED pen and paper appearing from nowhere, so I started to consider options, I knew that the truth about this world would reveal itself once I wrote down everything I have found out, so the only real problem is to find a way to write them down, I first thought I could just use my blood as ink, but regardless how morbid it could get, I remembered that within this world I heal almost instantly, so I went on searching for a different option. I thought to myself if this world won't let me use myself, then I will use the world, I began to run to the nearest mountain as fast as I could and used every ounce of my strength to punch it down, not to my surprise not even a pebble came out from the impact, but I wasn't going to give up so easily, so I punched it again, and again, and again, with all my might, It didn't matter that I broke my arms each time I strike, they healed with less then a second, again, and again, and again, I think it took over 10 million punches to get a single rock from that RED mountain.}
{Don't you think that it is quite odd that you could heal instantly but could only get a single rock after 1,000,000 punches?!}
{If that world was really designed as a torture chamber, that would make sense, to make sure that my pain would be as long as possible, anyways after that, I went to find a place to right on, luckily I found a small RED mountain with a flat top and I began to write down everything.}
One:
It doesn't matter how much time has passed, or how much I try to, I can't remember, I can't remember anything, my name, my face, how am I. Am I a boy? Am I a girl? How old I am? Where I am from? How did I come to that PINK -colored room, why I am there? All I can remember is what my mother taught me, how I feel toward her, all the stories that she told me, and all her desires. my memories are strictly about her, my knowledge and my understanding of existence are all from her, that's all I can remember, and it doesn't change nigher I am within that room, or this world. I don't remember anything about my life before closing my eyes and entering this world, so I shall call that mere moment, my starting point, my beginning!
Two:
Regardless of what happened to me before my starting point, including who what, and where I was, up to this moment, have existed within two different realities, the first is the true reality, where that abomination of a room exists, while I want to believe that no real person would live inside that room, the fact is that I could be hurt within that room proves that between that room and this world, The PINK -Colored Cat themed Room is part of the true world, I could be hurt within that room, a room filled with so many things how could it be fake? which I cannot say about this RED world, this reality is the false one. Within this world, all logic is thrown away, everything is wrong, everything is a fake, this world is a mockery of the truth, a world where you cannot die, a world with the same 4 things in an endless loop, a world that contains only one color. Within this reality everything is meaningless, time does not exist, and there is no reason for it to exist. This world's purpose is to make me suffer, to make me fear myself, in any way possible, I mean why else would the ocean smell like blood, taste like sugar, and yet not show any reflection? Every action I commit, every path I choose within this world, is meaningless, I can't complete anything, everything I do is meaningless like I didn't even try to do it. This reality is a false one, A CRUEL JOKE, BUT it is still a reality, a world that I am currently within, no matter how wrong and awful it may be it still exists.
THEN I SHALL GIVE IT A NAME!
If this world's purpose is to terrify me, to make me feel afraid of the endless unknown, then I shall destroy the unknown and give it a name. And there is only one possible option…I SHALL CALL THIS REALITY; THE WORLD OF RED, MY PERSONAL HELL!!!
Three:
How did I arrive in The World Of Red?
While the answer is pretty obvious, all I need to do is to lose my consciousness within the true world, or in other words, CLOSING MY EYES. What it truly means is what fascinates me, why do I arrive in The World Of Red, when I close my eyes, is this world a dream? A nightmare? NO…In the end, when you die in a dream you wake up, and here even if I can't die, a dream would allow me to die, but! The World Of RED won't let me. This isn't hell also, while this reality's only purpose is to torture me, just like hell, I need to, first of all, die in order to be in hell, and I haven't died yet….as along I exits within 2 separate realities, where I can travel between them, it means I haven't died yet, I mean how could a person die than live then die again, It can't be that the PINK room is also part of The World of Red, the only thing that exists within The World Of Red, are RED things. The World Of RED is not a dream nor the afterlife, so what is it, the possible option that I can think of, that it must be part of myself!
WHY???? BECAUSE I CAN CREATE RED LIGHTNING BOLTS.
Four or to be precise part two of point number three:
It doesn't matter if it doesn't make any sense, nor if my mother never told me, I cannot look away from the truth, something is wrong with me, something happened to me, to my body. I am no longer a regular human because no regular human can do what I did within that PINK room. Why can I create RED lightning bolts?! How is it possible, what kind of supernatural situation I got myself into, that granted me the ability to create RED lightning bolts? And why for the love of God can't I remember it!!! Imaginary Energy…that's what the machine said, An imbalanced overflow of Imaginary Energy, is it the source of this power, Imaginary Energy??? What is it??? I never heard of it….imaginary….RED lighting bolts and a never-ending nightmare of a world…there must be a connection, the truth will reveal itself once I understand what Imaginary Energy is! That's why I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE!
After realizing that he is not getting any closer to the truth, he layED down on the RED ocean and began to count prime numbers while looking at the RED sky and RED sun, just as his mother taught him. Still, as he reached bigger and bigger prime numbers, Rexy began to admire the RED sky and especially the RED sun, he could not pin down the reason why he was so fascinated by it, and he didn't care he wanted to look at the RED sun, it might be serval hours or even days since he started to look at the RED sun, but he could not care less, nor he paid attention to the never-ending pain that he felt by looking directly at the RED sun, like a black hole, it sucked him into endlessly looking at it, he could spend an eternity admiring the RED sun if not for his sudden recalling of his mother deepest wish.
Rexy:
"How could I not think about her, I should spend every millisecond searching for her! Who cares about the truth, about this so-called Imaginary Energy, WHERE IS MY MOTHER!!!!!!"
"I need to find her, I MUST FIND MOM!"
[And to do so, I need to get out of here, get out of here NOW! But how can I LEAVE this hell!]
