I felt my body shift as he gently placed me on my bed. I whimpered as his heat left my side.
'May I stay with you Alexis? I would like to make sure you are alright after all of that. I promise not to try anything. I would just like to be here with you. Everything will be at your pace from now on.'
My heart swelled at his concern for me. He had seen my worst side, and had not run away. I didn't know how tings would work with his pack or the luna business but tonight, I wanted to sleep beside him. So I nodded.
'I am just going to talk to your parents quickly. I will be back. Can I get you anything?' His voice was soft as he covered me with the blankets and tucked them around me.
'Just don't take too long' my voice was barely a whisper but I knew he heard me. With a delicate kiss to my forehead he left the room.
I could hear Leigh and my parents speaking in hushed voices though I could not understand what they were saying.
I must have dozed off. The next thing I knew I was being startled awake by movement on the bed.
'It's alright. It's okay its just me' leighs voice soothed my nerves as he sat on the edge of the bed.
'Your mother sent up a bowl of soup. She said it helps.'
I attempted to sit up with a wince at my sore muscles.
'You stay there, ill feed it too you'
For a moment I let the thought sink in. This was my mate. This sweet, strong, sexy Alpha is my mate.
A small smile played at my lips as he fed me the first spoonful.
'Is something funny?' He asked with a smirk of his own
'Big tough alpha is feeding me soup in my bed' I couldn't help but giggle hearing it said out loud.
'There's plenty of things this big tough alpha could do for you my silver moon. But they can wait until later'
My body was singing at his words. I couldn't help the trail of thoughts my mind took. His toned, muscular body standing naked in my living room. That same sexy body hovering over me as his lips torture my neck causing moans to escape me.
My face must be bright red. His eyes had gone dark and glinting, his breathing ragged like he could hear my thoughts.
'I can sense your emotions Silver Moon. I can smell your arousal. If you don't stop what ever it is you have going on in that beautiful head of yours, im afraid my control might slip.'
My breath hitched. My body now tingling in anticipation. Aurora panting in my head.
'Maybe it could slip a little' my voice sounded so small and unsure. I had no idea what to expect. I had never been intimate with a man. Partly due to uninterest, partly due to fear. My shifts and abilities could still be a little unpredictable if my emotions were heightened.
But looking at this man in front of me. My mate. I wanted to try.
'I wont do anything unless I know you are sure' I could tell his control was hanging by a thread. His hands were shaking slightly and his breathing was very controlled. Like he was telling himself to do it.
'I'm nervous and not sure what exactly I want but I want something. I want...'
'What is it you want?'
'I want to feel you touch me. I want you to.. kiss me..'
He leant in to kiss my lips. I stippled him with my palm on his chest.
'Here..' I ran my finger down the side of my neck showing him where I meant.
He sat the bowl on the bedside and gently laid me back down. I turned my head to the side, trying to calm my own breathing.
He looked me in the eyes as he lowered his body to lay against my side. He stared a moment, like he was waiting for permission. I simply nodded once.
I closed my eyes waiting for the feeling to come. Not knowing what to expect.
I gasped as I felt his warm lips connect with my skin just below my jaw line. It felt like lightning bolts shooting across my skin. His lips were soft but firm as he made his way down my neck to the curve where it met my shoulder. And a shiver shot down my spine. My whole body was on fire. My breathing coming out in pants.
I couldn't stop the small moan escaping my lips. A ping of embarrassment hitting me. But it only seemed to excite him more as his lips sped up and spread kisses further along my neck and shoulder.
My body was out of control, wriggling around like it was trying to find him. I couldn't get close enough. I pressed my body against his. I stated and jumped away when I felt something digging into my thigh. I sat up looking at his flushed face.
'I'm sorry. I don't know....' I was out of breath and embarrassed as my eyes trailed down his clothed body and realised what I felt on my leg. His jeans had become tight. The shape of him clearly visible. I hadnt seen a mans.. member.. before. Honestly I hadnt even got that far when he was naked in my living room. But I was sure his was not considered as small.
I knew what people did. I was inexperience, not a prude. But I couldn't imagine that fitting in my hand, let alone.. other places..
'I'm sorry. I pushed too far' he dropped his gaze
'NO!' We both jumped as the word came out more forceful than I meant it. He looked back up at my face.
'I just mean, you didn't. I... I liked.. what you were doing. I just.. i.. I havent..' my voices trailed out.
'Havent what?'
'I havent done.. that.. before'
I knew mates weren't supposed to judge eachother. I knew I shouldn't be embarrassed about still being "pure". But I was. A man that looks like that, especially a young alpha, he had probably been with many women. I had no experience to give him. Would be be bored with me?
His eyes shot open wide. Oh god.. he was disappointed.
'Neither have i' this time I was the shocked one
'What?'
'I havent done that either. I havent done much actually. I'd like too, but as I said. You set the pace'
'Buy you're the alpha. And you look like that' he chuckled
'Yes I look like this, I have had.. opportunities. But I didn't take them. I always felt that nothing was worth it because something better, some one better was out there waiting for me too.' The way he emphasised someone sent a shiver down my spine.
I suddenly felt bold.
'Can I see you?'
'See me?'
'Can I.. take your clothes off?' I tried to push away my shyness. This man was confident and I wanted to be confident for him too.
'If that is what you would like' his eyes showed excitement and something deeper I couldn't place.
I reached for the hem of his Tshirt. The fabric soft in my fingers. I looked at his eye one more time, looking for confirmation. His nod was barely noticeable but I saw it. He was controlling hi breathing again. Truly letting me set the pace.
I pulled off his shirt. My eyes trailing the lines of muscle appearing with each new inch exposed. Dropping the top on the floor, my mouth went dry as I took in all of his chest and stomach. He looked like he had been sculpted.
His eyes were focused on my face. Watching every reaction I couldn't hide, didn't hide.
'Can I touch you?' Again, just a single nod. But it was enough.
I start with a single finger, following the lines of his stomach. Zigzagging along his abs. I stop and lay my hand flat across his stomach. I had the urge to surprise him. So I did.
I leant forward, laying my lips on his neck. He sucked in a sharp breath. I did my best to repeat what he had done to my neck. One of his hands trailed up my arm into my hair which he grabbed firmly without inflicting pain. I kind of liked it. It felt like he was telling me to keep going. A tingling, pulsing sensation that had formed between my legs seemed to grow stronger with every touch of his hands. I squeezed my legs together trying to calm it down.
He gently pushed my back by a hand flat on my chest.
'Love you might want to stop before we both get too wound up' his breathing was pants now. He looked down when he realised his hand was spread across the top of my breasts. I was definitely not small in that department.
He moved his hand and sat it on my hip.
'But I havent seen.. all of you.. yet.' I couldn't help my eyes drifting down to his jeans. If it was possible his jeans had gotten even tighter.
'Are you sure you havent experienced enough tonight? You have been through a lot today. I don't want to overwhelm you or do something you might regret in the morning.'
'I wont regret anything'
'How about we get some sleep and if you are still.. interested.. in the morning, you can come stay with me for the night. Where your parents wont be in the same house.' He raised his eyebrows.
I had been so distracted I had forgotten they were here. I may have pouted a little causing a giggle from him. He leant forward and bit my protruding bottom lip. I gasped with surprise. He chuckled this time.
'Come on love, ill cuddle you to sleep. Just try not to wriggle too much' he winked at me.
He laid my down next to him with his chest against my back, pulling me in close and wrapping his arms around me.
'Good night my Silver Moon. My beautiful mate' the last part a whisper as he kissed the top of my head.
I drifted off into a deep, dreamless sleep.