BUT HOW???
[...]
"Something has been bugging me…."
"This isn't the first time I have been here….IT'S THE SECOND! This means I have already found a way, of getting out from The World Of Red! BUT HOW?????
[You can do it, you can find the truth! Think! Think!, There must be something that I am missing, a piece of memory that would solve everything!]
"Everything here is red, and everything there is PINK, to get into The World Of RED I need to close my eyes, I need to experience nothingness, darkness, the color black, and the reason why I am here again is due to that fucking purple gas!
[Red! PINK! Black! And Perple, what am I missing?]
At that moment a single thought ran through Rexy's mind
Rexy:
"The…Wind…breaker…"
"Why! You could choose anything to torment me, and you chose it…this is no longer funny, WHY?????? WHY???? Why the wind-breaker, why did you choose something so crule….
[…]
[….]
[....]
[Ka….Ka….Ka….]
"So be it, I don't care anymore…If this is how you want to play father so be it, I won't let you enjoy this, KA! KA! KA!"
[Finally, I am going home, I am going to see Mom, I am so happy I could die, KA! KA! KA! All that is left to do is to find it, that's all, ALL RIGHT I AM FIRED UP, LETS REACH THIS FLAWLESS VICTORY!!!]
"I AM COMING MO-"
AS OUR PROTAGONIST, REXY, TURNED AWAY, HE SAW SOMETHING THAT HE WOULD NEVER THOUGHT HE WOULD EVER SEE, A SIGHT THAT NO HUMAN, THAT EVER WAS BORN BEFORE HIM NOR WILL, WOULD EVER SEE, SOMETHING THAT COULD NOT BE POSSIBLE, SOMETHING UNNETRUAL…BEYOND REASON….
Rexy:
"Wha....Wha....Wha....."
"Thi....Thi..."
"It can't be...There is no way....."
"Is this a joke? No...Is...That...."
[.]
[..]
[...]
[.....]
[...]
[....]
{I wanted to puke, but I could not! I wanted to scream, but I could not! I wanted to cry, but I could not! To look the other way, to run as fast as possible from here, to remove that sight from my brain, do to anything that could make me forget what I just saw.}
{But....}
You Could Not To!
{I could not avert my eyes! I could not stop looking!! Even to open my eyes I wasn't able to!!!!! I was not able to do anything else, this world didn't allow me to look the other way.....}
And I Will Never Let You!!
{All I was able to do was to look at it.}
Nothing More And Nothing Else!!!
Rexy:
[IT DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE!!!! THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE!!!!!!!!]
Why Not?.
Rexy:
[THIS…THIS…THIS MUST BE A DREAM!]
Wrong Answer...
Rexy:
[THERE ARE NO OTHER EXPLANATIONS!!]
There Is...
Rexy:
[THIS CAN'T BE RIGHT!!! OHHHHH PLEASE LET ME WAKE UP!!!!.]
I WON'T!
Rexy:
[This body.....]
You Already Have Been Here...Weren't You #℅€1¢0∆! You Already Have Escaped This World!!!
tskask
Rexy:
[But I am here, not there! I am me!! Myself!!!]
Wrong Answer...
Rexy:
[So why! Why! Whyyyy!! WHYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!.]
Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It! Say It!
Rexy:
"WHYYYY AMMMM I SEEINGGG MYYYY OWNNNN CORPSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Oh Oh, Game Over #℅€1¢0∆! You Should Not Have Said It!!
Rexy:
"Ahhh?! No.....No! no! no! No! No! No!NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! N-UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE"
Hard laughter
Rexy:
"My hEaD!!!! My hAnDs!!!!!!! My bOdYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!! It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs"iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS It hUrTs iT HuRtS! It hUrTs SOOOOOOO mUcHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PlEaSe mAkE It sToPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I bEg yOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
No....
Rexy:
"UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"
louder laughter
Rexy:
"MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!! MAKE IT STOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP"
Extremely louder laughter
Rexy:
"AGUAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"
"My bOdY.....iS MoLtEn...My.....bOnEs....aRe bRoKeN...aLl mY.....gUtS....SpIlLeD OuT.....I CaN....SeE My....oWn bRaIn...dRiPpInG ThRoUgH....My hEaD...My eYeS...My tEeTh...tHeY HaVe....bEeN LiQuEfIeD....i...Am...BeCoMiNg...OnE.....wItH.....mY.....oWn....cOrPs....tHiS...PaIn.....It...yEt....tO....LeAvE...mE.....AnD....iT...iS.....OnLy...gEtTiNg....sTrOnGeR....I...HaVe.....nO.....MoUtH....bUt.....i...CaN...sPeAk…i.....hAvE....No...eYeS....bUt.....i.....cAn.....sEe....i....hAvE...No...bRaIn...BuT...i....cAn...ThInK....I...cAn...PuKe...I....CaN...cRy...mY.....LeGs....ArE.....A...mEsH.....Of....FlAsH....bOnE.....AnD....bLoOd....BuT...I.....Am...SuRe.....tHaT.....I.....CoUlD....rUn....BuT...i...CaN'T...dIe...I....CaN'T...dIe....aFtEr....aLl.....oF....tHiS.....ThIs....WoRlD.....WoN'T....LeT...mE....dIe...i...NeEd...ThAt...GuN...i....nEeD....It.....NoW! BuT...i.....cAn't..It.....bEcAmE...oNe....wItH....My....bOdY! I....CaN'T.....ReAcH...tO.....It...AnYmOrE....."
T𝗵𝘂𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿𝗯𝗼𝗹𝘁
Rexy:
If.....tHeRe...Is.....a...GoD....PlEaSe.....kIlL...mE....."